Day 37 / 1000. Last try. Sadly, I am very close to relapsing. Problem of second half of August continues. In general I would describe this day as nonsense, so addiction tries to convince me that who cares if I pmo, or not - "it wouldn't make this day even more nonsense". Which is of course a lie. But I'll try sticking to the protocol. Writing is the least I can do. If it helps - fantastic - if not, I tried something. I feel negative, but I am not sure what specifically. I am pretty sure it's just addiction trying to make pmo seem like everything and anything else like grey grind. I don't know, maybe this is a false alarm, because if it really was a problem, I wouldn't write here - I would be "fishing" right now. But there also were times, when I finished writing and went pmo'ing. So, have to be careful. I am attacked all day - it's not a good sign, anyway. I have to remember that this is my last try, there won't be any more chances to have a "nice streak", like the chances before. Previously 08.01. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.02. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.03. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.04. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.05. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.06. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.07. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.08. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.09. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.10. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.11. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.12. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.13. 0 pmo. ------ This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.14. 2 pmo in 2020. This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.15. 2 pmo in 2020. This year (2022) - 0 pmo. Previously 08.16. 1 pmo in 2021. Previously 08.17. 2 pmo in 2021. Previously 08.18. 0 pmo. Previously 08.19. 0 pmo. Previously 08.20. 0 pmo. Previously 08.21. 2 pmo in 2020. Previously 08.22. 0 pmo. Previously 08.23. 0 pmo. Previously 08.24. 0 pmo. Previously 08.25. 0 pmo. Previously 08.26. 0 pmo. Previously 08.27. 1 pmo in 2020. Previously 08.28. 3 pmo in 2020. Previously 08.29. 5 pmo in 2021. Previously 08.30. 1 pmo in 2020. Previously 08.31. 1 pmo in 2020. Spoiler: Journey stuff {, , , ,,} Stuff that should help to not pmo: 1. No internet for recreational purposes until 6 pm. 2. Waking up on the same time every day.
Checking in Fellowship! Good day so far. I had a sex dream about my wife last night. i'm glad because with shows my subconscious it's getting more into her, than into porn or other women. Great! Still i will continue my monk mode until 90 days. My body and mind needs it. Nothing more to add Warriors. Have a great day!
You promised that we'll climb the mountain together. So, it makes sense that we are tested at the same time. I don't know how to support you. Because when we are in real trouble, nothing much can reach. I, personally, am trying to be optimistic as much as my nature allows me to. I am looking at this as an opportunity to grow, to become stronger and to show addiction it's place. Helps a little bit.
Day 228 Feeling much better today! After yesterday’s mistake I feel a stronger resolve against lust, and I’ve managed to keep it in check all day.
Day 4 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 219 out of 228. Was with the family all day yesterday at an amusement park and didn't check in. But I am doing well so far on this new streak.
I heard one story from someone saying it will at least take up to 11 years to break the addiction. For my case, that is not enough because I am running out of time. Just takes time as I say to myself though.
Day 5- Nothing remarkable. Started re-reading the Lord of the Rings as a nice side hobby and it's definitely going to be time consuming. Trying to focus more on my projects than on PMO
33 days hard mode check in. Got a new job today. I had mentioned I hated the new job I started. It got worse. Found a better one. Life is good. Been noticing how much better I am connecting with people. People seam to really like me and I like people so much more. I also just naturally stand up for myself. Been a few times now where I just fired back right away. I am not taking anything from anybody. It’s crazy. This is so good. Praise God.
40 days – In the bridge of Khazad Dûm a strong battle is fought against PMO. Page 1500, wow, well done fellowship
Day 0 complete. I don't know what happened. Everything was going very well, I was getting ready for bed, and then I opened up my computer and browsed pornographic images for about 30 minutes. When an image failed to load I had just enough of a distraction to put that away, but then I MO'd a couple minutes later. It's like my brain was completely turned off. There was no realization or even acknowledgement of what I was doing. Checking in to report a relapse every 5 days is so tedious. I've reached a point, in fact I've been here for quite some time, when I am no longer making any progress with NoFap. How do I gain more awareness? What are some ways to practice awareness? If I wasn't so dang tired I'd be feeling super depressed and discouraged right now but I don't even have the energy for that. St. Joseph of Cupertino, pray for us!
Hi Guys, Checking in, I've noticed that I don't have any strategy to fight porn addiction. So I need to create one. Like 'abstain from the PMO' is not a real strategy, I need to change my habits, instead of watching porn I need to change my routine to more healthy alternatives. Also I'm interested why particularly porn is my substance of choice, not drugs or cigarettes nor alcohol, yes, each of this addiction gives you dopamine rush, but somehow we preferred porn instead of other addictions, I believe it's connected to what porn gives us, for me it's a socialization, when I feel lonely it seams like I'm less lonely at the time of watching porn. So I need to work on my social skills, I honestly don't have any close friends. I've found particularly great course on the addiction topic, it's free and it's on youtube. The guy talks on how to change the habit routine, we would never erase our habits, but we can change the routines, so instead of watching porn we can do something more healthier. I only watched first 5 minutes video, and already understand, that I was fighting this addiction already for six years, and never had a strategy.
You're probably aware of this already but keeping trying is already a good virtue. You're already creating merit and doing what's right just by trying and doing your best. If we suceed or not is not as important as keeping struggling. For the benefit of others, optimally.
Day 69 complete I am sticking to my wife to support her. There is a lot of preparations to be done for the funeral. I looked into 9gag when I had free time to see some girls and I did, this website uses to be blocked on my old phone, I will check if I can block them on android
page 1500! once again I would just like to thank @RiseToGreatness. you've created an amazing supporting community. I'm currently on day 2. I've decided to start waking up 30 minuets earlier everyday so I can have a littlie bit of time to work on nofap in the morning. I want to start journaling and reading more about the reboot. so far so good. this has been the best month of the year for me so far with 13 clean days to 3 PMO days. my silver line about not having a perfect clean August is that I still have enough time to have two weeks clean before the end of the month.
