daddyG1981
Fapstronaut
Day 33 checking in.
almost at Moria. Looking forward to slaughtering some PMO goblins in there
almost at Moria. Looking forward to slaughtering some PMO goblins in there
24 hours in. Day 1.Day 0. Let's go.
Day 0
I started listening to an audiobook of "The Rational Male" on my walk last night. I will go through the whole series this time.
Thank you brother .You are our inspiration brotherDay 446 & 447
Congratulations @Baki Hanma ! The hardest trail of the journey is done. Stay strong and you'll never fall again!
Great information brother.
Amazing brother! You are like little David GogginsDay 44,
checking in.
My discipline has been holding steady.
I am feeling porn is just an ex memory, just a lingering very low urge, but seeing the posts of many of you guys.
keeps the fuel of vengeance burning inside me for it.
Even my Youtube addiction is controlled I allow myself now just 45 min of Youtube max a day.
for productive ends its going well have not watched any of that anime review shit in at least a week.
I finished the Illiad and the Odyssey books.
Now i'm reading details of the conquest of Mexico of hernan cortez.
40+ days without watching porn, without browsing without watching even a single website.
I can't fucking believe it, after 10 fucking years, I am finally not regretting my days.
I'm consciously choosing what I do with my 24 hours.
I am not the weak passive coward i was before.
I could not even getup early guys.
everyday the phone would ring at 5.30 and i would stretch and stop it, then lay in that comfy bed until around 7:00.
Then I would again say tomorrow i will do it for sure, that SAME BULLSHIT over and over and over again like a endless loop so many months went by..
I purposed for so long to getup at 5.30 to do exercises to meditate and to have spare time as not to rush rush always to work.
But a bed, an inanimate object was overruling my decisions of a human........ how pathetic.
(I think in partly it was the PMO's at night's doing, leaving me tired and without willpower in the morning)
I am getting up from that bed at 5:30 asoon as it rings i getup.
like clockwork i am already up actually just waiting for the ring to get going. no matter how i feel, sometimes its smooth and easy. but if the feeling is not there, I learned to force myself from that bed.(come on, time to get the fuck up and go!)
I feel like i was a boy, and I'm finally becoming a man, who does not take shit from himself, but makes things happen by force if necessary.
I choose! not a bed or some fake images on the internet.
I am glad to the nofap community, i wish i have done it before and had this accountability team.
Backing up my conscious steady resolve to change.
I know I can do it, I feel confident in myself.
136 more days for mount doom.
Master your sexual urge's friends if you do, nothing is impossible.
Lets all drop that ring in mount doom.
You got this. Never give up.0 days again. Porn has me in a tight grip. Time to break free!
Amazing brother! You are like little David Goggins
It's not an easy read. Digesting red pill was pain in a# for me. I mean reading it is different, but the hard part is accepting it wholly, that's not easy. Go into preventive medicine as well, that's even more interesting.
I have decided to keep away from all red pill videos on Youtube, it in my opinion borders on bitterness and excessive ego, wanting to command and control. Which is what masculinity is. You must exist in a realm of healthy ego and your capacity to abstain from emotions.
What is hard after red pill, is applying it with females. Man, these girls don't want to be submissive. Or better, they don't want to be submissive to a guy who she thinks is not 'man' enough. Then comes all the power struggle and ego snapping. Bascially, if you can make her to give up her ego and yours reign supreme, you make her someone who will let you take the lead.
I find it funny when I see it in these red pill videos, where guys are trying to enforce their 'masculinity' and making these girls take on a submissive stance, and these modern females are anything but ready for it. They will fight tooth n nail to not submit.
This is brilliant, well done!!!Day 44,
checking in.
My discipline has been holding steady.
I am feeling porn is just an ex memory, just a lingering very low urge, but seeing the posts of many of you guys.
keeps the fuel of vengeance burning inside me for it.
Even my Youtube addiction is controlled I allow myself now just 45 min of Youtube max a day.
for productive ends its going well have not watched any of that anime review shit in at least a week.
I finished the Illiad and the Odyssey books.
Now i'm reading details of the conquest of Mexico of hernan cortez.
40+ days without watching porn, without browsing without watching even a single website.
I can't fucking believe it, after 10 fucking years, I am finally not regretting my days.
I'm consciously choosing what I do with my 24 hours.
I am not the weak passive coward i was before.
I could not even getup early guys.
everyday the phone would ring at 5.30 and i would stretch and stop it, then lay in that comfy bed until around 7:00.
Then I would again say tomorrow i will do it for sure, that SAME BULLSHIT over and over and over again like a endless loop so many months went by..
I purposed for so long to getup at 5.30 to do exercises to meditate and to have spare time as not to rush rush always to work.
But a bed, an inanimate object was overruling my decisions of a human........ how pathetic.
(I think in partly it was the PMO's at night's doing, leaving me tired and without willpower in the morning)
I am getting up from that bed at 5:30 asoon as it rings i getup.
like clockwork i am already up actually just waiting for the ring to get going. no matter how i feel, sometimes its smooth and easy. but if the feeling is not there, I learned to force myself from that bed.(come on, time to get the fuck up and go!)
I feel like i was a boy, and I'm finally becoming a man, who does not take shit from himself, but makes things happen by force if necessary.
I choose! not a bed or some fake images on the internet.
I am glad to the nofap community, i wish i have done it before and had this accountability team.
Backing up my conscious steady resolve to change.
I know I can do it, I feel confident in myself.
136 more days for mount doom.
Master your sexual urge's friends if you do, nothing is impossible.
Lets all drop that ring in mount doom.