Day 12 Feeling good and slept well (finally). Completed my fast (24 hours) and it feels good to fast again. Family brought home more food and there is still dessert (bread and another one I don't know the name). So yes, I can eat them because I need the calories including sugar (obviously in control it) for the gym. The dessert at home weren't too sweet any way which was good. Gym soon or later. Surprisingly, little urges especially during my fast. It was not easy in the first 6 - 8 hours somewhere around there. Loneliness & boredom came in as well. Being on a fast can cause insomnia so I can be in the same situation as @RiseToGreatness But thankfully, I wasn't horny at all or barely during the fast. I was expecting it but barely came in. It was creeping up but I was fighting and kept it at bay. Going to restart and start another fast again within the day. I want to do another one. I have to be careful with fasting because it will increase my urges and it will give me insomnia if I'm on it. I have to be careful how much caffeine I am consuming during a fast. On top of that I am SR/no PMO. I have been getting withdrawal symptoms with lack of sleep, possibly insomnia (I think I have been experiencing it as of right now), and some anger coming in. Yup it is slowing down again here in the challenges. This isn't easy. With the exception of being busy of course. Again, I keep saying to keep checking in. You must to give yourself the accountability. I found out someone was doing this challenge but not checking in here. He is taking it seriously and he is doing well. @Redemptionisrequired I already said something in the other challenge. Yes, Tipola was doing it here as well. Amazing streak btw. I don't recommend O during sex (for number of reasons) but I won't argue with anyone here if they say they did it here or the other threads. For me, pure Monk mode as much as possible. Brother, your the boss here now since Rise left you in charge so whatever goes with the rules then I will do my best to comply. It still the same with the rules so I'm good with it. I'm more on semen retention on my goals but I am complying with no PMO as best as I can. Going to do my best go all the way since I committed to this hard mode. Btw how do you DM over here in the forums? I'm trying to figure this out atm. You won't be able to make them gone away completely despite of a longer streak. It will take practice. Me and Redemptionisrequired were talking about Tipola who was the one who was able to removed urges from what I heard from his threads. But I don't know what methods he was using even though I would disagree on what he was doing. Then he did say that you can't remove urges I believe. I don't know. Me and him think alike when he said to embrace urges. Exactly, I embrace my urges because it will make me stronger if I overcome them. So expect urges and fight them. Any way, same ish different day. Or same crap different day. You get what I mean If you don't fight back, one by one you fall back into darkness! Let's go. Keep on going Fellowship!
At soft play with my kids. There are mums everywhere. This is triggertown for me…. Classic behaviour would be for me to relapse after I get back home after something like this breath…..
Day 429 Cold shower as soon as you get back home! And if you can make a few burpees or run a little. Ask God to protect you and reject the devil
10/7/2022 completed day 1 - no O day 5 - No M & self stimulation day 5 - No P / Psub / addiction-induced arousal
Checking in Fellowship friends! 88 Days Free of PMO. Overall replenishing rest yesterday. I take action today once more. Meditation, exposure, workout, reading and study. To the brothers that relapse, please take your time an analyze what lead you down the path of relapse. What emotion were you feeling? What were you up to prior to getting to a relapse? Addressing your triggers is key to moving forward. Stay Strong! @LLOYYD Thank you brother. I agree regarding semen retention. As for the rules of the challenge, I maintain the same ones that @RiseToGreatness has adhered to for the challenge. I will not change them. I do not consider myself the "boss" of this challenge, as it would imply that I am above others (I'm not saying you're saying this either btw) rather, we are all brothers working towards a common goal and with the confidence of @RiseToGreatness, I will try my best to share the knowledge I acquire as I go on my own streak. Regarding a DM, look at the top right, to the left of "Alerts" and "Log out". You will see "Inbox", select that and then select "start a conversation". At that point you just put the name or names of the people you want to have in you direct conversation. @ARCEUS As you go on your path urges will lessen. The important factor is delving into the roots of your addiction and addressing them. Once you address them and cultivate healthy ways of dealing with discomfort (emotional or otherwise) then you can consider yourself fully free. Observe your urge, do not resist and question it. Feel the sensations in your body (do not build on the fantasy that pops in your head only observe the sensations in your body without judgment or resistance) and then delve into what lead this to appear. This is a lengthy process, simply counting the days will not free you. It is a start, but a lot of deep work needs to take place. This is why breaking an addiction is difficult. I've had urges even in my 400+ day streak, just rarer in instance.
