10 days Low urges yesterday. Trying to focus in my work and to increase my concentration time. Today I worked out and took a cold shower. Keep strong my brothers.
I'm reading rebooting material again after a long time not doing so. I feel better reading it, and I want to finish the Soaring Eagle pdf I have.
Happy that my cold got over finally but during the time I have been binge watching series and have started eating unhealthy food and all. Now its going to be a really difficult task to get rid of these habits.
@daddyG1981 @PeaceOnEarth108 @Paul S. Thank you for the encouragement. I feel that confessing is a great tool to fight our addictions. We post here every day and there is a reason we do it, we want to get rid of addiction. And it seems to me that when I stop confessing about my temptations and fights with PMO I also fight it less. So if we are tempted every day and are fighting every day, we should write about it every day. That's what most of us are doing, but I miss out on it some days . And also I feel that the confessions should sometimes go deep as our temptations are coming from deep inside. Again I am not saying that you are not doing that Edit: but I don't yet know when is the right time to rejoice victories, or how to do it right, because it makes us proud, which makes us weak.
End of day 11 In the mornings I am tempted to look at google images with certain naked female body parts. For now I just don't do it. Maybe because I know that it's just as bad as watching actuall P. Maybe because I don't have the time
If you can dream—and not make dreams your master; If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim; If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster And treat those two impostors just the same; Kipling what this means is don’t over react to victories and get proud, or to defeats and give up up. It’s all about the process. We’ve never truly won, and we’ve never ever been defeated…. Because there is always tomorrow. agree 100% with the importance of writing things down and opening up. Even if you just wrote it down on a piece of paper for yourself and then don’t show it to anyone - it’s gets it out your head and helps you reflect and process what your mind is doing.
Day 32 checking in no PM. had some really disturbing dreams last night that I was cruising around in my car looking at girls and fapping. Don’t think I’ve ever had a fapping dream before. I’ve had lots of sex dreams etc but never this (that I can recall). Woke up very triggered. Wrote it down. Walked the dog. Big black coffee. some heavy deadlifts. Went for a shower. Kissed my wife and kids when they woke up. my advice to others if you have a dream like that, when you wake up, even if it’s at 5am…. Get your ass out of bed and start your day. Don’t lie there. You’ll just ruminate and possible fall. win the morning win the day
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 106 Days Free of PMO. Feeling much better today, I think that 1 week haze is finally over. I had the support of the fellowship , for which I am grateful for. I also kept reminding myself that this is temporary, it happens sporadically and the intensity lessens at each encounter. 2 more days for this challenging week. The intention for today is meditation, exposure, workout, reading and work. "Look well into thyself; there is a source of strength which will always spring up if thou wilt always look." -Marcus Aurelius Stay strong! @Baki Hanma @Paul S. and @nerdy_owl Thank you brothers!
