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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Welcome bro !
Day 8 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 194 out of 202.
“This day does not belong to one man but to all. Let us together rebuild this world that we may share in the days of peace.” – Aragorn
The new show I’m watching features some pretty explicit and sustained sex scenes, had to fast forward through them before any urges set in.
You’re absolutely right my friend, it’s always after a success or long period of abstinence that urges seem to attack; after surpassing 200 days and only a week away from having to see my ex again I think my PMO-brain is working extra hard. I’m not worried about seeing her, but I was a full blown addict when we last spoke - onwards and upwards.
"Pride is at the bottom of all great mistakes", as said John Rushkin. Indeed, it only takes from us, and I'm disappointed that I'm learning it the hard way. Also, when we have nothing to grab on is when we really show our character.
I realized that what made me binge last week was actually pride. I had seen some pictures and I knew I had already relapsed, but out of pride -for not wanting to expose my mistakes - and out of lustful cravings - for trying to take advantage of every situation- I decided to also MO. I decided it. That's what makes me even more sad about what happened. And as it was not enough, I relapsed again on Tuesday, also willing, by deliberated action.
I could say that this has something to do with exams period and stress leves rising (which is true), but none of this things would make me relapse if I didn't want it. In fact, there's nothing else that makes us fall. It only happens because we truly desire it.
And this made remember that what most helped me to easily get through tough temptations was that I didn't want to PMO. That desirenessless is the essential criteria for succeeding.
Of course, everything else such as working out, staying accountable, finding interesting hobbies helps. But only helps. It won't do nothing if we still want it.
I think I have learned something valuable this time. Probably a lot of you guys have also learned it already. It is that only nurturing the "I don't want it" mindset that I stand a chance of eventually getting cured of this addiction.
God bless you brothers, I'll be more accountable here for the next days. Hoping the binging has ended.
Day 5 complete! With rain and fog I enter the old village of Bree. Some fog would be nice right about now. We did get a little rain this afternoon, but it didn't make anything cooler--only more humid.
Many urges to peek came after me today. It was easy to dismiss them in the moment, but they kept coming back very persistently and I began to get tired of saying no to them all the time. God and His angels were watching me very closely, I think, to remind me every time I was tempted to peek at porn that the smallest little slip-up would set me on a path from which it is very difficult to recover. When I thought I was about to reach a breaking point, which was only a few minutes ago, I contacted my AP as well. The urges today have been strange in that they've been urges for porn rather than masturbation; usually it's the opposite for me. I don't have much desire for MO at all right now, even though I know that will be an immediate consequence of looking at porn.
@til_im_free Your words are very helpful and inspiring. I'm sorry you relapsed, but I'm grateful you harnessed the opportunity to build up yourself and us afterwards. I'm going to wrap up my NoFap check-in as quickly as I can and get off my computer.
Blessed Carlo Acutis, pray for us!
Only 5 days left for 90 day
Thanks brother! your informations are so helpful for us.
Sorry for hear your relaspe . But your information is important to us. You can do it brother . Let's start brother!
Huge congratulations to @Kairose and @Slider8 ! You guys are fantastic, great work
43 (11 hard mode) days complete
I didn't phish yesterday, but taking the phone to the toilet should still be avoided. I still have phantasies, lately I fight less with them and I still check out girls and also lately fight the urge less.
DAY 86, I used the exercise above in my challenge forum, i thought its a good opportunity for everyone to understand better so everyone here is free to use it. Good luck.
A week ago I was struggling to hit 3 days, now somehow I've pushed through and made it to 8 days, and already I feel like I can go a lot farther. This challenge is extremely helpful and motivating. Can't wait to get to the really awesome ranks, and have a sig full of quest items.
Day 5 no PMO.
The older a female, best if you dial up the rudeness. Control them, or wise they'll control you.
Addiction tends to thrive in isolation, but if you schedule your time it should not be as much of an issue. I do enjoy my alone time, perhaps at times a little too much. Try exposing yourself gradually to social situations when you are on your streaks.
Thank you friend! Let's keep moving forward together.
Checking in Fellowship Friends!
10 Days Free of PMO. A return to double digits.
Urges this morning, more than likely because I'm impatient regarding this vertigo to go away. I also feel a bit off today, thankfully its my kick back and chill day. I'll more than likely spend a lot of today meditating, taking a bit of sun and reading.
A note from my readings of Meditation's from Marcus Aurelius.
"But thou hast leisure or ability to check arrogance: thou hast leisure to be superior to pleasure or pain; thou hast leisure to be superior to love of fame ad not to be vexed at stupid and ungrateful people, nay even to care for them."
Let us be superior to senseless and damaging pleasure.
10 days – You spend the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl. PMO forces are lurking in the area.
@Kairose and @Slider8 Big congrats, huge milestone! Keep paving the path for us.
@RiseToGreatness Remember my brother, even this pain is not permanent. Take some time, feel the sadness, the anxiety..whatever emotion may arise. Don't reject it, just let it be. It'll pass like a cloud in the sky, soon enough.
Dawn of the 11th day
A good time to ask, is watching this show really worth the risk?
Low urges yestarday, really stressed with some job stuffs. I want to have a girlfrind but this home office don't let me know more people. I have to figure out a way to know more women.
Today I worked out and took a cold shower and eating healthy, I already lose 2 Kg. It's good to fit in my clothes again.
Keep strong my brothers!
NO ONE HAS A GUN TO YOUR HEAD
“Nothing is noble if it’s done unwillingly or under compulsion. Every noble deed is voluntary.”
—SENECA, MORAL LETTERS, 66.16b
You don’t have to do the right thing. You always have the option to be selfish, rude, awful, shortsighted, pedantic, evil, or stupid. In fact, sometimes there are incentives to break bad.
Certainly, not every criminal gets caught.
But how does this line of thinking usually work out for people? What’s that life like?
You don’t have to do the right thing, just as you don’t have to do your duty. You get to. You want to.