Day 1 as an Orc complete. Over the last couple of days, I've been trying to figure out how I ended up falling while being so vigilant. Yes, I had urges, but not so bad that I couldn't have managed to ignore/suppress... I had done it before, just a day earlier in fact. I was being vigilant. So why did I slip up? I think I've come to a realization: I was in a weakened state of mind. I couldn't recognize it at the time... this is only happening in hindsight because I feel like proper crap today. It's been slowly building over the last couple of weeks. So, I believe that's why I fell to my usual "coping mechanism" i.e Prawn. There's not much I can do other than keep pushing ahead to feel better mentally as I also push ahead with my goals. One step at a time. Stay vigilant.