The Lord of the Rings Challenge

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  • No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

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  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

    Votes: 15 45.5%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

    Votes: 0 0.0%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

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  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    Votes: 6 18.2%
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Talz said:
Unfortunately I just relapsed. I'm getting some really triggering youtube recommendations lately. Oh well, once in 38 days is pretty good. Now I gotta get back at it!

Could use some encouragement to not make this a binge.
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Put the slip behind you, learn from what happened. One slip in 38 days is great going, and take the positives from that. You know the lie your addict is telling. You’ve slipped so you might as well binge. This is a lie your inner addict is telling you. Just smile back politely to your addict, tell him that he’s talking shit, that you are in control and your not going to binge as it will make you feel worse when it’s over. You can do it!!!
 
Day 21.
No doubt yesterday was hardest day. A lady from my past messages me out the blue. We’d hooked up a few times many years ago and continued to chat for a while, but not for over a year.
Anyway, she contacted me, was being very flirtatious, sent me pictures of new tattoos she had, asked me if I wanted to see any more or if I wanted to meet.
My heart was racing and my head pounding. I wasn’t rude to her and I asked how she was doing, but I kept it at that. old me would have got/sent pics and PMO, and then Probably gone on a binge looking for vids that looked like her.
This time I didn’t do anything and it stayed strong, but the fight took it out me. I was angry at everyone and everything. Even shouted at me dog!!!
what an idiot. Anyway I made it, I went to bed early and listened to a book. Had a good sleep and that helped. Managed to distract myself.

onwards……
 
daddyG1981 said:
Yes our nature is to be attracted to the opposite sex (if you are heterosexual) - it’s an evolutionary response. The same way we get hungry, respond to threats. There’s a hardwired system inside us to survive and reproduce.

the problem is that porn totally overwhelms and screws with those natural instincts. Our brains have not evolved to view so many different partners and such explicit images so quickly and easily. So it hijacks our responses.

same is with fatty, salty sugary foods…. We’re not evolved to eat that, so when we get those fries out McDonalds our brains go ‘dig in man, this is the bounty of a lifetime!!!’ Even though we can get it really easy.
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That may be true
 
Day 0

I am still lost. I need to get back on my feet. It's hard to write after a fall, but I think that if had checked in yesterday, today it would have been easier. My plan first of all is to check in daily and think about my progress.

The fault of the recent fall is that I was tired and completely gave in to non productive resting. I should have made a plan and be prepared how will I rest.
 
daddyG1981 said:
Day 21.
No doubt yesterday was hardest day. A lady from my past messages me out the blue. We’d hooked up a few times many years ago and continued to chat for a while, but not for over a year.
Anyway, she contacted me, was being very flirtatious, sent me pictures of new tattoos she had, asked me if I wanted to see any more or if I wanted to meet.
My heart was racing and my head pounding. I wasn’t rude to her and I asked how she was doing, but I kept it at that. old me would have got/sent pics and PMO, and then Probably gone on a binge looking for vids that looked like her.
This time I didn’t do anything and it stayed strong, but the fight took it out me. I was angry at everyone and everything. Even shouted at me dog!!!
what an idiot. Anyway I made it, I went to bed early and listened to a book. Had a good sleep and that helped. Managed to distract myself.

onwards……
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Congrats! Not perfect, but who cares about perfect, it's only an ideal. You did great
 
Day 19 – Bree sends aid! Bill, a strong and kind pony, joins your quest by carrying rations and items.
Quest Aid – Bill, the pony :emoji_horse:

Pretty good overall including mood. I didn't get to hit the gym earlier so I have to wait until Sunday midnight over here where I live to go. This was an important for me for this journey. That is all I'm going to say.

From yesterday, I forgot to mention that I was looking for a movie scene from a movie that I was searching on Youtube by one of the movies from Tales From the Crypt. If you heard of it and there was a vampire movie associated with it after finding one of the scenes found from the movie I was looking for. It was one of videos recommended to me after I watched one of the scenes that I was looking for. I never heard of it and so I clicked on the video lo and behold I saw topless women vampires :emoji_expressionless:

See, I have no control over this. Any way, good thing I wasn't trigger as much but sometimes it can get to me.

No do not search for this movie!

