Day 40 complete A lot of urges, a lot to talk about, but it’s all about the same thing. I am horny and it’s hard be behave well
Day 140 Apologies for not checking in last night, had a morning at college and then a long drive through Wales for a residential this weekend! During the drive I spent about 4 hours talking with my closest friend; she has been a great support during my reboot as well as at work and college. We talked about everything: PMO, relationships, morality, marriage - can’t remember having a deeper conversation this year. I’ve left feeling fulfilled and refreshed to continue in my battle, as well as in life!
You and I are at about the same place, if you're still holding out. How is it going? As for me, I'm a bit farther on with P than with M; that is because I take P more seriously. I keep telling everyone that it is illegal. I took a class that educated me, at least about that, so it helps. I am by no means saying that M is good, but just in my case I am concentrating on the P and knocking that down first. I worry less about the M, though I aim to quit that for good as well. I have been mentioning this recently, as some of you probably recall.
Day 1 Low urges yestarday, I hanged out with some friends, was fun. I'm starting to get fat, too much junk food, I have to reduce it. Yestarday I had a job interview, I hope that everyting goes well.
106 days Fellowship! Still having flu symptoms, but i´m being patience, taking my meds, and hoping for the best. since i´m really down sometimes my head invites me to the "feel good button", but i´m not buying that. i know where that leads Nothing more to add my friends. Have a great day!! Awareness moment
Day 49 / 1000. Battles won against pmo: 8. Wanted to relapse, when I had a lot alone time today, but said "no". So, +1. I am not happy at all these days. But I understand. This is a tough thing to do. And I always want to go the easy way. What if the difficult way is the only way? I don't want to suffer. But who does? And quitting addictions is suffering. If someone would say that it's not, then he doesn't know what does it mean to be addicted. If I fell into a pool, I will not rise dry. The question is how long this will take? At the moment I think 3-7 years of hard reboot should help me find new connection with reality and become stronger and more honourable by needed amount. I can't rush stuff. There are no shortcuts. I grew up in a small village and I know that processes in nature take their time. I think I am writing this to already get in touch with reality of quitting pmo or any sexual activity that I use as an escape drug. If things get tougher, that doesn't mean I am on the wrong road. It just means I have to wait for some time until days get brighter. Spoiler: Journey stuff Stuff that should help to not pmo: 1. No internet for recreational purposes until 6 pm. 2. Waking up on the same time every day.
day 32. I got 9 out of 10 in an exam on yesterday day, and when i came back to my home i went to the gym. I feel that nofap is easier as the days go by, the days are passing and the urges only come when im very anxious, but they are weaker than before.
Day 7 is coming to a close. It was a difficult day, but not as big of a struggle as yesterday, when I felt I was on the verge of relapse.
Day 289 I've been working all day! And I feel good but tired... Tomorrow I'll go again, I feel like I lvled up
Day 2 This little bee thing flew into my boot and stung my foot! Thankfully it didn't seem to do any damage. I've been trying to keep somewhat mobile as if I sit around too much the urges tend to be worse. Thankfully the weather has finally been starting to get nice after a terrible spring. I have been having a lot of urges though, but a lot of it seems to be in response to seeing certain women around town. I guess that's good that at least it's real life stuff that's triggering me. If I do have fantasy it tends to be about real life kinda scenarios too, not really porn. It has to be around two months since I looked at porn, so I think there have been changes.
Day 141 No real urges to mention, but I did have some unwanted erections that made me quite annoyed! Continued to have some really good conversations with my friends, and ended up laughing so much in the evening that I was in tears.
