The Lord of the Rings Challenge

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Day 10 complete....Uruk Hai on the way to the Shire

 

Day 2

 

Check in day 6. i will win nofap july and beat my personal record of 20 days.

I'm meditating, working out, practicing martial arts, reading books, studying like a convict. Busy mind gives no room to triggers

 

Great to hear it, brother!
This insight that PMO is really trash and we deserve something better is a big step towards full recovery. I'd advice you to just take care in the bad days, since in these times we tend to think poorly of ourselves and start to dive into self-destructing behaviours. And when we know how self destructive PMO is, it becomes an atractive option on those days.

 

Checking in for the second time today, just to mention a slip that I had today:
I went to the doctor and while I was waiting I started to feel worse, which led me to self pitty thoughts and I started to lose my mind. When I realized I was fantasing some dirty stuff. It wasn't explicit pornographic content, but I was thinking things that I shouldn't be thinking.
Just wanted to mention it, I'm going to stay alert for the next days, since from now on I start to get over my biggest streak here (43 days) and some psychological stuff may get in the way.

 

Day 7 complete!

I have felt really tired today, really drained of energy. That's unusual, especially since I didn't even work out. Not sure what's caused it--possible a reboot symptom? I don't know if I'd experience something like that only a week into my reboot but I suppose it's possible. Anyway, the low energy level didn't make me any more susceptible to urges, so I'm grateful for that. One more day and I'll be promoted into a stronger version of what I am now. Looking forward to it.

Pope St. Gregory the Great, pray for us!

 

0 days
I'm 30 years old. The chance to be "grandious" one day ceases. And many things in my body start to hurt. And the fact that I'm still porn addicted really bothers me.This teaches me transience. One the one hand I should not chase after material things and on the other hand I should focus on generating merit, as in learning, contemplating and meditating.

 

Day 26 complete

I am having some short fantasies about women I see, they just pop into my head. And now I am conscious about them. I am still using brute force to not check women out, I think it will get easier.

Last evening, before I went to bed I imagined myself as a person who does not check women out, who does not care for their attention, who is not distracted if he is being checked out or flirted with, because that person knows what is important to him and behaves according to that. And I was inspired.

 

Checking in, another day of flatline. It sucks really

 

Checking in,

Had great Monday, done a lot during the day, also went to the beach in the evening, sometimes getting urges to check out the girls outside,
but I'm strong, and I know that's these thoughts are coming from my addicted sub-personality not from real me and it's no going to do me any good

@CALM IN SUFFERING I have the same issue as you do, must fight with it

 

Day 03..(5 July 2022)..

 

I think that not the 'Christ-like' but Christ,as it is said in Romans 12:5 'So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another.'

Who could have believed it that inspiration can be as effective as motivation ! If you live by the Truth you don't have to concern yourself with the word sexuality for what is meant is an urge to have a child and apparently attractive wife is very inspiring on this account.
..and you sound destination-like now!

 

Who knows,maybe it's coming from the instinctive urge to create your own family. The problem is that it all mixed up with pmo created sub-personality like the best food in the world mixed up with toxic stuff and apparently it's time without pmo that separates them and cleanses our mind from its toxicity.

 

Day 2

Tonight I had a somewhat sexual dream. This, in part, is a positive thing since it involved elements from real sex and not just pornography like the dreams I've had in the past. However, when I woke up I instantly stepped back into reality and no real urge has appeared. I'm glad about that.

Yesterday was a relly good day. In the morning I lifted a personal record in the gym and I felt great. Later, I had lunch with my grandma and we watched some kittens from the window. In the afternoon I intended to work on my projects but my 2 year old nephew came home and I spent the afternoon playing with him. I'll dedicate this morning to working on my projects.

Step by step, brothers!

 

Maybe it's a blessing in disguise,especially compared to being under assault of the army of urges.

 

Maybe if you manage to wake up earlier and starting even with only half an hour a day it's an easier way to get the foot through the door and get started to work on your project?

 

You have to really love to be 'grandiose' and make some sacrifices in its name to change your fortunes.Our brother Soaring Eagle has a good explanation on causes and treatment of those body hurts.As for the bothering -it is because of the half-hearted attempts to change yourself in order to influence the outside results, for you can't stay the same and expect outside changes you desire.As for the shoulds they are just perfect 10 out of 10. All you need to do is to remove the clutter that stands between you and them.

 

Those are our testing time when we have to reveal our faith in God and all that is good,discarding ourfear based predictions,explanations and expectations to carry on optimistic and in good faith no matter what.

 

Checking in for day 37. I have been having strong urges for the past few days, hopefully they will pass soon