The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Are you sure that you didn't get an erection? maybe all that curisity makes you feel horny and that was the reason that you ejaculated, remember that you can use any part of your body (including other things) to have sensations on your penis. To reset the counter depends on you, my opinion is that if the first time and how you say you didn't watched porn, don't reset it, especially for the amount of days that you have done (you are amazing!). If you don't feel good with that, reset it. But remenber that if you reset it or not, that dosen't erease the progress that you have done. You are an inspiration my brother!

 

Day 11 done!
I had a sex related dream last nigth, really wierd, like a cartoon one. I didn't slept good, but not sure if is PMO related or stress. Worked out I will hang out with some friends today. Keep strong my brothers.

 

End of day 7, smooth ride

 

Congrats on becoming a strong elf!

 

I think you should keep your counter brother because your o though bad in itself but is rather mental in nature and akin to wet dream. ..and I guess she did some weird manipulation tricks on you,playing-preying on your curiosity and want for some novelty as your expectation -questions indicate. Just erase uninvited messages on the spot in the future and keep your peace of mind.And keep in mind if something happened it was meant to happen and there is a lesson to learn about yourself.

 

Checking in day 179.

 

Checking in with some mixed feelings. Yesterday I was very close to edging and attribute it to the book I am reading which continues to throw in explicit descriptions of a sexual nature. That puts me in a more heightened state of subconsious arousal. Literary sex is like porn's more prim and proper cousin, and I keep going back and forth on whether I should just return the book to the library and say I can't handle it. Halfway through the book, my need to finish what I started is still prevailing over my desire to avoid titillating material that could put my streak in jeopardy. I came WAY too close to fapping in the shower yesterday for comfort, and still I am rationalizing that I should be able to handle mature reading material in a mature way, and that I'll be stronger for pushing myself to resist urges brought on by this content. I understand all of the reasons porn is unhealthy, against my values, and objectifying of people, and I can give that up forever. But I don't think I can give up literature and the arts in the same way. I'm not ready to make that decision, and waffling on this book is not productive but at least it is helping me ask some questions and gain some self awareness.

This is a tough one; I'm with the others who suggest you don't reset your counter if you truly didn't stimulate yourself to ejaculation. Is this different than a wet dream, practically speaking? I don't think that Orgasm (in the sense we use it in this challenge or on NoFap) includes wet dreams or the emissions that leak without an erection--I know those are somewhat common in people doing semen retention. Maybe you've hit that point. Whatever you do, keep your integrity intact first, even if it means starting the streak over. Nothing will erase those hundreds of days being PMO-free!

 

End of Day 2 - Today Ive managed to wake up early (6.30 am) and did my full morning routine again !!

BUT

This day was special in many ways...
Someone woke me up - simply by mentioning that he's seein' a kind soul, a good person in me.
I cried after that cuz I realized that I havent seen this part in me lately.
And I 've realized that if I dont see the good in me I wont see the good in others too - I've realized Im on the wrong path.
Many people did me wrong in life ... betrayed me and else . I had false friends and bad girls. But it wont help me at all to search the fault in them or in me. It wont help anyone if I close myself and dont trust anyone anymore .
And its not even helpful if I bear a grudge - I need to forgive me and them.

Im so glad to be here with all of you... Im so glad for all this insights I have recently. I thank god for the turn-around in my life!
I feel kinda different now. Wish you all much strength and a good sleep/wake up!

 

day 2

looked in the mirror, and I'm still an Orc. LOL

ok so the demon is attacking me right now. so much for me assuming yesterday that it wouldn't. the PMO ring is really sending out its devilish voice to try to lure me and my hands.

it doesn't feel like there is glory in this fight, but I bet no one who accomplished anything felt anything glorious while they were in the dumps on the uphill climb.

God is with us all, stay strong everyone.

 

Day 2

Feeling very hopeful about the Strive recovery programme. I’m getting a lot out of it so far.
I’m grateful to have my friend to check in with in the evenings. It makes a big difference.

Went into uni today to study for my exam on Friday but did barely anything. Wasted time with peers. Will probably stay at home tomorrow and study hard.

 

It’s wonderful that you had that experience of seeing the good in yourself. I wholeheartedly agree. It all starts from loving ourselves. And love says no sometimes - hence nofap

wishing you all the best on your journey distant stranger.

Or as it used to say on the door to a church I used to visit as a child: “there are no strangers here - only friends”

Godspeed brother (or sister)

 

I don't think you have to reset your counter at all brother. It wasn't on purpose nor thought beforehand.

I advice you tho that you stay awake. You might be in a place (for whatever reason) were you're seeking to do "something wrong, something bad". And you know what that might be! Analyze, if that's the case, why and how to fix it. Meanwhile, stay awake, don't lose your streak brother

 

Day 279

 

Day 131

Final day of sermon preparation; for some reason being at college, studying, and writing all brings on horrendous urges. Maybe it’s the timetable or the inability to do much else while I’m here, but my PMO habits feel like an animal in a trap bashing at the walls.

That being said I did manage to focus, although it took longer than I’d like. Starting to feel really horrible when I don’t exercise (probably a good thing) so I’m encouraged to keep that up; seeing my body get stronger and feeling healthier has done wonders for my battle with the enemy!

 

Still on Day 2. Had a fall on Monday and then a busy couple days that jolted me out of my routine. Already this streak has been tough but I'm doing everything I can to stay mentally calm and unperturbed. I know that no matter how strong the urges are they ultimately can't make me fall if I don't let them. I'm working on building up that part of myself which can always give an honest assessment of the situation and then apply my principles of avoiding impurity.

St. Damien of Molokai, pray for us!

 

Day 451