The Lord of the Rings Challenge

'...let the weak say I am strong' Joel 3:10. Brother speak more about your destination without too much dwelling on where you are.

 

Alright, i was looking for something long turn. Let's get this battle going. I want IN. FOR THE GLORY OF GONDOR!!

 

Day 2 check in

 

Day 497 no PMO. Happy 4th guys! Playing golf this morning and then some friends are coming over for dinner. Should be a great day of celebration!

 

Checking in for day 36

 

A lot has happened since I was last on a few days ago.

Awesome, congratulations! I hope you stay free of PM forever, it is never necessary and always more of a nuisance that it's worth.

As for me, I think I'll join a short-term challenge to get me on my way to completion of the LotR challenge!

I'm getting to 5 days PM-free today.

 

Well, the projects I have in mind require quite a bit of studying and I neet to put in the hours in order to achieve my goals. I thought that two hours might be right because I want to advance at a good rate but I know that in my current state I won't be able to get more than 2 hours of productive work. As time goes on I'll gradually increase the time I spend working on my projects

 

Day 67
Be a lion to defeat PMO evil and conquer the world!

 

Just a thought. It might be good to spit these 2 hours into 45,30 or 25 minutes sessions separated by breaks with some exercises to get the blood mowing to have a good level of attention-focus through your studies.

 

Day 1

 

29 days
Middle urges yestarday, something weird passed me yestarday. When I was preparing me to go to sleep I feel my pennis wet, I had checked my boxer and I notice a little amount of cum. I didn't do anthing and I didn't felt anything neither. Maybe it's the way of my body to regulate the amount of cum in my body.

Today I worked out and took a cold shower.

Keep strong my brothers!

 

That's right. My intention is to split them into 30 minute sessions with 15 or 20 minute breaks between them. With time, I think I'll be able to increase the duration of the sessions.

 

Day 1 as an Orc complete!

"I am not diminished by my imperfections! I am worth the extra effort"

 

Day 43
I've been sick that last couple days. Good thing is that urges are far away.

 

Day 333!

 

Checkin' Out (quite in time jeah!)

Day Feelin was: Kinda low and foggy
Journaling:
morning routine (small):
intense body work-out:
No Series/Games before 6pm(till 9pm):
NO PMO:
I give myself a smile and a "you done good today"

Sleep well
See ya!

 

Day 20!

That’s 4% of the journey! Just gotta do this amount of time 29 times more, and im done. Easier said than done of course.

 

Checking in day 233.

 

Day 185

Good day at work, my friend was off sick for nearly a month and today was her first day back, a happy moment when I saw her again. Got plenty of work done and had a killer workout in the morning, and after watching David Harbour’s body transformation for Stranger Things I’m very inspired!

Low level urges this afternoon, mostly brought on by memories. I have to work hard to make sure I keep my new home free from PMO, I cannot allow it to even get a foot in the door.

 

Day 4

Today was quite a good day actually! Actually a really freaking sick day! The first good day I've had since I can't remember. I did the scary thing and made plans to meet a few people. I met up with an older brother from my church this morning at his place, and we had such a good chat! I haven't had such a good heart-to-heart in a long time. It felt great to talk man-to-man and feel like my own man for perhaps the first time in my life. We had a beautiful conversation that touched on topics like forgiveness and reconciliation, and how when we hold a grudge against somebody what we're saying is that this person doesn't have a role to play in our lives. He told me that somebody once told him that God can speak through any person. Sometimes the person we least want to listen to, the person we are hurt by, is the person that can reveal to us the deepest truths if only we learn to see the Christ-like in that person. It's hard and it's a whole life's work to try and do that. I loved meeting him.

I then did a bit of teaching (my job) and in between two lessons I had very strong urges to masturbate. But I've been reading a very good book called Love Thy Body by Nancy Pearsey, and what I find so encouraging about it is that it explains how pornography and masturbation actually assume a very low value of sexuality, as they divorce sex from love. A Christian one-flesh perspective teaches that sexuality is the natural expression of the fullness of love you have for your spouse. It's a much more hopeful and inspiring vision for sexuality. So by thinking about that, and how I want my sexuality to be used for the expression of love, I realised I didn't want to masturbate, and I could detach myself from those strong urges and let them naturally mellow out. When the urges then naturally dissipated, I felt amazing and so proud of myself for having chosen not to masturbate - or rather for saying "yes" to a sexuality that is saved and used for the expression of love.

I'm doing a lot better today and life seems to be falling into place for the first time in a long time. I went for a swim in the evening and had a great time. Walking back home afterwards, for the first time in a long time I felt really at peace and present with my surroundings. It was wonderful. It was the first time in a long time that I had just appreciated a beautiful sunset for its own sake. It was enough. My life is enough right now. I am grateful.

Even though I am in Rivendell right now I expect I will soon need to venture out again into the unknown and face more challenges, but for now I am grateful to be here and I will relish it while it lasts. I've known enough misery and pain in my life, as we all have.

Keep up the good work brothers.