The Lord of the Rings Challenge

0 days >> Nazgûl (You were once a man, a King, now fallen to the power of PMO)



Let's try again.

 

Technically my longest streak is about 5,300 days since I didn’t MO until I was nearly 15.
Day 8

 

Check in day 237

 

Day 8. Doing okay at the moment. Not good not bad

 

Day 41 complete

Less urges for today, thanks to my beloved

 

Just a really quick check in--I have family in town for my daughter's wedding which was Friday, so I didn't disappear I just have other things going on and am not getting online much. The wedding was beautiful and amazing. My wife and I are so happy for the new couple and glad about their mutually healthy views towards sexuality as they enjoy their honeymoon. We have started doing actual Karezza and it has been wonderful so far. Feeling grateful and at peace in this continuing life and streak.

 

Checking in day 190.

 

Checking day 34

 

Day 290

 

Day 142

Final day of my college trip, had a nice drive home through the Welsh valleys with my closest friend to talk to - couldn’t have wished for a better afternoon!

Erections are becoming more and more frequent, not sure what the underlying cause is. I have been out of my gym routine because of a hectic week, but I’m back at it tomorrow morning - hopefully the discipline with aid with urges.

 

Day 42 complete

Didn’t sleep a lot on this weekend, other than that it is well.

 

Day 3 complete!

Staying busy is really the key. I've hardly had a spare moment in these past 3 days to think about using PMO, but not in a stressful way--simply because I was filling all my time with behaviors that are constructive and/or enjoyable. Even asking my parents if there are any unpleasant chores around the house which they'd like me to do is better than giving my mind free rein to wander towards lustful thoughts. I just can't let myself get bored.

The fact that I've been struggling along here with such consistently low streaks for close to two years says something about my attitude, I think. What measures am I actually willing to take to get rid of this? How hard am I willing to fight? I am capable of defeating any urge and saying no to any temptation if I put my mind and my soul into it, so why haven't I been doing that? What will it take to get me to start doing that? I can't say yet.

St. Rita of Cascia, pray for us!

 

Day 14

 

Day 463

 

Day 8
Uruk-Hai !
It’s been a really long time since I’ve reached this milestone.
And oh boy I am happy that I’m here.
In one more week I’ll be starting my new real job for the first time in two and a half years and if all goes as plan I’ll be joining them as a proud Hobbit.

I’m already seeing one huge challenge in my near future. Two weeks from now I’ll be flying back home for a week of vacation. It would be the first time I’ll have a vacation without my girlfriend in a really long time and I would have an entire week without her. I need to find a way to survive this interesting challenge. But for now, I’m simply going to focus on one day at a time.

@RiseToGreatness get well soon. And remember that there is nothing stronger in this world than chicken soup.

 

Day 3
Everything is going good. Just want to study today according to my planned routine.

 

Day 455 no PMO. Tough day emotionally yesterday. Spent a lot of time with my youngest. She is such a kind soul and I had to tell her and her sister that their grandmother is about to pass away. My little one wanted to go see her and give her one last hug.

 

This IS day 8 for me!! (So finally Im an Uruk soon!)
On the Weekend I forgot to do all the routines but did the most important ones as well...
Doing fine so far... Greetings!

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EDIT: It seems I was a bit too optimistic here

DAMN - I ...
RELAPSED
DAY 0


Dunno why the wraiths always got me on day 8 recently - lately I see that they wanna trick me more and more. Maybe because my addictive part knows that Im revealing the bad sides of this habit more and more - it tries to create many dumb reasons.
I have to call back my reasons (why to quit) write them down daily and manage a NEW routine (Start tomorrow and its called REASONS-and-BELIEF-Challenge. On the other side I'll start to write all the dumb reasons and burn them once a month.

Reason today (of pmo-wraiths) was: You are already so tired after work and all you wanted to do today you wont do either (because of this)- so it makes no difference if you lapse now, cuz after lapse the worst is the down (but you are already down u know hoho).
Followed by: You reached at least 8 days so its not that much of a great shame if you lapse know.
And: Your not perfect so if you fall its okay.

Dont blame me for this reflection - its exactly what was in my mind. Especially the last seems to be really insane - PMO uses a good mantra (Im not perfect, so its okay to not always be good or to fail sometimes) against me. LOL thats real creepy!

 

Day 0, just started !