It can be triggering at times. Not all social media is bad but it depends on how you use it. There is only a couple of platforms I don't like which I completely avoid not because of urges. For other reasons if I may say. I think I can manage as I said. I embrace the urges because that is where the real battle begins. It really test if I want this lifestyle or not. I have been successful so far and getting stronger day by day. I am resisting
Check in, yesterday was really a bad day, full of stress and depression, but anyhow I am still clean that's the main priority
"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...it's learning to dance in the rain." - Vivian Greene I admire your efforts. Keep up the good work!"
Back to Day 0. Was my most recent streak really only three days? Damn. It's like I keep getting worse and worse. I went for a big run today; it's a course I've done before but it's been a few months, so I found it really challenging. Still, I did pretty well, it was good exercise, and I was quite proud of my performance. The run left me exhausted, and in the shower afterward, I MO'd. It's not that I didn't have the strength to fight it--more like I didn't even have the strength to know that what I was doing ought to be fought. I debated whether to even consider it a relapse because the whole thing felt completely involuntary, but a relapse is a relapse. There wasn't any porn or p-subs, so that's a silver lining. In the Lord's Prayer, we reflect upon the ways we need forgiveness and how this has to be tied to our willingness to offer forgiveness. We must extend forgiveness to those who hurt us, and while thinking about this after my relapse, because I still had to pray my rosary, it occurred to me that this might be a reflexive action. PMO hurts me more than anyone else. I myself am someone I need to forgive for sinning against me. These thoughts brought me a small measure of peace, but it only tells me what to do, not how to do it. How can I forgive myself? Maybe I don't want to. I deserve all this shame and guilt I'm feeling. @Anew2019 In the middle of severe temptations, how are you able to hold on to thoughts of what our friends in heaven are doing for you? So many times I have tried to invoke the Blessed Virgin, St. Joseph, my guardian angel, St. Michael, and my Confirmation saint, but I can never do it when it really counts. It's like I forget how to pray and forget all about them because all I can focus on is the urge. St. Dismas, pray for us!
Hello guys, Yesterday I've moved to another city with my wife and our dog My NoFAP LOTR journey is quite solid so far, I don't need porn in my life to be happy. I'm continuing exercising and trying to make meditation(Wim Hof) + cold shower my daily habits, Also in our new apartments the cold shower is not very cold, I can stay in this shower for hours
Relapsed yesterday so back to day 0 for me. It happened quickly and I am still processing where I went wrong. I’ve already asked for forgiveness from God and forgiven myself so I’m hoping not to get caught in a shame, relapse loop.
Seems like a fun challange - i'm in! Planning to re-read the books along with the challange, and hence if i relapse i also have to go back to the first page of the first book and start anew. Hope this will add further incentives not to relapse
Day 0 (20/08/22) Just got back home from travelling around Europe for a month. MOd in a public bathroom on my way back yesterday. Thought it would clear my head as I was pretty messed up mentally, but it didn’t do me much good. Grateful to be home. I’ve missed my home and family a lot recently. It’s good to be back in a place where I can just relax and be myself.
Amazing, you already reached the Valar rank in the past. Not sure what went wrong but it shouldn't be much of a biggie to pick yourselves up. As long as you don't stop trying, we can always have a chance to beat this. I could tell you another tip but this will turn into a religious debate over here. All I have to say you have to prepare and fight those urges when it comes. I have yet to document my success until it comes to pass. So I will be revealing what I would do later.
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 40 Days Free of PMO. The thought of loneliness creeps into my mind. I suppose the past couple of days of being alone brought that forward. I tangled with it a bit, as I do not want to be dependant on others to feel whole. I was suppose the uncertainty and anxiety of being alone triggered a lot of "what ifs" and I don't mean PMO here. I look towards our fellowship, towards stoicism and meditation practice. In these times, it's important to keep ourselves busy in action. So with that being said, I tackle another day of making the days count. I am adamant on growing during this period alone. I will certainly not given in to any temptation of PMO. Stay strong! @Ready to Stop It's great that you are analyzing what happened. Do your best not to fall back in to a relapse/shame cycle. It will not make your condition any better. @HE^MAN It's been a long time brother, how are things? Any improvements ? Glad to see you keeping to your streak. 40 days – In the bridge of Khazad Dûm a strong battle is fought against PMO.
I am not sure. I have powerful images, then I want to act out for a few seconds, then I come to and then have to make the decision. I guess I have gotten in the habit of invoking God when I come to. I don’t know how many times temptations started coming when I was praying the rosary. Could never figure out why. Maybe it was to teach me to pray in those times. I have been trying to stop for 20 years. I guess I have maybe become strong enough over time to be able to reflect before I make the decision on whether to pmo after a temptation. Keep at it bro. God will get you there.
14 days! Middle urges yestarday, a lot of sex scenes appears in my mind, but handle them calling some friends, focus in my personal projects and avoiding to stay on pc when the urges appears. Today I will not work out (my rest day) but I will take a cold shower. Keep strong my brothers.