1 day. Missed my check in yesterday. Missed my writing of the things I want to do yesterday. Made my bed when I got up. Still have not been laid off. Very tired. Soon.
I’m good. Had a wee chat with myself in there, an internal dialogue on what I was thinking, why, and how silly it was. When I got home I just took the dog a walk. Fresh air is always good, look at the trees, take a time out
I'm only on day 4, I mess up sugar fasting all the time, let alone dopamine fasting. I CAN'T DO THIS SHIT! Saturday morning, I sleep long - ok, maybe I need that. I get up and my mind starts wandering, my motivation is at point zero, although I'm not depressed yet (that comes only some miles down this road of laziness and negativity) Structure? Routines? An inner voice that guides me? Discipline? - NEGATIVE Somehow it goes or somehow it goes wrong. That's the motto ... Ok, ENOUGH. I will control what I can control. First things first: I'm not acting out. I'm not. And that's good! Now I need a battle plan. And that's it for today. I hope I'll be back in a few days with a better outlook.
Brother ,it is not easy to describe. But This is my answer. I am not fully recovered from PMO. But we have a strong powerful reason to eradicate PMO, It can be easy to go free PMO path. I am not married , So definitely I don't have O problem. So that I have only P and M problems. First I realized why I want to quit that bad habit. I have been working with my sister for 5 months . She always motivated me and helped me to solve math problems. I'm always working with my laptop . So I have huge chance to watch some p stuff too. But I always think , why i am watching these P stuff . And I don't want to lose my strength , visualizing skills , to these bad stuffs. I set goals to my life. My country isn't a well developed country. Some times I don't have enough food to eat. Because of it , All the prices of foods, oil, medicines are rising daily. So that I want to get high salary job to survive this country. So that How do i think all p**n stars and other bad things. I don't have comfortable environment to live. Now I have lot of responsibilities . In my leisure time I watch some latset videos in body builders like Big ramy ,Chris Bumstead, Andrew Jacked., Nick Walker and listening some music. This is my new lifestyle. Brother, As I mentioned that I'm not fully recovered. I have to go huge journey in Nofap. I have to develop some skills. I mentioned about my environment. I think this information are helpful. If you get any discomfort during reading this please forgive me brother.
Everyday we abstain from enjoying the pleasures we have, we are growing passively .But if not able to use this new found willpower to develop new habits we might not actually see the results we want to achieve. I have started with waking up early and eating healthy food . I used to be a insomniac often binge watching series all night long and eating a lot of junk food. We will all develop ourselves to be the person we have always dreamed to be. Slowly but definitely.
Earlier I used to focus on too many ways to develop myself but that later turned out to be too stressful and had a detrimental effect. But I think just waking up early could initiate many other productive activities too.
long time no see again guys... hope you are all well This is DAY 2 for me sadly I already relapsed 3 times in Oktober but the month isnt over yet! Greets
Relapsed today. My biggest problem is in the morning when I wake up and don't have to get out of bed immediately. That's my struggle. I guess I will somehow force myself out of bed once my alarm goes off. Day 0
Hey man, I feel you! What happened? Was it M or P? PMO session, binge or some softcore / insta stuff that made you stumble? I can relate to the waking up in the morning. Better not have any device near the bed! Then you'll be safer. Or is it MO? Well, MO in bed is a problem that I know. The other problem for me is getting out of bed, getting motivation and drive and getting a clear head (making clear decisions for the day). But we can overcome these issues! What is your plan for you up-coming super long streak?
Day 5 Alone at home, with some urges, feeling loonely and some sad. Now I know that that is a trigger. But I will win this battle. Keep strong my brothers.
