45 days – After leaving Moria, you enter the Kingdom of the Silvan Elves, Lothlórien. Now I've built thick walls, my addiction cannot just pierce them. Instead it tries to slowly undermine them. Can't let this happen!
Checking in, Another day in a new city, most of the day I spent reading book and walking around the city with my wife and dog, We stayed in the old historical part of the city, which looks great, a lot of sights here to see. I've done cold shower + Wim Hof breathing, I've noticed that I'm able to hold the air longer then 1.5 min after only a few sessions.
Day 1 no PMO. I’m feeling ok right now. Those stories about how the girls are tricked/forced into porn are helpful to me. When I go to those sites I am helping generate money that drives the industry forward which eventually damaged more young ladies. In the end it could be my daughters. If I can just manage to think of this when I’m about to have a relapse it should help me to stay motivated.
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 41 Days Free of PMO. Slept well, I actually woke up earlier today and felt just fine. I feel myself more productive, overall. I continue with the norm, meditation, workout, exposure , reading and work. Here is a nice quote for when things are difficult. "Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I’m not going to make it, but you laugh inside, remembering all the times you’ve felt that way." -Charles Bukowski Stay strong! @HE^MAN Glad to hear it man, keep to your path. @hardcore_detox I'm glad you're enjoying Wim Hof brother. Please remember not to force things, let it come naturally to you.
15 days an Elf now! Low urges yesterday, I worked a little bit and spent time with my family. Today I didn't worked out, I didn's sleep well, so I don't like to do exercise like that. Some sex thougths in the morning, but managed them. At least I took a cold shower. Keep strong my brothers.
Day 117 ZYZZ is the person who motivates me to challenge PMO evil Keep Going Brother! ZYZZ is watching us . We're All gonna make it
Exactly I'm with your decision....Girls are naturally more beautiful .... But porn industry uses them to earn money and their beauty is ruined by industry
Day 39 hard mode check in. Came close to a relapse yesterday. Look at just a few images that are soft that I had accidentally found. Found myself looking for more but I stopped myself. I found myself feeling yucky when I first woke up, just from those few images. Not proud of myself, but I will be easy on myself. A silver lining in this is that just those few soft images were enough to get me aroused. Showed me I am healing. Images that soft would have not even phased me for the last 15 20 years. I was thinking about limiting my screen time yesterday. This is a good sign that I must. I was thinking more to end my addiction to screens. I had a realization yesterday. I have been trying to build good habits like singing, writing music, reading and exercising for a long time. It occurred to me yesterday that I am competing with social media and screens that are highly addictive. Yesterday I left my phone and iPad in a different room with an alarm set for when I could grab them. I got lots of reading in. Did some push-ups and some squats. I am limiting my screen time to 2 hours a day on days off and a half hour for work days. Hopefully this works. I want a life of abundance. PMO and screens is keeping that from me. I am putting my phone and iPad on grayscale to make screen time less stimulating.
Day 22 - You enter the cold Misty Mountains, the Hithaeglir. Urges were light. Stopped at a 4 way section with my car. I saw an attractive woman crossing and I wanted to stare but I was waiting on the green light. Temptation overall was kind of pathetic to be honest. I will take it as a win. @ARCEUS No more talking about Porn stars for me. Now I have want start thinking of my favorite female pornstars with the sex scenes in my mind lol. Essentially it is a reality. We still can't help it though. Lastly, I regret it now. I regret all my PMO. I regret why haven't started this journey early on or have known the effects were real when I joined here. Just my thoughts. PMO Orcs weren't that strong. I slaughtered them. Keep on Fellowship!
Day 6. I am using this forum as a place to get my thoughts and emotions out. Definitely rebounding from my flatline and feeling my libido return today. I am looking forward to using this energy in a positive way. I feel motivated to accomplish my tasks and feel my focus and interest level increasing. I really need to find a sexual partner and begin building a healthy sex life. Does anyone have any advice on doing so?
I can't use dating apps. It is a trigger for me. Every time I use them I relapse. Scrolling through pictures of girls to try and date is too similar to porn.
On August the 16th I fell down, so now, 5 days later, I'm in Bree again. I will beat my last streak, that's for sure. In the end of the week I'll have 10 days full and I'll reward myself with going out at night, maybe just by myself and have dinner at some nice restaurant or so. Other than that, I want to emphasize that I need to abstain from all kind of fantasies, psubs and obviously edging / masturbating. I think I can get better only by avoiding porn. But I will not really leave it behind me, as long as I don't do the full reboot and learn to deal with urges, triggers and in the end porn itself.
Day 233 Very little to speak of if I’m honest! Urges weren’t a problem and work kept me busy, still just navigating people talking about my relationship status but it’s not getting to me!
