Day 10 Feeling restless & angry a bit as usual. The gym cured it. During the gym, yet another attractive woman again. She was with a younger sibling (sister), and sister's friend I believe. I don't mean to make anyone relapse but she had a big butt. I was tempted to look at it and check her out but good thing I decided to looked away. Younger sister seem kind of cute. Any way, I mind my own business start training. There were two other cute girls that seem attractive. Nice legs and hips. But that was it. I overcame. I felt so relieved that I overcame a relapse yesterday though. That give me motivation today. It was a pretty good day. I had small urges before that. That was all. Lastly, I forget to mention. This has to be worth every effort. Keep in mind, even though I'm day 10. I have been on SR/NoFap for 18 Days now. And now I'm on no PMO for 10 days as well. I feel like I regaining back my health back but slowly. This is making feel more encouraged. Not only that I have been taking some of nooptopics every day and accompanied with the pre-workout (When I plan on working out) that I am taking which I call "liquid confidence" (I don't drink alcohol anymore btw). Maybe because it contains the same ingredient on the nooptopic that I am currently taking. SR/NoFap/no PMO plus pre-workout drink. Feeling as if I am regaining back my confidence within myself day by day. As I said, I can keep and I hold eye contact better with anyone. Just the side effect of restlessness and anger. I have to say this is so worth. I feel my aura might be more noticeably a little day by day. Because of this, it makes me want to retain further and further. Makes me feel better and better slowly. This is totally worth doing. But this not for the weak. Now I have more of a pure intention when I finally started doing this. I think this why I am succeeding now. Oh and btw before I decided to start all this, I have done 3 - 4 weeks without MO but still looking at P*rn. Without tracking btw. But now I am here and I want to go further. I feel I am getting the benefits day by day. More importantly, my health & confidence. Not 100% but I can feel it is getting better. I have my goals to achieve for ranks over here but whether I am here or do decide to do this alone maybe later. I know I can do this. I can achieve it and there is no turning back for me once that happens. Yes, I am still getting stares. I will let you know if more female attraction is start coming more my way. If your interested. Nothing too drastic yet. I feel they are staring at a glance there sometimes. As far as others, possibly. Maybe more and more will get jealous because of my aura improving. Because of SR/NoFap including no PMO. This was a good day! I will continue fighting. I know I love women too much but this is just motivating & firing me up not to release. Just saying. Don't relapse, this is so worth it. I hope this might encourage someone here. My fire inside me is building again. Hopefully it will become a bonfire constantly once all said and done! I feel like going in a ice bath like the one in Ben Affeck's Daredevil if anyone ever seen the movie. I just want to jump in and relax in there for 30 mins - one hour in a half. I only have a bath though. I just want to relax & clear my mind. I think those ASMR/Live videos on calm/relaxation videos on Youtube may help me a bit for the restlessness. I should do it more often though. So far the gym is curing it. Fasting, I will eventually do it. Spending the night at Amon Sul. These Nazguls keep coming. PMO forces keep coming to attack again. Not today. Keep on Fellowship!
Congratulations on that comeback brother . You slipped but you didn´t binge, and it´s safe to say that you´re out of the danger binging period now. So congratulations on developing those skills, that is something that i´m still working on
Checking in brothers. Still not feeling well, and my sleep is still not good. i do all my good habits but still can´t get to sleep properly. i guess i have to be patient and hope that the withdrawal passes. Still, feeling like shit, i try to do the important chores and be responsable in my duties. One thing that i noticed is, even feeling cold and rude like a brick, i can be more polite and nice than many of my co-workers. this says a lot about mental health of people nowadays Thanks for reading me brothers. have a nice day
Day 28 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 214 out of 222. Another wet dream last night; definitely still living with a high libido and plenty of urges. I try to notice and move through them quickly and without fanfare, shame, or overemphasizing anything. I think it is important to remember that sexuality itself is a positive and good aspect of being alive, not something to equate with the saccharin sideshow of pornography or the self-absorbed compulsiveness of addiction. And I believe that simply being accountable the way we are to each other here, without shame or guilt or judgment, is a positive and good method of destigmatizing our sexuality and gaining greater awareness of where we are with it.
I got comfortable and a bit overconfident. Time to start over. 26 days is an achievement though! "I am worth the extra effort!."
62 days, I'm feeling good right now, I done my workout and took the coldest shower for 3 minutes. Also trying to eat healthy, so I'm on top of my game
Welcome to the fellowship! May you defeat our foe. By the way the "ranks" changed. Check the rules on 1st page
3 days Low urges yesterday, worked a lot, but was a good day. Today I worked out and took a cold shower. Keep strong my brothers.
Tough day. Full of duties, but I'm glad I'm studying. I overcame myself in swimming training today and took a cold shower after that. It's renewing. Had some urges throughout the day, but I'm managing it. I have to pay more attention to where I lead my thoughts. All releases start there.
34 days – You reached the Doors of Durin, the West-door of Moria. At work I feel that I'm not everyone's hero and favorite guy right now. I'm not unpopular but it hurts my narcissism.
Day 6 complete! I was really close to a relapse for most of the day. I had several talks with my AP but it's a miracle I haven't given in yet, and by now I'm really tired from fighting all the urges. For a few weeks now I have just felt tired all the time, like I can't summon up any energy at all. My PMO habits haven't changed for better or worse lately, so I don't think that's the cause, but I hope this goes away soon. Don't feel bad; you're not alone. This is what happens to me on about 90% of my urges. I wish I could tell you I have an answer, but I don't. How are we supposed to fight something that we're not even given the chance to fight? If you find something that works for you, please tell me. St. Lawrence, pray for us!
63 days complete Nothing special just same old checking women out and some phantasies about women and my wife. Some urges to go phishing while checking facebook, but that's it.
Ready for day four. This morning felt easier than yesterday. However, I will stay vigilant and keep the pmo panic button close!
Thanks for noticing! I do feel like all that time I went without PMO has made this time after the slip much easier than it would have been a few years ago. Makes me wonder if counting the days like one of our brothers does (example: 203 days clean this year) might be a more accurate picture of how we are doing. This way we can succeed without being perfect.
