Day 19 - Bree sends aid! Bill, a strong and kind pony, joins your quest by carrying rations and items. Quest Aid – Bill, the pony Today alright but I felt better yesterday. I'm not too bad. I might hit the gym after I write this or read up some more information here in the forums or do something else. Yesterday, there was a new good looking lady including the body. Not sure about the face but it was ok. I didn't get a good look because I was looking away since it can be triggering. Same attractive woman with her friend & boyfriend from Day 7. I guess there they will be there every so often. Maybe even more. Damn she is attractive to look at it. Apparently, I heard there was another woman but she is married that started showing up. I never saw her for awhile but I heard from the front desk guy telling she is showing up as well. Hmm for some reason I am not attracted to her when I look at her. I don't know why. Her body is pretty nice and somewhat slim but I am not attracted to her. I have been wondering something about women, do women became less attractive when they MO or have sex? If anyone can answer this. Because I heard one man's point of view, you become less attractive when you release your semen through masturbation & watch porn or during sex. Basically, if a man practice PMO then they become less attractive. Maybe that is why I might not be attracted to her because her and everyone is releasing their energy (orgasm). I think I am slowly becoming attractive because of this no PMO journey. I think people especially woman might sense it a little more. But I still need to go on longer to see the effects though. Seeing SR/NoFap videos on Youtube for inspiration and it is helping me. Urges, not many with the exception in the end. Upon waking up, I had a dream about woman that I know of. I think it would have became a sexual dream if it went further because I saw myself touching her. Hmm maybe would have been a wet dream. Ironically, no pornographic images in my mind. Before heading to bed, I came across woman online then suddenly I started to get hard. I became hard for her and I think I would have relapsed if I let it. It might have been enough to do the deed. I think it was due to water in my system. If you notice, if you have enough water in your system you can get horny from that condition. But I went to the bathroom and my hard on subsided but I still want to have sex. I believe it came back though and I went to bed with a hard on. Nope, I resisted. This is still worth the effort. I can talk more about this in another time but this is relative in other aspects in life. Not easy and you earn this. All I have to say is fight! Just my advice when urges come. I will repeat over and over again. I am embracing it when it does happen for me. Bill comes along the ride with the fellowship. Nice Pony. Keep on Fellowship!