Checking in Fellowship!! Tired of feeling withdrawal symptoms mixed with covid, this morning i decided to take a cold shower, first thing in the morning. it helped a ton and i´m feeling much better. brain fog is still here, but my mood and energy is a lot better so thank you Wim Hof, you´re the man! Some sexual urges this morning, but i solved them out with my wife . no temptations for porn or masturbation, all good. Have a great day Fellowship! Let´s keep going
Day 1 complete! I grab my armor and fall in with the ranks of the Orcs. @newbobido Doing one thing right is better than doing zero things right! Thanks for staying accountable. @LuckyMan I'm Catholic as well, so the Rosary is a big part of my prayer life. I appreciate your advice. Keeping a calendar to track my falls is one thing I've never tried, but I know many guys do it. Is there anything in particular that it helps? Tempted to revisit the same things I looked at yesterday, but I held it together. Usually I can handle the urges that appear within the first few days after a reset. St. Catherine of Bologna, pray for us!
@Gallade_Templar about the calendar to track days, I find it a useful method to measure progress. They say that what is measured increases. I use a spreadsheet calendar and mark each day without pmo as green. The fail days get marked red. At the bottom of each month there is spot for total wins, total fails, and a percentage success for the month. It is great to see a streak of green for a week, watch it grow into a month. A couple months or more and I feel fantastic and much less likely to relapse. You can see your progress over the year, and gain insight into your patterns. I think I got the idea from a brother in nofap reddit who modified a calendar from calendarpedia.com. It is a free spreadsheet.
Day 145 Celebrating the end of the academic year at college; really great to have a big dinner, some bubbles, and a few games of croquet! Went to the gym with my friend and he asked me if I had my eye on any girls, I replied that I didn’t, but it seems people are mentioning my singleness more and more and encouraging me out of it. I don’t mind too much, at least they care, but it does make my urges more noticeable as well!
Afternoon of the first day. I got up and had a great breakfast and immediately went to the open space to get out of the house. I don’t love this at all, but I don’t feel safe in my own home alone so for the next week I simply plan on staying outside as much as I can. And for today and the next week. I’ve come up with a plan with the help of @Slider8. Everyday for the next week I’ll try to devote that day to a specific goal or theme. Trying to do everything at once always makes me feel overwhelmed until I break. So the next 7 days are going to be split up into different goals. Today my goal was to be clear minded. The day after PMO is always a day of brain fog and general weakness and so today I was just trying to focus on my little place in the world. I’ve meditated for the first time in months, wrote in my journal and in general just tried to stay connected to the way I feel and think. Tomorrow would be the day for discipline. I want to show myself that I can do stuff even when they are hard without flinching. So my goal for the day would be to exercise, have a cold shower, meditate and try to avoid sugar completely. After that the days would be: creativity, socializing, a quiet day, self care day and finally on June first, I would have my first day at my new job and that night I would try and focus on looking back and seeing the progress I’ve made. @Gallade_Templar thanks brother, and about the calendar. I’ve been doing it for a year and a half now and it is one of the best things I’ve ever done for my nofap experience. The calendar is kind of the opposite of the time counter that we all have. For a time I would relapse every three or four days. So my counter always showed me that I’m an orc and nothing more than that. And it kind of made me depressed, in a similar manner, when you’re a Nazgul there is a common lie that we tell ourselves, that if I’m already on day zero, I’m not losing that much by PMOing “just one more time”. The calendar puts stuff in perspective. It showed me that even as an orc my life got a million times better, that I’ve only PMO 10 days out of 30 and that is a huge improvement.
Checking in Fellowship!! Bad sleep last night, and today i´m really tired. But PMO urges have risen, so i feel a little hesitant today. never engage in any risky behaviour though. sleep is really important and honestly i´m not giving it the right value, so i will do my best effort to sleep well tonight have a great day my friends. Let´s keep going.
