The Lord of the Rings Challenge

@RiseToGreatness , Bro can i use days in Day counter ( 39 Days) instead of Day 27? When I joined Nofap I joined to shinobi challenge.
After that I updated my Day counter. After some days ago I joined Lord of the ring challenge. That is the reason I show Day 27 but I have Day 39 in Day counter.

 

Day 10 as an Uruk-Hai, complete!

 

Day zero

Unfortunately I’ve relapsed.

I’m sad but not broken.

 

Day 468 no PMO. I’m in Las Vegas and that normally would cause a potential problem but my family is here and I’m feeling confident. Just need to focus on “bouncing my eyes” away from temptation. Temptation is literally everywhere here. I’ll be fine. Good luck everyone and stay strong.

 

Day 10 check-in
Yesterday I had a moment of weakness and started accessing those X sites. I found out I have a trigger. When I'm working on my PhD and I get bad results from my experiments, I feel like ending my streak.

Despite this desire yesterday, I remembered my why I started this. And I didn't even get to do edging. I remain firm.

 

Check in day 251

 

Day 12: excited to become a hobbit again soon. Tensions seem to be easing, and life stress beginning to reduce, so hopefully this portends a great summer ahead.

 

Going back after a few days lately and M again. Yesterday was the last time, so today I'm back to Orc.

 

Day 11 as an Uruk-Hai, complete!
The urge is still very strong within me, but I am fighting!

 

184

 

Day 7 check in . Almost relapsed today but managed to resist .

 

Checking in day 204.

 

Day 7 2 hrs

Checking in with everyone. Mood is tired, but still going to go to the gym. I'm doing this for my future. The journey is long and I must not get discouraged. I can do it and make this happen for myself. I need the support of you brothers. I ask for a tip or something I can meditate and think about, something positive and motivating.

 

Day 2

Been going through a very bad depression recently. It’s a viscous cycle of depression and isolating myself. Went to church today and I’m grateful that many people listened to me when I told them I’m doing very well at the moment.

I signed up for an adult swim class on Tuesday, which is a big step forward for me. It feels like a step in the right direction.

I watched LotR Fellowship of the Ring Extended edition with my sister this evening and it did me a lot of good. Love all the biblical themes in it. Made me feel a lot better about myself as I’ve recently gone through a reckoning with the dark parts of myself. I realise I can’t deny I have the potential to do evil. But Boromir and Aragorn give me hope. They act with honour and integrity in spite of the evil desires of their hearts.

I am reminded of something the late Rabbi Jonathan Sacks said: “God doesn’t ask us not to make mistakes. He asks us to acknowledge our mistakes and learn from them.”

I cried when I first heard those words. It’s so true. I spend too much time berating myself over things I’ve done wrong and things I want to do that are wrong instead of seeing how far I’ve come, how much I’ve learnt, how much I’ve grown, and appreciating the journey of growing.

Pray for me brothers. Godspeed.

St Michael the Archangel, pray for us!

 

Day 156

Today has been a strong day; I had a horrible dream about relapsing, but after waking up realised that I have the strength to continue. Feeling very confident in myself and hope to continue my self-improvement, starting with regular Bible study!

On holiday for two weeks beginning tomorrow - back in the gym and back into healthy routines. Looking forward to meeting up with some friends and seeing my family.

 

Dusk of the 79th day.