1 day. Had a slip yesterday. No biggie. Doing all I can. Super tired from work. I got this. Never going to give up.
I just can't believe what happened Lesson learned: Don't ever dare to be woked up when in sleepy state and urges are at peak. It had happened previously too, I was sleepy but was pushing myself not to sleep, the urges were very much more dangerous in sleepy state, I already knew it but I ignored this, the problem repeated itself ;-; Do I only decrease my counter by half because it was like 30% my mistake and 70% my subconscious
2 days Low urges yesterday, worked almost all day and I thougth that I had the flue, but I was wrong. Today I worked out and took a cold shower(today the water was really cold) Keep strong my brothers.
Day 35 Always a hard area of the challenge for me. Urges are starting to get fairly high again. I know I can do it though.
You will never grow until you learn to take %100 accountability. It is %100 on you whether you are successful or not. Keep fighting, the counter doesn't matter that much. You still have only once in 22 days which is pretty amazing.
Day 12 no PMO. Fly home from vacation today so soon life will be back to normal. As I have mentioned previously I do tend to struggle with depression right after a vacation so I’ll try to keep my spirits up.
Day 18 no PM checking in. I’m feeling pretty good. Starting to notice a bit more mental clarity and ability to hold my attention. Still get impulses but yesterday they weren’t as strong, or I was able to handle them better.
Thanks for the appreciation, at the end of the day, it was me who refused to sleep for the sake of study and allowed myself to experience sleep Inertia, the initiation was solely done by me I will accept this guilt and stand up again from the heavy shock I experienced few hours before and learn more and more. If this life be easy than everyone would be successful, but no, if he wants to be successful, he definitely will face lots of unwanting emotions and experiences, but the prize he will get is priceless.
Day 16 -Touched by your bravery, the gentle Elves of Rivendell give you an elven cloak. The cloak has a hood and is fastened by a green brooch. It acts as camouflage when PMO units are around. Quest Item - Elven Cloak Back to the grind. Moving onward in the journey to Mordor. Starting the series & watching The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey on the go when I can. All extended edition since I own them. Should I buy UHD on digital? Should I buy the 3D version (digital) since I have a VR headset to watch into? Still thinking about it. Reminder to myself, not to worry because challenge will always come my way here on this journey. Don't say it like Theoden in the Battle of Hornburg Gym sooner or later. Read and such. These Elven cloaks will aid me to camouflage from PMO forces around. Keep on going Fellowship!
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 92 Days Free of PMO. I had a dream where I nearly relapsed, it's interesting how I view this as a nightmare. I'm glad for that to be honest. Apart from that, I slept well last night and ready to take on another day of meditation, exposure, workout, work and reading. I'm trying my best to improve in all parts of my life, in gradual small increments. "Do the thing we fear the most and death of fear is certain." -Ralph Waldo Emerson Stay Strong! @ARCEUS Do not beat yourself up too much brother, learn from your mistake. That is the best present you can give yourself. Also, be proud. You are 16 and are tackling an addiction with which many of us would wish we could of done that so early on in life.
Brother, I have little question for you. Are you a morning person or Night person? . Morning person can do their work easily with more focus in early in the morning . But Night person can only perform well at night. I am Night person. Another thing is please watch below video. It is very helpful to you.
Day 3: PMO forces have spotted you!! With haste you use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine river. Been very busy today. Went to Uni early in the morning, and worked on assignments the rest of the day. No urges whatsoever, another sign that being busy really helps to get your focus on other things.
Day 4 complete! I hope I didn't scare anyone by making such a gloomy post and then disappearing for a few days. I've been on an evangelization trip and I didn't have the time or a convenient way to check the forums. Those three days were a great way to kickstart my new streak, though, and I've continued that today even though there were several temptations to peek. I'm back home visiting my family for a few days, and I have had many falls under this roof. Time to begin the work of balancing that out with some good days! St. Monica, pray for us!
