Congratulations on that comeback brother . You slipped but you didn´t binge, and it´s safe to say that you´re out of the danger binging period now. So congratulations on developing those skills, that is something that i´m still working on
Checking in brothers. Still not feeling well, and my sleep is still not good. i do all my good habits but still can´t get to sleep properly. i guess i have to be patient and hope that the withdrawal passes. Still, feeling like shit, i try to do the important chores and be responsable in my duties. One thing that i noticed is, even feeling cold and rude like a brick, i can be more polite and nice than many of my co-workers. this says a lot about mental health of people nowadays Thanks for reading me brothers. have a nice day
Day 28 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 214 out of 222. Another wet dream last night; definitely still living with a high libido and plenty of urges. I try to notice and move through them quickly and without fanfare, shame, or overemphasizing anything. I think it is important to remember that sexuality itself is a positive and good aspect of being alive, not something to equate with the saccharin sideshow of pornography or the self-absorbed compulsiveness of addiction. And I believe that simply being accountable the way we are to each other here, without shame or guilt or judgment, is a positive and good method of destigmatizing our sexuality and gaining greater awareness of where we are with it.
I got comfortable and a bit overconfident. Time to start over. 26 days is an achievement though! "I am worth the extra effort!."
62 days, I'm feeling good right now, I done my workout and took the coldest shower for 3 minutes. Also trying to eat healthy, so I'm on top of my game
Welcome to the fellowship! May you defeat our foe. By the way the "ranks" changed. Check the rules on 1st page
3 days Low urges yesterday, worked a lot, but was a good day. Today I worked out and took a cold shower. Keep strong my brothers.
Tough day. Full of duties, but I'm glad I'm studying. I overcame myself in swimming training today and took a cold shower after that. It's renewing. Had some urges throughout the day, but I'm managing it. I have to pay more attention to where I lead my thoughts. All releases start there.
34 days – You reached the Doors of Durin, the West-door of Moria. At work I feel that I'm not everyone's hero and favorite guy right now. I'm not unpopular but it hurts my narcissism.
Day 6 complete! I was really close to a relapse for most of the day. I had several talks with my AP but it's a miracle I haven't given in yet, and by now I'm really tired from fighting all the urges. For a few weeks now I have just felt tired all the time, like I can't summon up any energy at all. My PMO habits haven't changed for better or worse lately, so I don't think that's the cause, but I hope this goes away soon. Don't feel bad; you're not alone. This is what happens to me on about 90% of my urges. I wish I could tell you I have an answer, but I don't. How are we supposed to fight something that we're not even given the chance to fight? If you find something that works for you, please tell me. St. Lawrence, pray for us!
63 days complete Nothing special just same old checking women out and some phantasies about women and my wife. Some urges to go phishing while checking facebook, but that's it.
Ready for day four. This morning felt easier than yesterday. However, I will stay vigilant and keep the pmo panic button close!
Thanks for noticing! I do feel like all that time I went without PMO has made this time after the slip much easier than it would have been a few years ago. Makes me wonder if counting the days like one of our brothers does (example: 203 days clean this year) might be a more accurate picture of how we are doing. This way we can succeed without being perfect.
Day 25 no PMO. Went to ride go carts yesterday and ended up getting huge motion sickness. The carts were fun but the sickness kept me in bed all night. I guess I’m just an old man now. LOL
On the edge. My wife is planning a big trip with her friends for a couple of weeks next month and from the moment I realised it was happening my brain just could not let it go. All I can think about is having two weeks of uninterrupted PMO sessions. And I've even started to consider smoking weed for the first time in forever (alongside the PMO. I used to do it all the time). And it is fucking me up. I feel like I can’t talk to her about it, and I don’t know what to do. Just this idea has started to affect my current state. Today I woke up extra tired and had the usual hard time in the morning to not look at porn. My brain is thinking about all of my porn blockers as video game riddles and I think I found another way to pass them. I feel like I could find a cure for cancer with this level of motivation and I hate it. I still have a couple of weeks before she’ll leave. And I’m already on the best streak of 2022 and I don’t want to ruin everything by having a binge party.
