The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Check in day 28

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

45 Days Free of PMO.

I conquered the challenge of exposure before me today and I was calm throughout. I'm very proud of my growth.
The mindset should always be to make the days count.

Here's something I would like to mention, when you are stuck in traffic or have to wait in a waiting room, don't waste your time being angry. You are draining your energy. Use that time to meditate, to centre yourself. It's quite liberating, finding peace in that moment.

Stay Strong!


45 days – After leaving Moria, you enter the Kingdom of the Silvan Elves, Lothlórien.

 

Wow brother amazing , But brother why do you reset counter? My Day counter always gives me motivation.. Anyway your information is worth than gold or million bucks ... Yeah brother, NoFap always teaches us how to control your emotions and working under pressure..
My Goal is Attending to Harvard University with scholarship after 4 years..I know buddy It is hard to select harvard .. Because of their lower acceptance rate. I believe the quote that was said by teacher in old school, "Unless you try to touch sky , you never touch the roof". That's it brothers. Good night

 

In my county there is a saying " Jaha chah hai vaha rah hai" , meaning Where there is a will, there is a way. You work hard for it, i will wait for the day when you have a Harvard call letter! Until then keep working towards your dream.
I havent really thought about where to reset or not, lets see.

 

Yeah that makes sense, thanks for the suggestion man.

 

Day 0. Had a couple slips last night. Another one this morning. Was doing fine, had thoughts of PMO but was not acting on it. Then it hit hard and 5 seconds later I was searching. I want to be sober. Please God make me sober. I am putting things into place. I am doing what I can. I suppose I need to do something about internet addiction. That’s what seams to be on my heart. I am headed back up to camp for a couple months. New surroundings. No old memories. I am leaving my iPad at home since it was what I used to act out the last few days. I have not used my phone or my computer in months to act out. Those should not trigger me. Limiting screen time. Added some internet addiction prayers to my daily prayer list. Not interested in pmo on phone. Screen not big enough. Can’t delete blocker on computer. Hopefully the 2 months up north I can stay sober and that is enough for when I come back the memories won’t be such a trigger. Maybe it is time to consider selling my place. Lots of memories of shame and acting out in my place. Been there a long time. Something to think about.

 

That is why I haven't played online as much. If I did and make friends, then it can be complicated because you get a feeling that your other friends want to play more longer. Atm not for me.
That is why I cut off my play time whenever I want to when I play alone. I control how long I play not others

I only play against NPCs (Computer opponents). The game I am playing atm is not an MMO RPG. But those type of games are so addicting. MMO however takes hours to play but once you finish then your done. I get what you mean though. But again, I don't let it get me addicted to it. Sometimes if I lose for approximately 10-15 mins I quit playing! Not going to let it consume most of my time. I had my fair share of playing in the past already. If I don't want to play a whole game, I watch a youtube video and see the entire game. That is how I spend less on video games now a days. Too lazy to play the whole game? Well then I watch the whole walk through of the game but skimming through it. There is no more time needed to be wasted! I have seen what I need to see and go to the ending of it. That's all.

 

I will see then. I need to refrain myself from peeking. Damn. No sex is easy for the first 30 days but my Porn subs. The only way I would release is if I start to getting more female attraction and tempting me to have sex with them if it does happen. I might say yes and if I do then I am dumb. Unless it planning on long term like a lady being my future wife. Yes, I trying to do this Monk mode too you know.

But as of now it's Porn subs. Intentionally or unintentionally peeking might happen again. I will try my best as of now. As I said, I did get better though as time passed by for my first SR/NoFap 30+ days. I am not looking at my IG just to get aroused as much though lol...barely on Twitter but that one is more dangerous over there. But manageable because I turned my notifications over. It becomes dangerous once I start to visit over there. I need to clean the up eventually as well.

My "Collections" section on my Google, I made a The Lord of the Rings section on there and others content none "adult" related content. It is 50/50 depending on how long I search until I find my adult stuff on there...not by intention unless I start to get triggered and aroused. Then it might become intentional because I will go back & forth once I start getting really arouse. So that is my fault there. We will see but I'm getting better with that day by day (I.g. less peeking) I do plan on cleaning it out completely as time goes on. If I fail I might give it another go but if then I will pull out of challenge as you suggested. Now I already starting again at Day 1. Let's go again!

 

I am struggling too on that as well. Your not alone. We have to do what we can atm.

 

@RiseToGreatness

Lastly, I was also have been thinking and have one huge problem I forgot to mention while thinking. It is dating websites. The dating sites that I am on are legit but due to personals reasons I can't meet someone there at the moment. So basically, I go on there and most of the time it is intentionally. I am peeping here and there more often than the others I mentioned. Then again it sounds I also go on because I see messages on my email about it. So maybe it can be unintentionally. Maybe it will make go less if I turn them off on their website. This can be complicated then. I guess can be more intentionally rather than unintentionally. Unless I deactivate it them since I have no plans on meeting at this point in time.

This is going to be huge challenge for me. So maybe I might pull out of this challenge early instead. Any way, that is all. I will do my best not to go on often.

If I can't overcome that then I will pull out of this challenge.

 

Checking in day 286.

 

Day 0 - You decide to destroy the porn ring! You´re a Hobbit now. You must take the ring to the place where he was made, Mount Doom. You left Hobbiton heading for Bree.

Reset. 3rd attempt. I guess last try.

So soon lol.
I kept going back and forth while in the process blocking notifications on the other sites. Damn P subs...

I did what I had to do though. I should be good now. Sadly, I can't deactivate my IG. I think I can make it through this challenge a bit better now. If not a small difference to make get through this all the way. We will see. Better than before.
Keep on Fellowship!

 

Day 237/238

I’ve realised that I’ve been slacking when it comes to writing these daily updates; during the early stages of my reboot they were almost like the milestone of my day, proving to myself that I’d been successful for a whole day - now I’m almost forgetting to write them.

I intend to continue these updates until at least my 500th day free from PMO, but I suppose it’s good that I can get on with life without constantly thinking of NoFap - making the days count instead of counting the days! I’ll make more of an effort to post consistently each day, I don’t want to begin slipping now.

 

day 26 - No O
day 7 - No P/M
day 1 - No Psub

 

Another good day

 

Day 6 complete!

Didn't even think about PMO for most of the day. Ironically, it was thinking about making a post on the NoFap forums that almost led me into fantasizing. This is a great website, a great community, but I look forward to the day when I don't need it anymore.

What blocker do you have for your computer? I have tried to find one that works similarly to the blocker on my phone but I haven't had any success.

St. Louis, King of France, pray for us!

 

Day 5 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 227 out of 238.

“Change is hardest at the beginning, messiest in the middle and best at the end.”
― Robin Sharma

 

50 days
Thank you fellowhip, without you it wouldn't have been possible

 

Hello brother!
We agree that playing an online game is worse, and much worse to play an MMORPG. When I said play with a friend, I ment a real friend, with you in the same room. Not online.

Ok let's say that you playing 30 min a day is better than you playing 2 hours. Let's say that you playing offline is better than you playing an MMO. All that is true, we agree.
But also is better to smoke one cigar a day than a box. Or to eat one piece of cake a week than three pieces every day...

Why negate that's better no "dark dopamine" at all than just a little?

You know what happens to me, and probably everyone when we let ourselves have "just a little"?
Your will gets weaker, the fight gets harder, the enemy gets stronger. Your chances to fall rise.

For me is sugar right now (love sweets)... If I let myself eat a little bit of cake I know it will be hard as f to not binge. So why, why brother, we have to keep grasping on things that they hurt us "a little" right now but in the near future might be disastrous?? You understand me brother?