The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Check in day 280

 

make no mistake, its due to flatline that everything is booring, due to which urges play it like lets watch P its fun in this booring period.

 

Day 498 no PMO. Had a wet dream last night just after going to sleep. It actually didn’t even wake me up and I had no awareness that it had happened. Just the evidence when I got up to use the bathroom. Not sure what to make of that. Normally it would wake me up but not this time.

 

You might be right. 2 hours may be too much to get started. I'll aim for at leas 30 minutes a day and I'll put in more time if I feel like it. This morning I've already worked for an hour and I'm happy about it.

 

Day 3 check in

 

Hey man do you have a success story written somewhere about your streak and changes?

 

Checking in. Steady as she goes. Have a great day fellowship!

 

You're doing great man. Crazy how we tend to take the promisses we make to others more seriously than the ones we make to ourselves. It is my case too. Shoudn't we respect ourselves as much as we respect others?

 

214

 

It might be just a superficial boredom. Try to give yourself a set amount of time say 1 hour,and give your best ,your full attention to whatever you have chosen. You might be surprised by aroused interest to the activity.

 

Yeah, i read about Flatline and why it happens etc, so i know its temporary. Thanks for your words

 

Day 68

 

Afternoon of the 108th day. Busy day yesterday, forgot to check in.

 

Mechanics
I've spent the last couple days learning some mechanics. I never learned to fix things or basic mechanics.

I was feeling a bit frustrated at first, I just have to be patience. It really took my mind away from sex, porn, girls or anything sex related.

I have two ways to respond to stress the pressure breaks me and I try to escape through sex and PMO or I become more focus, relaxed or in the "zone" sort to speak.

Usually I don't break because well it won't solve the problem and it's going to be even more hard to solve it.

But this time not even once I was thinking on escaping so I think it's a good sign.

 

Checkin' Out RIGHT in time again! (WUHU it feels better evry day)

Day Feelin was: constant confident but tired
Journaling:
morning routine (small):
intense body work-out:
No Series/Games before 6pm(till 9pm):
NO PMO:

had to go to university early and work late (3 pm-8 pm)
was a quite full day... I wasnt able to reach all goals but its okay Im proud of myself and I got some kind words at work...
They said im doing well. Im happy^^

Again I give myself a smile and a "you done good today"

Sleep well
See ya tomorrow!

 

Checking in day 234.

 

Checking,

Good day overall, I done workout today. Feeling good, low urges.

My only problem, is that I have a desire to check out girls

 

Day 21!

I missed a journey update yeasterday, but getting on with the journey feels great!

I thought about habits (not hobits) today, and came to something. A habit is something you do unconsciously, like cracking knuckles or picking pimples on face. If you realise you want to stop a habit, you need become consious about it when doing it, so you can stop it. If you are doing it even though you are trying to stop, and if that happens often, then its an addiction. So everything can become an addiction at some level. So pmo’ing is not a “bad habit”, because we are consciously going against our beliefs. It is an addiction.

If just the world realised this and treated it like one, less men and women would be enchained by porn and ruining their lives.

 

Day 25 / 1000. Battles won against pmo: 77.

Not in a mood to write, but promise is a promise. Had bad ideas to relapse earlier in the evening also. What does that mean? How is that possible, when some days ago I was so determined? Maybe I am just a good liar to myself? Maybe I don't want to be free as much as I say? Maybe I want pleasure more than some distant possible progress? Do I care as much about doing the right thing as I proclaim?

Difficult to say... I want pleasure for sure but, since I am still fighting, maybe I want to do the right thing as much. Also, I don't want to lose good streak going...

Spoiler: Journey stuff

Stuff that should help to not pmo:
1. No internet for recreational purposes until 6 pm.
2. Waking up on the same time every day.