The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 17 - Hobbit

 

Day 0 friends. Going to make it my last.

 

Day 2 complete -- joining the ranks of the lowly, enslaved Orcs.

Obviously there is some reason I cannot make it very far on my streaks. I think I have not properly identified why I relapse. If I abhor this behavior as much as I claim, what factor drives me to perform it anyway? Is it loneliness, boredom, sadness, indifference? I don't know, but cultivating a greater awareness of when I am experiencing these or similar emotions should help me avoid relapsing. PMO is meant to fill a void of some kind within ourselves. Old habits must be replaced with new ones; we can't rip out our mental circuitry, we can only rewire it.

St. Ignatius of Loyola, pray for us!

 

Day 89 complete.

all good

 

Day 2
Yes, it's a psychological warfare. The number next to the day makes a difference.

 

Day 3

A strange feeling plagues me, but I'm not completely connected to it. I think it has something to do with procrastination, perfectionism, not feeling like I'm aloud to move forward... Something like that. It's certainly designed to keep me stuck.

I had some urges and temptations to PMO today, but I resisted. I get tired of typing "Day 0" and would like to not go that route...

I don't feel great right now, truth be told. I think something got spiked in me. I keep reviewing this webinar containing content that I know I need to master, but I think I'm sabotaging myself a bit trying to prevent myself from putting it into action.

 

7 days
girls checked out: 1
coffees: 2
cold shower: no
video games: ~2h

Well done @soggs1 and @Dropsique , we need more dwarfs!

 

Dawn of the second day.

 

Day 38...today my naughty mind was trying to peep into my "used to be" past activities...i am very shameful for my past activities, which i was again going to do that is watching other peoples Changing their clothes or even bathing...but my mind again resurrected that i am still fighting to get over my worst habits, i turned my eyes away from that place....i was again filled with shame and shyness, but i know i am still strong enough to leave any thing in this material world...and i am never going to slip in the hands of those things ever again...

 

Thanks for the supportive words. It’s nice to know I’m not alone.

 

Day 384 no PMO. Nothing really to share. Stay strong today everyone!

 

Check in day 167

 

sadly day 0 again but it was a very short relapse at least- only a couple of minutes ... Im still sick af but no corona so far ... greets

 

Day 220

 

Checking in--almost to Amon Hen...

“It is a strange fate that we should suffer so much fear and doubt over so small a thing. Such a little thing.” — Boromir

 

Triple digits.

 

It's your internal safety says that you need to work on your internal qualities,ethics,moral for without it you gonna become like super sports car with loose/broken brakes.

 

Well done brother,well done!

 

Checking in day 120.

 

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