Day 59 complete doing good. I am sill sleeping enough most of the days, but I don’t yet feel any much more rested.
Day 3 complete! Urges were a bit stronger today--one is hitting me right now as I'm about to get ready for bed. It's been a long time since I deliberately practiced "urge surfing," and I think that will help me here. I see you, urge. I don't have a problem with you being here, but you're not allowed to talk. @til_im_free I wish I could like a post multiple times. Thank you for writing those words publicly. St. Paul, pray for us!
Day 0 Nazgul Guys I ended up binging anyway. Not resetting my counter didn't do anything at first. I let go and watched a lot. Pretty big 2-3 day binge. Hair is falling out more and more. Why can't I stop. I am so addicted. I throw everything away every time. I hate my life and I hate my existence. I should be angry at society, the government for not protecting me and the younger generation. I should be angry at the porn industry and the bastards who make money stealing people's souls. I am Nazgul because my spirit has been sucked out of me. I need porn blockers on my phone and laptop, but I'm too scared to implement them. I want to end my life, bros. This addiction keeps stealing my life and time away from me as well as my youth. It is raping me each time. That's what makes rape so horrific. The person being raped is also aroused and that is why many victims feel overwhelming guilt and trauma. Sorry for the long post. I am going to attempt the challenge again. I have little hope, but the ring must be destroyed. The journey must be taken, even if it is doomed to fail in the end.
Day 4! Low urges yestarday. When I'm logged out from social networks my urges is usually have low urges, so I have to keep them like that. Worked out, always taking care in what I'm eating. Keep strong.
Congratulations brother!! I recommend the reforged man program from Mark Queppet, a great program that will teach you the fundamentals of breaking free from porn and masturbation, and beyond!
you need love from yourself bro. It´s good to have love from peers, family, etc, but most of all you got to love yourself as you are. give a big hug to yourself brother, because you are worthy, you are good! Always. Make that a daily habit.
Checking In day 2 Had not much time recently and will have less on the weekend cuz I need to work (lol) But I'll still try to write daily here. Today I did the following Routines: 15 min Meditation 10 min Wim-Hof-Method (breathe) 2 min cold Shower 1 min Hand-Stand 2 min Self-Love 2 min Gratitude Greets Out!
125 days my brothers . Stepping into Ithilien "a fair country of climbing woods and swift-falling streams". Good day so far, but not that much energy, just slept like 6 hours last night. I´m gonna take proper care, and sleep early tonight Although the low energy, i´m still trying to do my things, work tasks, and the wim hof method right in the morning. As Tolkien says: "It is not the strength of the body that counts, but the strength of the spirit". Have a great day Fellowship! Checking out!!
Today I had a usual working day, Dopamine detox - done Cold shower - done Talk with my truly self - done Talk with my porn subpersonality - done Urges are low, I didn't have any.
