The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Should the Thread Title be extended?

  • No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

    Votes: 18 54.5%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

    Votes: 15 45.5%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

    Votes: 0 0.0%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

    Votes: 5 15.2%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    Votes: 6 18.2%
  • Total voters
    33
  • Poll closed .
she-dernatinus said:
Some low-life, entitled, fellon had been forcingly dragging a teenage girl holding a baby. She kept screaming for help as she had been dragged to a dark, vast empty land nearby our neighborhood. Everybody heard the girl and the baby's screams but no one intervened. I ran downstairs and told my mother, after that she called the police and the gang who wanted to abuse that girl ran away.

I am hell sure these guys are porn-sick monsters, entitlement and addiction make them feel invincible. If god forbid, I and my mother didn't intervene, they would obviously have abused the girl, recorded a P video of the crime, and uploaded it to mainstream P sites. Then it would receive at least 1 M views, from hundreds of other sexual psychopaths.
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Just wanted to share this :(
 
Checking in Fellowship Friends!

106 Days Free of PMO.

Feeling much better today, I think that 1 week haze is finally over. I had the support of the fellowship , for which I am grateful for. I also kept reminding myself that this is temporary, it happens sporadically and the intensity lessens at each encounter. 2 more days for this challenging week. The intention for today is meditation, exposure, workout, reading and work.


"Look well into thyself; there is a source of strength which will always spring up if thou wilt always look." -Marcus Aurelius

Stay strong!

@Baki Hanma @Paul S. and @nerdy_owl Thank you brothers!
 
1 day. Looking back on the weekend. Those 2 people are the ones who raised me. Crazy. My dad was whining and complaining about how big of a pain in the ass their puppies are. The man who raised me can't even handle puppies for crying out loud. I always did feel like a burden to him. I Journaled about this. This really says nothing about me and lots about him. It's sad you know. I am trying not to hold resentment. I don't think I resent him for it. Kind of lost some more respect for him. I will pray for him.

Did more thinking about my fall 24 hours ago. I did not see anything hard-core. It was way less intense. It was missing something. I think i was missing the feelings of disgust and hatred that add to the high. I probably did not damage my brain as bad as with hard-core p. I can't access hard-core p on the internet. I found about all I will find with filters in place. No novelty or hardcoreness. Even if I do fall, God forbid. I won't hurt my brain so much.
 
Day 0

Sort of disappointed to have relapsed, but I didn't try very hard.

The weather has been changing fast around here and within the last few days it's clear summer has finally ended and autumn is here. With that I find my habits changing to match what they more so were last year around this time. It's weird, I guess the seasons have a bigger effect on me then I thought! I tend to end up on a much later schedule in the colder months. I just wish I had a fireplace, that would be fitting!

I started listening to an audiobook of "The Rational Male" on my walk last night. I will go through the whole series this time.

I feel like I should have been done my nofap journey by now, so this fall I need to get to a more stable place with it. No porn with actual human relationships. I've been using my self hypnosis tapes again to try to remove the remainder of my hang-ups and have had to confront a greater level of sexual shame than I thought I had. It's all about the layers of the onion with this inner work!
 
Day 44,
checking in.

My discipline has been holding steady.

I am feeling porn is just an ex memory, just a lingering very low urge, but seeing the posts of many of you guys.
keeps the fuel of vengeance burning inside me for it.

Even my Youtube addiction is controlled I allow myself now just 45 min of Youtube max a day.
for productive ends its going well have not watched any of that anime review shit in at least a week.

I finished the Illiad and the Odyssey books.
Now i'm reading details of the conquest of Mexico of hernan cortez.

40+ days without watching porn, without browsing without watching even a single website.

I can't fucking believe it, after 10 fucking years, I am finally not regretting my days.
I'm consciously choosing what I do with my 24 hours.

I am not the weak passive coward i was before.
I could not even getup early guys.
everyday the phone would ring at 5.30 and i would stretch and stop it, then lay in that comfy bed until around 7:00.
Then I would again say tomorrow i will do it for sure, that SAME BULLSHIT over and over and over again like a endless loop so many months went by..
I purposed for so long to getup at 5.30 to do exercises to meditate and to have spare time as not to rush rush always to work.
But a bed, an inanimate object was overruling my decisions of a human........ how pathetic.
(I think in partly it was the PMO's at night's doing, leaving me tired and without willpower in the morning)

I am getting up from that bed at 5:30 asoon as it rings i getup.
like clockwork i am already up actually just waiting for the ring to get going. no matter how i feel, sometimes its smooth and easy. but if the feeling is not there, I learned to force myself from that bed.(come on, time to get the fuck up and go!)
I feel like i was a boy, and I'm finally becoming a man, who does not take shit from himself, but makes things happen by force if necessary.
I choose! not a bed or some fake images on the internet.

I am glad to the nofap community, i wish i have done it before and had this accountability team.
Backing up my conscious steady resolve to change.

I know I can do it, I feel confident in myself.
136 more days for mount doom.

Master your sexual urge's friends if you do, nothing is impossible.

Lets all drop that ring in mount doom.
 
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daddyG1981 said:
If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same; Kipling

what this means is don’t over react to victories and get proud, or to defeats and give up up. It’s all about the process. We’ve never truly won, and we’ve never ever been defeated…. Because there is always tomorrow.

agree 100% with the importance of writing things down and opening up. Even if you just wrote it down on a piece of paper for yourself and then don’t show it to anyone - it’s gets it out your head and helps you reflect and process what your mind is doing.
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I agree that writing things down has power on it's own. But I was referring more to the power of confession, I think it has a redeeming effect even if it's anonymous :)
 
End of day 12

Day was bussy as usual. This night I slept really well, I feel great. In the evening and in the morning I had thoughts about sex, but as I am getting into writing they are fading. I think this weekend will being me new challenges, therefore I have to prepare for them and have a plan for the weekend in general, because I will have 5 days off from saturday.
 
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