The Lord of the Rings Challenge

64 days complete

I am never alone lately. So I can't really tell how I am doing PMO wise. But I give in to temptations to look at women lustfully in real life and sometimes in social media.

 

Starting day five. I enter the village of Bree.

 

63 days,

Had a tough day PMO wise, a lot of triggers and also urges, I would try to learn more about reboot, and will try
to communicate with my addicted sub personality, it helps a lot.

I've took 2 cold showers and also done a workout, but urges to check girls are still there, I need to do smth about it

 

This is almost exactly how I used to feel every time I knew my wife would be out of town. The only other thing you did not mention is that I would also get mad at her for “abandoning” me and that would also give me another reason to PMO. Start developing your plan now on how you will get through it. Plan to visit people or at least get out of the house. Plan to put your phone or laptop in the other room. Ask your accountability partner to check in with you daily. Don’t wait until she is gone to figure this out. Start planning now and you can succeed.

 

Day 26 no PMO. I head out of town for a few days starting on Monday so I need to start making my plan now. Being in a hotel all alone has always been a huge trigger for me.

 

Another day in.

 

Hey brothers and sisters
the last two days Ive relapsed. Im not proud and was so ashamed that I didnt call back yesterday.

I thought love would be able to keep me away from porn. But it didnt before. Its my self love that would. And my habits. I dont want the past to happen again, where porn was 1 behavior which contributed to the break with my (now) ex girlfriend. The (new) girl (I talked about her lately a few times) and I talked about us and came to the conclusion that we are in a relationship now.
I always tried to avoid that "brand mark" as long as possible but now Im not the same person I was before. I can take responsibility (to be in a relationship) and change myself. I know that because I did already. But this PMO habit. I know it stands in the way to have a good stable and long term relationship. I wasnt secure if I ever wanted to have one again. But know I know.
And thats one main reason more to quit porn. BUT a reason more to blame myself aswell (when I fail again).
I dont want to but sometimes it still happens. Yesterday it was like this and then the next relapse by chaser got me.

BUT
One thing I havent tried yet is the following:
restrict/avoid computer times in general....
that would mean I will post less here .. maybe not frequently anymore... but I only relapse if Im online... when Im doing things online at a device or computer laptop or else... relapse is only a few steps away (always the same).

SO I wanna try sth new..
Intead of restricting series, games, etc. Im going one step above and restricting device and computer time now.
Im doin' many important things (writing, things for university, recording of musical song-projects,sorting,day plannin,...) on my computer but maybe I need to put them to a minimum as well for a while to form the right habit (=less computer=less relapse)

that means I wont call back every day anymore
I will track my progress though
but I try to be only 2-3 days/week online or on the computer now and if Im online i will set the alarm to go offline again as fast as possible. 1 activity and off again.
Wish you all the best. See you soon. Hopefully with a bigger streak and more motivation and focus again!!!

Greets out!

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

31 Days Free of PMO.

Eager to be done with the lingering Vertigo symptoms. I am ready for a new day, today I will focus on reading, meditation and exposure.

Stay Strong!

@Baki Hanma Congrats on achieving King!! Keep at it.

 

Perks of living in the countryside. You get to see clear weather with full moon many times.
Checking in another day.

 

Day 106
Hey brothers, I have a little question . I don't know difference between semen retention and NoFap . I couldn't find solid answer for that problem. Good night brothers!

@Tilopa Nice to see you again brother

 

Semen retention is holding onto your sperm without releasing whether it's from masturbation or sex. No ejaculation. And NoFap is no masturbation.

As far as my streak for Semen retention/NoFap, I'm on Day 20 despite of me viewing porn (intentionally/unintentionally). I have kept my sperm. So since I am following the rules of the challenges, I am on no PMO now. No porn viewing along with Semen retention/NoFap. No PMO equals all in one package basically.

Now I am on Day 12 no PMO challenge over here and other challenges that I am doing.

