Day 0 again Sorry I didn't write for a few days, I was in a trip aI didn't have the space to be alone to write here. Relapsed yestarday at night, after I came of the trip. I know that I'm going to relapse, I was jus horney. I have to remember why I'm doing this. Keep strong my brothers!
End of Day 3... Today I was right before relapsing quite a view times. But PMO wont get me now. NO. Not now. Battles won vs PMO: 5 thx again @Paul S. for mentioning this method of focusing on the smallest steps ... It helps^^ Greets out!
0 days >> Nazgûl (You were once a man, a King, now fallen to the power of PMO) This post is starting to get redundant, but bear with me. I swear no man can kill me.
Day 146 A busy day of lectures and meetings; feels odd to have come to the end of my first year of training, but excited to see what happens in the time to come. No urges today, spent good time amongst friends.
Day 3 Bad sleep last night due to binge watching movies and was not able to understand anything taught in the lecture but I will study hard
Day one! Today is the day to be extra disciplined. I wanted to have a cold shower in the morning but I found out that my shower can only have one temperature at a time and I didn’t change it so I ended up having a hot shower… not what I was going for, but still nice. Later today I’ll go to the gym and have an Ice cold shower over there. I also plan on doing two sessions of meditation today just to see that I can. Nothing more to say other than that. Good luck everyone.
Wow, great to see so many brothers with numbers close to 500. So inspirational. Way to go, Fellowship! 15 days, I finally get to change my profile pic to a hobbit. I feel inspired so I will choose an inspirational profile pic. Have a great day, Fellowship!
Sure fellow : | Honestly, I thought that was a normal term. Sometimes it is difficult for me to use this language correctly in a given context. I hope I didn't offend anyone and thank you for this reprimand/reminder
Day 24 It's been over two months since I last M and I can see the effects. During the day, I am actually more focused and aware. I notice how my wandering, ,,pattern-clinging'' mind works and it really helps me getting rid of my various unhealthy desires. I have a problem with the fact that it's hard for me to take care of myself for me... For my good and pure happiness. As a child, I was taught to do everything for others and to put myself last but I have been working on self esteem for a long time and I feel a lot of love for myself. I always did this for my girlfriend who was so supportive when I told her about my addiction, but it also had a big impact on her. I have been neglecting myself and our relationship for a very long time, so now I want to do what is best for both of us. Take care
Day 0 DAMN - relapsed yesterday and Today.... due to some real bad news ... no motivation today to do routines or wokrout... PMO had me easy then... Need to sit down and deal with my pain... and get up fast again..
