Jogging helped me to get through relapse and into 120 days streak in 2020/2021. I was running everyday through that time. Apparently my desire to beat pmo was stronger than my desire to keep enjoying life I was used to. I had the same kind of thinking that pmo kept me out of bigger troubles and who knows maybe it was, but we are changing especially if we keep going through the good challenge. I even was dodging driving my car because I had fits of rage if somebody wasn't driving in the way I approve almost every time I drove. The only real way out is to change yourself,change the way you see the world. Another thing that I can recommend from my own experience is to stop watching movies(especially the ones with fighting and violence in them but preferably all of them) and spend more time on forum or studying something according to your interests. I think that being alone is like a habit, when you need that space around yourself,silence when you want it and it makes you more self aware. So that even in the middle of the good company we feel a need for silence and space around us to see better what's going on around us and maybe to experience some peace and security associated with it.
Checking in day 250. 2x sea swim and 20 k steps of walking.Feel hopeful and rather optimistic ...and wish you brothers to feel this way too or better.
Went to the beach this morning, the weather is nice right now. In the evening went for a walk Have some urges, but not very strong, trying to remind myself that it's not how I want to spend my life watching this shit.
Day 8 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 194 out of 202. “This day does not belong to one man but to all. Let us together rebuild this world that we may share in the days of peace.” – Aragorn
Day 202 The new show I’m watching features some pretty explicit and sustained sex scenes, had to fast forward through them before any urges set in. You’re absolutely right my friend, it’s always after a success or long period of abstinence that urges seem to attack; after surpassing 200 days and only a week away from having to see my ex again I think my PMO-brain is working extra hard. I’m not worried about seeing her, but I was a full blown addict when we last spoke - onwards and upwards.
"Pride is at the bottom of all great mistakes", as said John Rushkin. Indeed, it only takes from us, and I'm disappointed that I'm learning it the hard way. Also, when we have nothing to grab on is when we really show our character. I realized that what made me binge last week was actually pride. I had seen some pictures and I knew I had already relapsed, but out of pride -for not wanting to expose my mistakes - and out of lustful cravings - for trying to take advantage of every situation- I decided to also MO. I decided it. That's what makes me even more sad about what happened. And as it was not enough, I relapsed again on Tuesday, also willing, by deliberated action. I could say that this has something to do with exams period and stress leves rising (which is true), but none of this things would make me relapse if I didn't want it. In fact, there's nothing else that makes us fall. It only happens because we truly desire it. And this made remember that what most helped me to easily get through tough temptations was that I didn't want to PMO. That desirenessless is the essential criteria for succeeding. Of course, everything else such as working out, staying accountable, finding interesting hobbies helps. But only helps. It won't do nothing if we still want it. I think I have learned something valuable this time. Probably a lot of you guys have also learned it already. It is that only nurturing the "I don't want it" mindset that I stand a chance of eventually getting cured of this addiction. God bless you brothers, I'll be more accountable here for the next days. Hoping the binging has ended.
Day 5 complete! With rain and fog I enter the old village of Bree. Some fog would be nice right about now. We did get a little rain this afternoon, but it didn't make anything cooler--only more humid. Many urges to peek came after me today. It was easy to dismiss them in the moment, but they kept coming back very persistently and I began to get tired of saying no to them all the time. God and His angels were watching me very closely, I think, to remind me every time I was tempted to peek at porn that the smallest little slip-up would set me on a path from which it is very difficult to recover. When I thought I was about to reach a breaking point, which was only a few minutes ago, I contacted my AP as well. The urges today have been strange in that they've been urges for porn rather than masturbation; usually it's the opposite for me. I don't have much desire for MO at all right now, even though I know that will be an immediate consequence of looking at porn. @til_im_free Your words are very helpful and inspiring. I'm sorry you relapsed, but I'm grateful you harnessed the opportunity to build up yourself and us afterwards. I'm going to wrap up my NoFap check-in as quickly as I can and get off my computer. Blessed Carlo Acutis, pray for us!
Day 85 Only 5 days left for 90 day Thanks brother! your informations are so helpful for us. Sorry for hear your relaspe . But your information is important to us. You can do it brother . Let's start brother!
43 (11 hard mode) days complete I didn't phish yesterday, but taking the phone to the toilet should still be avoided. I still have phantasies, lately I fight less with them and I still check out girls and also lately fight the urge less.
DAY 86, I used the exercise above in my challenge forum, i thought its a good opportunity for everyone to understand better so everyone here is free to use it. Good luck.
A week ago I was struggling to hit 3 days, now somehow I've pushed through and made it to 8 days, and already I feel like I can go a lot farther. This challenge is extremely helpful and motivating. Can't wait to get to the really awesome ranks, and have a sig full of quest items.
Day 9 The older a female, best if you dial up the rudeness. Control them, or wise they'll control you.
Addiction tends to thrive in isolation, but if you schedule your time it should not be as much of an issue. I do enjoy my alone time, perhaps at times a little too much. Try exposing yourself gradually to social situations when you are on your streaks.
