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I had to make a cut after last those strong sentences. I'm even shocked how it turned out. But glad that I came to such a point ... it's not shallow anymore but deep .. my words are failing me.
Unfortunately most of the time I have to make a lot of shallow words until somehow I get into the deep ... (it's like grace)
I fucked up my sleeping routine already. But I couldn't leave without another post. I have to come to a conclusion, finish this up.
First I wanted to say, that of course, relapses are a part of recovery. Relapses are ok and it is most imporant that we don't dwell on it and that we get ourselves together, not get from one relapse to the next.
But it's clear we also need progress in the recovery progress or else it would be endless. As for me, I need progress right now, I need to go on, stay on, get beyond my old limits.
Ok, back to my current situation. As I pointed out, this is a challenge. As tempted I may be and as difficult as it may get, I want to stay clean, I'm taking on this challenge!
This needs to be documented and I need to stay accountable.
But I don't need to count the days all the time and I should do breaks from the forum, stop coming every day. Also:
Unfortunately most of the time I have to make a lot of shallow words until somehow I get into the deep ... (it's like grace)
I fucked up my sleeping routine already. But I couldn't leave without another post. I have to come to a conclusion, finish this up.
First I wanted to say, that of course, relapses are a part of recovery. Relapses are ok and it is most imporant that we don't dwell on it and that we get ourselves together, not get from one relapse to the next.
But it's clear we also need progress in the recovery progress or else it would be endless. As for me, I need progress right now, I need to go on, stay on, get beyond my old limits.
Ok, back to my current situation. As I pointed out, this is a challenge. As tempted I may be and as difficult as it may get, I want to stay clean, I'm taking on this challenge!
This needs to be documented and I need to stay accountable.
But I don't need to count the days all the time and I should do breaks from the forum, stop coming every day. Also:
- I need to be in control of my day, I need to set clear intentions and stay present in the process
- I can't let other people take control of my time schedule
- Make commitments and be mindful