The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Hola hermano!
Te aconsejo que busques toda la información posible acerca de cómo dejar esta adicción, porque, aunque parezca simple, es un proceso que tiene muchas sutilezas y matices. El primer consejo que te yo te daría sería que pensaras bien e hicieras una lista con las razones por las que quieres dejarlo. Eso te ayudara en tu camino. Animo hermano! Saldremos de esta mierda!

 

Day 14. Last day as an Uruk-Hai!

 

Due the coronavirus and quaarantine I deceided to make my life more creative and do more things so lets get started.

Here is my list of Pros and Cons of Staying watching Porn which I created like 1 or 1.5 years ago

Pros :
- I know where am I and I know it is my comfort zone (feeling of safety)

Cons :
- My depression is going to grow
- lack of perspective for change
- I gonna still be weak and tired
- Staying in the comfort zone will not foretell anything good
- The future probably is going to be the same as my Present and Past
- no friends
- no girlfriend
- Little libido, energy and motivation to do something great in my life
- Low confidence
- Weak performence on GYM and mediocre poker player
- Lots of time wasting on video games, internet, movies but I remember times when I was doing nofap for more than 3weeks + I rly didnt even wanted to waste my time for games due the very simple cause : it wasnt giving me any resource in Longterm and I was very sure this.

The number of cons and their power is so strong . After reading something like this you should be motivated to getting started.
I also made a list of Pros and Cons of Quiting watching porn which gonna write down here in a moment. Tell me what you think about it!

 

Quit watching Porn:

Pros :
- I feel much better, strong with a lot of energy, motivated
- I am wasting much less time
- I am not brainwashed and I play poker much better (by brainwashed I mean difficulty with focus or beeing in present due overdose porn, games or internet = when u do things on autopilot)
- I am much more focused on HERE and NOW
- no mood swings
- I am very cheerful and I have good connection with other people
- I am very self-confident and I work a lot
- Back to the natural relations : I build friendships and have much more time for them when before I often wasnt interested in keeping touch with my friends due lack of motivation to do it.
- I have much better relations with people
- If I really want to change my life and others then I feel I have to do this (nofap) There is no other way.

Cons :
- It gives me a momentary pleasure, however my conscience hurts due this really much.
- I can make me feel better when I have bad time, feeling bad or I am bored. also I like doing this whenever I am tilte to make myself temporary happy or at least satisfied.

 

You'll lose bruh, give up on 1v1 vs me I'm gonna make it to the +500


(Just wanna have it as a motivation from me haha)

Let's see who's the legend ...

 

Checking in for day 38!

 

Day 4 here
Sorry for not writing recently, helped my family a lot in last time

 

Day 8. This time, I'm going to get to day 9.

 

Day 2: Still feeling tired and a bit sick. Ended up spending most of today in bed. When I did come downstairs, I just spent the day playing a video game. Not a productive day, but I needed the rest. Hope tomorrow I feel better for Easter. Stay strong!

 

Day 6. Almost messed up a few times. Caught myself looking but quit right away.

 

I just had wet dreams last night. I don't know if it counts as a relapse or not. I don't remember what that dream is.

 

No, wet dreams don't count as a relapse. It's not something you have any control over. Congratulations on two weeks! Keep going man

 

Day 6!

 

Yep,I was right. People have testosterone and estrogen analyzing system inside their bodies.
I had to go out for something and noticed people paying attention to me, especially girls.
I was curious to know. Yep, I'm getting a lot more attention than when I wasn't clean. Despite the fact, I don't give any shit to attraction thingy anymore, BECAUSE I do it for the sake of my own mental state/my personality/HORMONES BALANCE*** which has got neglected all the time.

I simply F.ed my body and brain with porn/ unstable level of hormones/every thing was out of control. Now, gradually I'm getting back to my optimal mental/body state.

NOT because I left porn. I STILL WATCH porn but not for joy, but analyzing why/under which circumstances I'd fancy to do some things and to know why a body can be triggering and to find the exact reason and try to control my subconscious mind.

Now I find my self able to control my subconscious mind, that was a tremendous victory.
More than leaving porn, I'm hardly trying to change my mindset and have control on my subconscious mind, to only let specific stimulus operate that I want.

 

Checking in Day 15. I'm now a Hobbit!
Let's start this journey and destroy the porn ring!

 

Checking in day 100. 50 days ahead. Let's keep going!