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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Checking in day 213.
Day 15 - Hobbit, The Shire.
The road goes ever on!
Day 2 check in
Day 0 check in.
I’m looking forward to doing this with ya’ll, and i wish everyone the power they need to overcome this addiction.
I’ll be writing preemptive journal entries as daily check-ins from tomorow.
Had a good productive day.
"You are only strong as your weakest link". And it's really true, doesn't matter how much you exercise, how much you will spend learning new stuff
if you still have this addiction you won't be great, you will be average, having the average job, average body, average IQ, you will probably be depressed
you will have the job that you don't like, you won't be happy in the relationship, you will waste you life. This is the hard truth that we need to remember.
I don't actually have 16 days free of both P and M. The M is 8 days.
I'm an Uruk-Hai today! 8 days
The days feel like they’re slowing ticking by at this point, progress has never felt so slow yet I realise I’m further than I’ve ever been. Today was incredibly difficult, I found it near impossible to focus on my essay, but I texted a friend in my lowest moment and she prayed for me - it honestly turned the tide.
I’m taking the day off tomorrow, then seeing my family for a few days, looking forward to my future.
It kills me to reset three weeks into this current streak, but I fell to M today. It was avoidable up to a certain point, but when I failed to shut down the urge and remove myself from the situation, I went past that point and then none of my ideals, goals, or the streak itself could keep me from being overpowered by the urge for release. I suspect it is like that for many of us. We know we could choose to stop, but if we don't make that choice quickly or emphatically enough, the choice is taken away.
Sigh. Starting over at Nazgul and having to plod through two weeks as a spawn of Sauron really sucks. I'm going to need stronger reasons for staying committed to this path or I suspect I'll keep fapping occasionally. When my primary motivation is to be porn free and connected to my wife intimately, but the intimacy is on hiatus, I struggle to maintain motivation. The good news is that I'm not having the urge to view porn or any substitutes, and I'm having less trouble objectifying women's bodies even after flooding my brain with dopamine and revving up my libido. I am happy with my streak of no porn, and need to clarify my NoFap goals from there.
Sad to say... today is my last day being an orc. 7 days is officially complete. Went by fast this time. Ready to graduate to Uruk Hai. They are fearless.
3 days 5 hrs
Yeah, just another day for me. Listening to some music. Has some inspiring vibes. Let's go 1 week! 2 weeks! 1 months, 2, 3, 6! Year!
Day 313! Went to the gym with a friend. Had a cup of tea and a good chat. Nice day.
By the way I'm not answering your postings guys but I'm reading them! (usually tho, not every day)
Also really happy for @MS PBH and @Ready to Stop! You're almost there guys awesome!
I'm gonna by praying for all of us! God bless you.
Day 9. Everything went well with the exam I got a great note. So it was a good day and did my workout routine as usual.
Day 6 complete
I felt a bit more attracted to women than usual. It was hard not to look a woman when I notice that she is really pretty. That desire to look at a woman feels like a genuine need and it feels sad not to fullfil your genuine need. Maybe it feels genuine, because I don’t image having sex with these women ar anything like that. But that need still comes from the simple primal desire to mate. Realising this helps to say ‘No’. It is important to unmask these ‘genuine need’ baits, because under this mask hides a ruthless primal beast that will have no pitty on you.
Start of Day 2!
Dawn of the 89th day.
Day 1 as an Orc complete.
Over the last couple of days, I've been trying to figure out how I ended up falling while being so vigilant.
Yes, I had urges, but not so bad that I couldn't have managed to ignore/suppress... I had done it before, just a day earlier in fact. I was being vigilant. So why did I slip up?
I think I've come to a realization: I was in a weakened state of mind.
I couldn't recognize it at the time... this is only happening in hindsight because I feel like proper crap today.
It's been slowly building over the last couple of weeks.
So, I believe that's why I fell to my usual "coping mechanism" i.e Prawn.
There's not much I can do other than keep pushing ahead to feel better mentally as I also push ahead with my goals.
One step at a time.
Day 478 no PMO. Yesterday was a tough day. One of my employees quit and I fired another one. Overall I handled it well I think. I just reminded myself that God has a plan, I don’t know what his plan is, but overall it is for the good of the world. Might not be for my good but that’s ok. The world isn’t just about me.