Day 469 no PMO. First day in Vegas is over and I came out just fine. Of course there was temptation everywhere but I bounced my eyes and moved along. I also had another lady start her grooming process with me on LinkedIn but this time I resisted the urge to play along and just blocked her straight away. It felt good to push that block button!
Day 12 as an Uruk-Hai, complete! I couldn't wait for this day to end. The urges have been intense. but i am here. one minute, hour, day at a time. sometimes it can get so tempting that I forget the reasons i am doing this at all. then i remember that my magnificent (addicted) brain is just playing tricks on me and i have to be vigilant especially when I'm having a great day!
Day 1 Relapsed saturday at the afternoon, I was really horny, I was alone and well, relapsed. I have to know me better and go out of the house if something like that happen again. I have a laptop so I can work in any place I want. Keep strong my brothers
Checking in Fellowship Warriors!! 122 days, started the day well with my wim hof breathing/cold shower and it´s working super nicely on keeping my awake and alive during the day. i still feel a bit sleepy and tempted to dive on coffee on the first hours of the day, but i know this is just my sleep patterns disrupted, i need to stabilize my sleeping/waking hour. No urges or temptations. all good. Nothing more to add my friends. Have a great day!!
Crap, I already relapsed this morning. I M to a P sub. I forgot, can you believe that? I am super-tired, I couldn't sleep right. Anyway yeah, I'm actually at Nazgul, with 8 hours currently.
8 days Urak Hai I slipped up and watched some intentionally. If I reset I am going to binge hard. Just going to focus on moving forward. If I watch anything else, or do more, it will be a reset for me. Been a bit depressed because of my situation. Roomate smoking weed last night and I can't due to job. Being around it made me weak and slip up, like I can't think straight or control myself and not fall into temptation. Going to be extra vigilant with any further temptation. I will focus on being present. Mindfulness of the pain and reason for fapping as well as reasons for quitting. I forgive myself, but I will stop making excuses for slipping too.
Day 157 Today was a lot easier, quite a straightforward day and it was nice to have a bit of downtime after a busy week. Tomorrow I need to go to the gym and get started on my essays - then I can enjoy my holiday!
Day 13 check in. Had a tough argument with my adult son followed by a tougher one with my spouse this morning, and have been down about it all day while trying to work. Interesting how being down wihle under stress brings the desire to give up on the streak and self-soothe with PMO. I haven't succumbed. But it is good to take note of any external and internal influences and how they affect my desire to fap.
Day 1 complete! Not too bad, not too bad. Tomorrow I start my summer job working at a church about 45 minutes from my parents. I get to stay there for two months, living with the priests and basically shadowing them. I'm a bit nervous for how I'll get along with them, but I'm mostly just excited to start getting some experience. St. John Vianney, pray for us!
