The Lord of the Rings Challenge

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  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

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Day 0

I started listening to an audiobook of "The Rational Male" on my walk last night. I will go through the whole series this time.

It's not an easy read. Digesting red pill was pain in a# for me. I mean reading it is different, but the hard part is accepting it wholly, that's not easy. Go into preventive medicine as well, that's even more interesting.

I have decided to keep away from all red pill videos on Youtube, it in my opinion borders on bitterness and excessive ego, wanting to command and control. Which is what masculinity is. You must exist in a realm of healthy ego and your capacity to abstain from emotions.

What is hard after red pill, is applying it with females. Man, these girls don't want to be submissive. Or better, they don't want to be submissive to a guy who she thinks is not 'man' enough. Then comes all the power struggle and ego snapping. Bascially, if you can make her to give up her ego and yours reign supreme, you make her someone who will let you take the lead.

I find it funny when I see it in these red pill videos, where guys are trying to enforce their 'masculinity' and making these girls take on a submissive stance, and these modern females are anything but ready for it. They will fight tooth n nail to not submit.
 
Day 44,
checking in.

My discipline has been holding steady.

I am feeling porn is just an ex memory, just a lingering very low urge, but seeing the posts of many of you guys.
keeps the fuel of vengeance burning inside me for it.

Even my Youtube addiction is controlled I allow myself now just 45 min of Youtube max a day.
for productive ends its going well have not watched any of that anime review shit in at least a week.

I finished the Illiad and the Odyssey books.
Now i'm reading details of the conquest of Mexico of hernan cortez.

40+ days without watching porn, without browsing without watching even a single website.

I can't fucking believe it, after 10 fucking years, I am finally not regretting my days.
I'm consciously choosing what I do with my 24 hours.

I am not the weak passive coward i was before.
I could not even getup early guys.
everyday the phone would ring at 5.30 and i would stretch and stop it, then lay in that comfy bed until around 7:00.
Then I would again say tomorrow i will do it for sure, that SAME BULLSHIT over and over and over again like a endless loop so many months went by..
I purposed for so long to getup at 5.30 to do exercises to meditate and to have spare time as not to rush rush always to work.
But a bed, an inanimate object was overruling my decisions of a human........ how pathetic.
(I think in partly it was the PMO's at night's doing, leaving me tired and without willpower in the morning)

I am getting up from that bed at 5:30 asoon as it rings i getup.
like clockwork i am already up actually just waiting for the ring to get going. no matter how i feel, sometimes its smooth and easy. but if the feeling is not there, I learned to force myself from that bed.(come on, time to get the fuck up and go!)
I feel like i was a boy, and I'm finally becoming a man, who does not take shit from himself, but makes things happen by force if necessary.
I choose! not a bed or some fake images on the internet.

I am glad to the nofap community, i wish i have done it before and had this accountability team.
Backing up my conscious steady resolve to change.

I know I can do it, I feel confident in myself.
136 more days for mount doom.

Master your sexual urge's friends if you do, nothing is impossible.

Lets all drop that ring in mount doom.
Amazing brother! You are like little David Goggins
 
2 days.

Think I may have gotten behind the reason I need to act out all the time. My default operating system seams to be fear and control. I have a very heavy heart. I carry a lot of weight. I seam to be able to put my mind into a place of lightness here now. It pulls my shoulders back and I stand taller. I don't need to control everything in this state. When I am in my ussual state I found that I force myself really hard to do things. Not charitable to myself at all. In the new state I get really nice feelings. Not sure if this is the full answer but it is def. a part of the puzzle. I just need to lighten the heck up.

This was years ago. When I had a spiritual director. I said to myself "I am allowed to". It brought tremendous relief. I talked to my spiritual director about it and he said to be careful with that. Understandable. I think I figured out why it brings relief. I felt like I was not allowed to shine. I could not become too good at anything. I was not allowed to be better. I know who I learned that from and have come to realize he is an idiot. I am allowed to!! And I will!! I am going to become everything God made me to be!!
 
It's not an easy read. Digesting red pill was pain in a# for me. I mean reading it is different, but the hard part is accepting it wholly, that's not easy. Go into preventive medicine as well, that's even more interesting.

I have decided to keep away from all red pill videos on Youtube, it in my opinion borders on bitterness and excessive ego, wanting to command and control. Which is what masculinity is. You must exist in a realm of healthy ego and your capacity to abstain from emotions.

What is hard after red pill, is applying it with females. Man, these girls don't want to be submissive. Or better, they don't want to be submissive to a guy who she thinks is not 'man' enough. Then comes all the power struggle and ego snapping. Bascially, if you can make her to give up her ego and yours reign supreme, you make her someone who will let you take the lead.

I find it funny when I see it in these red pill videos, where guys are trying to enforce their 'masculinity' and making these girls take on a submissive stance, and these modern females are anything but ready for it. They will fight tooth n nail to not submit.

One thing that Rollo has certainly convinced me of is that I should date casually and not be looking for a girlfriend. Only a relatively small amount of girls are really worth any commitment, in part for the reasons you mentioned. You really have to gain experience and take your time these days. Trust me, I know they don't want to submit; my ex absolutely destroyed me. I also recognize that I was far from worthy in the past too though.

Most of the red pill space is filled with garbage pretenders just looking to grift for a quick buck, but I have linked up with some guys that legit want to help men level up. I did some work with a red pill hypnotist named Ryan Fowler for example who has really helped change my life slowly, but surely.
 
Day 44,
checking in.

My discipline has been holding steady.

I am feeling porn is just an ex memory, just a lingering very low urge, but seeing the posts of many of you guys.
keeps the fuel of vengeance burning inside me for it.

Even my Youtube addiction is controlled I allow myself now just 45 min of Youtube max a day.
for productive ends its going well have not watched any of that anime review shit in at least a week.

I finished the Illiad and the Odyssey books.
Now i'm reading details of the conquest of Mexico of hernan cortez.

40+ days without watching porn, without browsing without watching even a single website.

I can't fucking believe it, after 10 fucking years, I am finally not regretting my days.
I'm consciously choosing what I do with my 24 hours.

I am not the weak passive coward i was before.
I could not even getup early guys.
everyday the phone would ring at 5.30 and i would stretch and stop it, then lay in that comfy bed until around 7:00.
Then I would again say tomorrow i will do it for sure, that SAME BULLSHIT over and over and over again like a endless loop so many months went by..
I purposed for so long to getup at 5.30 to do exercises to meditate and to have spare time as not to rush rush always to work.
But a bed, an inanimate object was overruling my decisions of a human........ how pathetic.
(I think in partly it was the PMO's at night's doing, leaving me tired and without willpower in the morning)

I am getting up from that bed at 5:30 asoon as it rings i getup.
like clockwork i am already up actually just waiting for the ring to get going. no matter how i feel, sometimes its smooth and easy. but if the feeling is not there, I learned to force myself from that bed.(come on, time to get the fuck up and go!)
I feel like i was a boy, and I'm finally becoming a man, who does not take shit from himself, but makes things happen by force if necessary.
I choose! not a bed or some fake images on the internet.

I am glad to the nofap community, i wish i have done it before and had this accountability team.
Backing up my conscious steady resolve to change.

I know I can do it, I feel confident in myself.
136 more days for mount doom.

Master your sexual urge's friends if you do, nothing is impossible.

Lets all drop that ring in mount doom.
This is brilliant, well done!!!
 
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