ARCEUS said:
Thanks for all your support guys.
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ARCEUS said:
Although, I was not regular in here previously, but was doing in interval of 2-3 days, it was for a valid reason, now, I am more damaged, my current journey is like a cliff, before I was on land, I was safe even when I fell, but this time, I fell when I was at edge of that cliff, I am in intense danger right now, life shaping exams are on the head, I have to change now. Therefore, I am taking an unwanting step, I need to leave this site guys, don't worry, I will come back within a month. I was analyzing my past victory in this war and found that I was avoiding myself to know on which streak I am, completely ignoring my progress, I ignored my struggle too, I was trying to act like a normal person's thinking. Now I am finding it logical and I think I need to repeat my past in order to remove this venom from my body, I will miss my supportive companions, but don't worry, I won't come back with the bad news, my next message in this challenge will definitely be my 30th day celebration, I promise, I pledge myself.
As it is my last message, to give a slight update, due to my current situation, I am thinking to withdraw my olympiad preparation and focus only on JEE and fill the damage as both are getting damaged and recovery is very slow. Thanks for supporting me guys. I will include this website in the blocker by tomorrow morning, wish you good luck in your worthy struggles.
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All the best with your exams. Bye until next time little bro.

Gallade_Templar said:
@LLOYYD Yes, there used to be ranks for Nazgul, Orc, and Uruk-Hai, and one became a Hobbit at Day 15. Those ranks were removed because it was thought to be rather discouraging to begin as an evil creature, and it didn't make sense for the journey to destroy the Ring to only start once you were already 15 days into the challenge.
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Oh I see, well I found at least two people with a Nazgul rank. And I was getting confused. Now it makes sense. To be honest, I don't mind if it was like that in the ranks because I did say on Day 2 on this current streak saying I didn't turn into a Nazgul lol. It makes sense to be a Nazgul because you fell into darkness controlled by the Dark Lord. Ah ok, it makes sense to start as a Hobbit in the beginning. I understand. Any way, you are one of the individuals on my last post here that I will advise later once my streak is up there. Keep strong and learn from your mistakes on your relapse as you go fellowship brother.


Anew2019 said:
2 days. Got laid off the other day. Taking a few days off before applying for jobs. Back on days. Managed to get an 8 hour sleep last night. Tomorrow I should be feeling awesome. Checked to see if I had reinstalled covenant eyes after last fall. I had not. Went to the p page. It never even phased me. I had no interest in the p. Saw an email later. Saw some pictures. Looked at them but was not interested. Had a moment the other day where I tried talking to God from my deepest self. I did. I found unimaginable peace. I found the place of peace and I can take myself back there. What a blessing. I am healing so much. There are things happening I can't describe. Memories and feelings about myself are being healed. I am coming to like myself. The me I hated was my thoughts about what my family thought about me. I thought they were better. It's not true. I am awesome. I had an awesome choir rehearsal last night. There were only a few of us. I could hear myself and was not lost in the choir. I have gotten so good. I am pleased. I am not gloating. I am just happy and kind of proud of myself. I have worked hard at my singing voice and it is nice to know it has paid off. I am not a loser like my family made me feel like. Praise God. Praise him for healing me and for my gift of music.
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I never understood this but your situation feels as if you would turn to drugs or alcohol because of rejection. To me that is strange then again it is understandable but someone was about relapse because of rejection or failure from another challenge. And your not a loser. Keep going fellowship brother.

Also lastly, @Anew2019 says "It is futile to try and do this alone."
Again, well not many can do this alone. Unlike me I can. But for as reminder, others check in every day. I don't know what's in your head to those who say "I don't want to check in every day".
Just say Day "". You don't need to pour out many paragraphs to check in. What? Your too busy for your recovery to this PMO addiction?
Again it is highly recommended to check in every day. Other individuals are succeeding because of checking in every day. I probably will leave this alone if you won't listen. That's all.

Making my days count. Day by day.

My redemption is on it's way.

Hello Bill again aiding the Fellowship.
Keep on going Fellowship!
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Day 6 (or 0).

I MO'd today. However, I don't feel like relapsing. My primary goal is to abstain from P, which I did. I do however want to be strict with myself and consider this my last failure, before I reset my counter to zero.

I'd like to abstain from P forever, but I am not really sure what I have in mind for MO. I think I will challenge myself to withhold myself from MO for 30 days, and see how that impacts me.
 
ARCEUS said:
Thanks for all your support guys.

Although, I was not regular in here previously, but was doing in interval of 2-3 days, it was for a valid reason, now, I am more damaged, my current journey is like a cliff, before I was on land, I was safe even when I fell, but this time, I fell when I was at edge of that cliff, I am in intense danger right now, life shaping exams are on the head, I have to change now. Therefore, I am taking an unwanting step, I need to leave this site guys, don't worry, I will come back within a month. I was analyzing my past victory in this war and found that I was avoiding myself to know on which streak I am, completely ignoring my progress, I ignored my struggle too, I was trying to act like a normal person's thinking. Now I am finding it logical and I think I need to repeat my past in order to remove this venom from my body, I will miss my supportive companions, but don't worry, I won't come back with the bad news, my next message in this challenge will definitely be my 30th day celebration, I promise, I pledge myself.
As it is my last message, to give a slight update, due to my current situation, I am thinking to withdraw my olympiad preparation and focus only on JEE and fill the damage as both are getting damaged and recovery is very slow. Thanks for supporting me guys. I will include this website in the blocker by tomorrow morning, wish you good luck in your worthy struggles.
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Smash the all exams and obtain the high marks as you can. I wish you all the best. We hope your come back brother!
 