 

Day 12

Nothing usual. I went to the gym earlier and the same attractive woman was there again from Day 7 check in with her bf who regularly goes the same time I go to. I wanted to check her out because she has a nice figure. Thick, I would describe it but not fat. Fortunately, I didn't any urges at all even when she was around. Tunnel vision when I was working out. I think it would have been a different story if I was highly triggered while she was there. I would have wanted that. None urges at all. While I was warming up, I saw another one young cute girl that was leaving with her bf I believe. Legs and hips were nice. Apparently, there is third one that have been coming recently whenever I go. She has a cute face but I am not attractive fully because she dresses up like a boy no offense to the ladies that in here reading this. I don't know her figure because the way she dresses. I heard she might be straight despite of how she looks. Oh well, not sure if I will talk with her but I do like her though.

Kind of remind of this one cute attractive girl when I was couple of days in my no PMO challenges. She was working out with her bf. And top she wore was a hoody. Easy to cover her top chest. When I was present, she removed her hoody a couple of times (I have no idea why) and she has big boobs! Nice, big (not too big though), and attractive. I was glad I wasn't triggered. Oh my goodness lol. Maybe she removed it her hoody because I was there at the time. Maybe unknowingly wanted to show it off because I was there. I think I would really be attracted to her because of that. Not to say that it matter but I do like big boobs for a reason. And she was cute and slim. Like I said, I am one of the muscular guys in the gym. Maybe she saw and like what she sees when she saw me. Hmm.

Any way, women are usually scared/intimidated/don't like me because of my physique I believe. I guess this will help with my SR/NoFap/no PMO journey. Only up to me if I let my mind get triggered in my head and follow it up with a relapse. I think I am still getting stares from them when I am present. I am assuming that as far as female attraction for me, it won't be too drastic. Maybe something it will happen more drastic often the longer I go. I think one of you guys will have a more profound effect the longer you stay on this journey than me though.

Oh and the girl in the front desk is attractive as well. I want to do stuff with her too...if I am horny lol. Usually, she works in the weekends. And that is why I am trying to avoid checking in on those days when she works.

Any way, again barely any urges.

To be honest, this is not a coincidence. There is at least one attractive lady present. I usually go whenever it is not too busy and I expect to be a dead gym with no one around. Since I started, there always at least one hot/attractive woman that is present. This has to be test.

I have no reason to release though. One tip, don't look or look away at an attractive woman if you don't want to be triggered. Simple. That's all.

The Witch King and the Nazguls are trying to get me. Not today. Keep moving Fellowship!

 

Nice to see you too.

Semen retention(SR) is not a regular terminology in nofap is more eastern practices like Taoism and tantra. It implies you don't ejaculate in any form during sex, masturbation or even dreams. Even do wet dreams are consider normal and healthy to an extent in the rebooting process.

You can include SR in some of the modes of the rebooting process.

Normal mode: no PMO, sex with orgasm and MO is allowed.
Hard mode: no PMO, no MO, non ejaculatory sex allowed like karezza.
Monk mode: no PMO, no sex allowed.

SR can be included in hard and monk mode. As long you don't ejaculate you are doing SR.

You can read more about the modes in the rebooting nofap page.

https://nofap.com/rebooting/

 

5 days
Low urges yesterday, worked almost all the day. Trying to remember my goals to be in nofap and working in my habit of reading. I want to come back to that cool and useful habit.

Today I worked out and took a cold shower.
Keep strong my brothers

 

Because some of you are struggling. I want to say don't do it. It's not worth. Or you will turn into Gollum...on the inside.
Please don't. Come on Fellowship, it's only for your partner. Ideally, for your spouse. You will regret it. Just saying.

 

Check in 29 days no pmo. 30 days tomorrow. This is the best. This feels a lot like when I quit drinking and when I quit smoking. I am really hoping this is it. I am ready if I am triggered. Have no place to look that is not monitored if I do get triggered. Feeling awesome. Things are happening that are evidence that I am changing. People are reacting to me different. Maybe it is just that a feel different. I don’t think so. One thing o never mentioned. For my new job I started a week ago we needed a picture for our us badge. The first time I have ever liked seeing myself in a picture. I think I look somehow different. Not sure how to explain. Life is good. No urges the last couple days.

 

Check in day 14

 

Day 2, as a hobbit, complete.
I actually feel less dread as a hobbit compared to resetting to 'nazgul'/'orc' @RiseToGreatness

"I am worth the extra effort!."