The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.

Should the Thread Title be extended?

Poll closed Jun 21, 2020.
  1. No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

    18 vote(s)
    54.5%
  2. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

    15 vote(s)
    45.5%
  3. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

    0 vote(s)
    0.0%
  4. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

    5 vote(s)
    15.2%
  5. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    6 vote(s)
    18.2%
Multiple votes are allowed.
  1. SSS Vision

    SSS Vision Fapstronaut

    Day 22 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 208 out of 216.

    @Paul S. as an open forum, all of us are free to come and go whenever we want or need a change. Of course the fellowship will miss you while you are away. I intended to step away, thinking that being porn-free was assured even if I masturbated occasionally, and the lack of accountability tripped me up within a short time. So maybe you find out that even though this forum isn't some grand life-changing key to success, it might be helpful enough to be part of again down the road. Stay open and aware and good luck on your journey!
     
  2. Paul S.

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    Thank you! I think I understand, what you mean.
     
  3. Paul S.

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    Day 25 / 1000. Last try.

    Emotions come and go, thoughts come and go, especially considering withdrawal moodswings. So, I checked to see if I feel the same. Yes, it's the same. Quite bitter, weary and not much motivated. So, it's official - it's my last try. That doesn't mean I'll go back to pmo "lifestyle". But I'll leave the forums for sure, I'll probably stop counting the days, I'll stop reflecting and thinking about this, I'll stop journaling about this... It will be just life and working on my integrity in general. You know how I relapsed last time? I was thinking that "One search, one peek won't hurt. Nobody has to know." And then peek after peek I started watching, and it was over... I had to admit that I relapsed after. Where was my integrity, when I started watching? So yes, I will be working on life and intergity in general, no special place for "no pmo" in my day and probably in my mind. Whatever happens, happens... In one year I'm finishing my studies, then I would like to switch jobs, and then I am open for a girlfriend... Since I come from broken family and I suffered a lot due to separation, I know that it's no guarantee for happiness at all, but who knows, maybe I'll be lucky. Maybe I am just too impatient. Maybe God will tell me what to do when time comes. So, first things first.

    I called my journal "I am going on an adventure!". That's not coming out of the house and thinking "No, it's too cold today". And then the next day "Nope. It's too hard". And so on... That's what my journey has been so far. I am not interested in that. I want to discover new lands of my mind and not go, where I have been hundred times.

    Due to this "last try" thing, I can feel my motivation rising and strength returning. I don't want to leave without putting a good fight. I am leaving but I'll make pmo addiction to remember the battle. There is a high chance of loosing, but I'll make sure that I'll wake up my addicted side from the spell of the darkness in me that says "One search, one peek won't hurt. Nobody has to know". Because that's not just my addicted brain. That's me clearly being not honourable and maybe even malicious. Considering all the energy that I spend on healing, sabotaging that is clearly bad. I am not even bringing arguments of religion into this.

    I feel that my hands are untied now. Since this is the end, I don't have to save my strength and techniques, and tricks for the future. Also, I can be as honest as I want. Since I am leaving, who cares. I am opening all the valves and letting rivers flow in my mind - I don't care anymore, I suffered enough.

    Evil cannot create, it can only corrupt. One last fight in the forums against my corrupted side. God, please help me!



    {:emoji_zap:, :emoji_notes:, :emoji_chains:, :emoji_running_shirt_with_sash:,:emoji_horse:}

    Stuff that should help to not pmo:
    1. No internet for recreational purposes until 6 pm.
    2. Waking up on the same time every day.
     
    Last edited: Aug 4, 2022
  4. CALM IN SUFFERING

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    Ofcourse she has a point, I'll try my best :)
     
  5. CALM IN SUFFERING

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    I wanted to check in this morning, but started scrolling instagram, non explicitly looking for women and my battery died, so I was glad and didn't recharge it for a while. I survived another day. Hope to rest more tonight than last night.
     
  6. Slider8

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  7. Checking 56 days,

    I had a wet dream this morning, so I was feeling a little bit tired, but I took a cold shower twice it helped a little,
    also I've done a workout.

    Also I'm feeling that I'm not that motivated as 56 days ago, but I'm feeling so much better, more calmer and I have more energy then before.
     
  8. IveWastedMyTime

    IveWastedMyTime Fapstronaut

    Check out day 3 :) almost zero urges during the day - strange but good!
     
