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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Day 43 complete
Doing good, not too many urges
Is flirting with girls allowed on hard mode ?
Because I flirt a lot and idk if it is good or bad.
Day 456 no PMO.
Back to 0
I know that I’m under a lot of stress but I can’t use it as an excuse. I relapsed because I had my phone with me in the bathroom. And I knew that it was in my pocket even while I was getting up from my seat and starting the walk. I did it. Dam dam dam.
Thank you! I hope you are right. I am struggling with this for a while - I seem to be getting impatient and a little bit desperate.
Checking in. I am back to basics. I have to practice letting the urges pass through my brain, recognizing that it is just an urge and I don’t need to continue to feed that thought. I can redirect my brain towards achieving my goals instead.
there is a sub form to find AP's.
Just interduce yourself and people may write you (but finding a good AP that you can trust might take some time, so just start talking to people until it would feel right)
Dawn of the 67th day.
Check in day 239
Day 52 / 1000. Battles won against pmo: 11.
If it continues like this, I'll gather 1000 points way before 1000 days. I was strongly tempted yesterday before sleep, but rejected bad thoughts and fantasies. And luckily I drifted to sleep quite easily. +1.
Today so far I'm fine. Had one or two evil ideas, but that's it.
Yesterday's journal entry seems quite desperate, but I don't take my words back. I have to find more honourable approach to life.
Other problem is that I am always finding a ton of excuses. The fact that I had tough childhood doesn't excuse me from anything. The fact that my life is far from happy now doesn't excuse me from anything. Nothing should excuse me from doing the right thing. I know that this world is strange and complicated. But I really believe that if we would stop treating other people as objects to maximise our pleasure and satisfy our greed, the world would be much better place.
I already said this.
I am not going back to pmo lifestyle.
I may slip soon. But I will get up and continue.
Excuse me, if I don't know where to go.
I don't go back because
The North Star takes me around.
Spoiler: Journey stuff
Stuff that should help to not pmo:
1. No internet for recreational purposes until 6 pm.
2. Waking up on the same time every day.
Completed day 90 yesterday, guess I'm a Grey Wizard now. Hopefully a bit more wisdom will follow suit....
And I'm back!
So after my 12 day hiatus I have not achieved the clarity that I thought I would...
Or maybe I have?
I've not felt any better over the last few days... it's still been the usual up and down w.r.t urges.
I've not had any major light-bulb moments or super awesome life affirming reasons for this fight.
All I know is that I feel much better when I'm not tangled up in P, M and the resultant Os.
So I think the best thing for me is to simply stick with this program (nofap), fight through it daily, and just aim to get better at it as I slip and fall my way to a no-PMO life.
Today is Day 0 of no PMO
you should be doing complete hardmode for at least 3 months, to help you rewire your brain better and stay away (master yourself) from continuous sexual stimulation.
but hardmode is not mandatory of the challenge, so ultimately, is your decision.
Checking in Fellowship!!
Still feeling very tired and foggy, but i will do the wim hof breathing now and see if it helps me become more aware. at least that
No urges or temptations, all good in that department.
Have a great day my friends. Be well
Checking in day 192. Had a proper cold shower today.
Hello dear fellowship. After 128 days in hardmode, I fapped this morning in the shower and must restart my quest. The fall didn't come because of the book I finished reading or any external stimulus or urges. It was brought on by a change in my sexual relationship with my wife. We started practicing Karezza in earnest, and during an intimate session two nights ago I was brought to climax by accident and orgasmed inside her. I was debating for a couple of days whether to reset my counter, because unpaid sex with my spouse does not violate the rules of this challenge, but it turned out to be a moot point. My indecisive state of mind led to a momentary lapse in commitment and vision. That resulted in me being unable to overcome the extra strong urge to masturbate that came on today, probably as a result of heightened desire following the recent orgasm. I am trying not to feel shame, though I think some guilt is healthy because I really could and should have remained focused and realized that the sex was a good thing and the PM ring could still be destroyed. As I was edging closer to ejaculation this morning, I justified not stopping by thinking that because I was going to reset anyway, I might as well get one fap in while my counter was low. Poorly rationalized, but it is important for me to be honest with myself about what happened.
The good news is that in confessing my fall to Nazgûl, I have greater clarity about my goals moving forward. I completed a 4-month hard mode reboot, and I truly feel rebooted. My porn streak is unbroken, and I will focus on that, and my Masturbation lapse had no fantasy or objectification in it, I just released stress through an old habit that I am still master of going forward. I've updated my counter to no Porn or Masturbation; I am still going to avoid excessive orgasm and ejaculation and enjoy Karezza with my wife, but if I occasionally do climax with her I will look at this as a positive thing--an occasional deliberate indulgence in a treat rather than a failure. I don't feel that hard mode is necessary for me right now, though I am going to get to 500 days of no masturbation no matter how hard that is or how long it takes me. The new streak begins now. Thank you for your support!
10 days lads! We getting there.
Urges were much easier to deal with today! I was back at work and in the full swing of things, went for a workout and steam session with a friend - we try and meet every couple of months to talk things through with one another.
I must start taking my exercise more seriously. I’m sticking to my routine, but my diet (aside from my planned meals) is somewhat sporadic, and I’m still drinking. When June comes around I’m going to only drink on social occasions, and even on these occasions I will still cut back.