Repression said:
Day 6 (or 0).

I MO'd today. However, I don't feel like relapsing. My primary goal is to abstain from P, which I did. I do however want to be strict with myself and consider this my last failure, before I reset my counter to zero.

I'd like to abstain from P forever, but I am not really sure what I have in mind for MO. I think I will challenge myself to withhold myself from MO for 30 days, and see how that impacts me.
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yeah , progressive overload
 
Checking in Fellowship Friends!

95 Days Free of PMO.

Slight disturbed sleep last night and a gloomy day outside today. The intention remains though, meditation, exposure, workout, reading and rest.

Enjoy your weekend!

Stay Strong!

95 days – After knowing the seduction of their leader to porn, the Istari nominate you as their Chief Wizard. You receive a new staff, fashioned from an upturned sapling with a blue crystal embedded in the crown. The staff possesses magical healing abilities. It will help you regain strength and fight for the next 85 days.

Quest Magic – Wizard´s Staff :emoji_sparkler:

@ARCEUS Take your time brother, but please do your best no to binge while you are away and build accountability through a trusted friend or family member.

@Percy_Jackson+ Welcome to the Fellowship!

@Talz @Gallade_Templar @CALM IN SUFFERING Brothers, I know it's difficult in the cycle of a relapse but remember the only thing that can make it even worse is giving in to binging. You become upset with yourself and try to numb it with more PMO, thus creating a vicious cycle. Use that frustration constructively. Analyze your relapse, replay the events that lead you there. Rekindle your why, cost/benefit analysis of PMO free vs using PMO. Have patience with yourself, be kind and do not give up. Redirect your energies, break the cycle.

@Repression Hey brother, sorry to hear about the relapse. Unfortunately in this challenge MO is a complete reset. You can keep a separate counter available to you for days free of porn, but in this challenge you would have to start off from day 0.
 
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Relapsed yesterday
Yesterday I notice that I didn't continue some habits that help me with this, I used social networks and used to much time my phone. I stopped watching nofap related videos. So starting to do again these good habits.

The last 2 relapses that I had started to search scorts services and I started to talk about prices with the prostitues, but after that I start to watch porn instead. I'm afraid becouse if I continue with this behavior it's too problable that I will ask for the service, something that I have never done and I don't want to do it.

I'm starting to have procastination problems, I have my main work and I have some side proyects. The deadlines of the side proyects are starting to coming soon and I have to accept that I'm a litle late.

Looking the problems that this addiction bring to my life it's something that always help me.

I din't worked out today, I have to much work for today but I will take a cold shower at least.
Keep strong my brothers.
 
Day 32 checking in!

Have successfully controlled myself and not watched Porn for more than 30 Days!
I'm so happy!!
I'll try to check in daily. Real life has been hectic at work this last week. and when i'm home i just have enough time to follow my disciplines i barley turned my pc on the last 2 weeks at home if it wasn't weekend.
But that has helped me alot!
I feel way more confident and strong without filling my mind with those fake images.

- Woke up at 5.30
- Cold bath's
- Yoga and breathing exercises.
- meditation
- Upper/lowerbody workout in evening.
- Finished reading a book Greek Mythology and going for the next one.
- no watching youtube
- It course studies

Everything was also accomplished today again thanks to God and my own determination.

My main struggle the youtube addiction has been going well too, thanks to the busy spree at work it helped me to add some miles between it and my own purposeful tasks.
its this weekend and onward that will be the moment of truth for everything normalized at work and i have more free time, But i am confident, i feel after all this days, just like with porn a window of time before the auto pilot triggers have been formed allowing me to choose consciously what to do.

In the end everything is up to the habits we form friends.
Due to this we keep going back like clockwork.
Do not give in when the urge comes, resist, show force and control yourself, soon it will lay-down death at your feet and you will be a victorious warrior in control of yourself.

I'm on the way to Moria, 2 more days and i'll reach the gates of Durin.

148 days left to reach mount doom to destroy PMO ring once and for all.
No longer a slave to our own appetites!

Let's go my brothers and sisters!
Stay strong!
 
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0 days. I am OK. I am getting together with my accountability friend in the next day or two to hand management of my covenant eyes account. Having it send him reports of when I uninstall was not enough to stop me. That's OK. Once he has management I won't be able to uninstall it from my computer or phone. I won't be able to access p from them. I am feeling so much hope. I want this to be gone. I am a firm believer in working as if everything depended on me and trusting and praying as if everything depended on God. I believe God will bless me with sobriety. I am putting things into place to help me. I am doing what I can. I have faith God will do the rest.
 
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