    Last edited: Aug 5, 2022
  9. Paul S.

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    25 days – You try to pass through Caradhras but the PMO forces were strong there. You make a detour to the Dwarven Realm of Moria.

    Almost forgot. My last trip to Moria. It's weird, but when it's the last time of something, it somehow grows in value in mind. :emoji_thinking: We appreciate things more when we clearly see finitness of them. I think I'll appreciate and get annoyingly emotional over every little milestone. :D And I have a good feeling that this last streak will be as fun as my first streak here. Goodnight!
     
  10. zusya

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    Day 0

    Went swimming again in the river today and saw a lot of scantily clad women. Put up a fight for a while but eventually gave in and started full on perving on them, looking at them like a piece of meat.

    Went into the city later with a friend and there were many more scantily clad women all around the lake, and I gave in to the lust and let the sin take me over.
    This quote came to mind: “Lord make me chaste, but not yet.” St Augustine of Hippo.
    I can’t look at a women other than sexually and lustfully right now. It’s distorted me quite a bit. It’s not real love.
    Strong urges to finish the job and MO. But that would be really crossing a line that I can never return from, as if I can masturbate to these women that I’ve seen in the street, then what’s stopping me from masturbating in the middle of the street the next time I see an attractive lady? Or MOing in my school when I’m a teacher? There are some lines you must not cross, and this is one of them. I feel sick and regretful about my lustful behaviour, treating women as pieces of meat. How degrading.
    One cute girl in a bikini smiled at me while I was with my friend and it made me feel good. But is that what I really want in life? I think I’m striving for something higher, a love that is difficult but real - lovers and friends through thick and thin. I don’t want to settle for anything less.
     
  11. kaerhal

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    Day 216

    Urges have been more of a problem today; I bumped into an old crush from college and we’re going for coffee tomorrow. I doubt much will come from it but my PMO train of thought is plying havoc with what could be an enjoyable meeting.

    I’ll get some sleep and face it in the morning, no real urge to relapse but the temptation is beginning to creep in.
     
  12. i89rt5

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  13. Baki Hanma

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    Day 99 - only 1 day left for 100 day

    There is a heart touching quote which i get from Peaky Blinders Tv series. Tommy shelby said" My grand mother lived in tent , my mother lived in boat. And now a tent, a boat , a house , a mansion....I am the extreme example for a working man can achieve"
    Good luck!
     
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  14. PeaceOnEarth108

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  15. Day 0.

    Didn't look at porn. Didn't search for any triggering material. Gave in to the demands of my own body for MO, nothing more. Broken but not defeated.

    St. Augustine of Hippo, pray for us!
     
  16. Kairose

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    Day 364.

    One year ago, was the last time...
    I'm really happy for this gift from God... Love Is my goal, Sanctity. I want God to be my all, the only one who I belong to, the one I love over all things.
     
  17. LLOYYD

    LLOYYD Fapstronaut

    Day 4

    Since I started this journey, I feel like a Galadhrim warrior. I wish there was a rank over here oh well.

    Ready to leave Middle Earth. Time of the elves is over. Their power are fading but all they can do is sacrifice their last energy. Travel to Helms Deep and aid Men. Fight to the death. Still retaining and fighting the PMO forces.

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    Last edited: Aug 5, 2022
  18. CALM IN SUFFERING

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    57 (25 hard mode) days complete

    As my relationship with my wife is starting to get rejuvenated the pressure in the lower gut and balls increases and the frequency of wet dreams. I just had one this morning, then I almost had another one, but I was not that deep asleep so I was able to stop the ejaculation. After all I feel more rested that yesterday and I think I will be safe and not look for any women images on social media. What also helps is having a great mood, I did good at work and spent some nice time with my wife.
     
  19. newbobido

    newbobido Fapstronaut

    Day 5
    I had kind of a easy ride so far, but I feel it getting harder now. Waking up tired and spending 20 minutes on my phone right out of bad is a really bad sign for me.
    So now my goal is to keep writing to myself how I feel and what I'm going through. And even more importantly, to think about possible break points and make planes to find a batter way to handle life than escaping to porn.
     
  20. Kratos_GOW

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    Checking in - Day 100.
    100 days – You enter the region of Ithilien. "A fair country of climbing woods and swift-falling streams.
    The country is indeed magical. I see hope, hope everyone of us is gonna make it.
     

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