Day 31 no PMO. Spent the day with family and friends so no urges at all for me. Today I volunteer at church and then hope to relax around the house. Should be a good day.
Thanks for all your support guys I will finally be free of life long struggle now If you want a lesson from me, you can check it Bye
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 110 Days Free of PMO. Good rest today, pushed through the fatigue/anxiety yesterday and successfully did what I set out to do and more, even felt better as I was doing it. Although on "staycation", I have some more plans today and intend to continue the same path today. I really want to make the days count and I want to be free of what ails me for good. "We suffer more often in imagination than in reality." -Seneca Stay Strong! @breaking-myths Think of the weeks you have gone through as the practice of your habit, now faced with adversity of @Anew2019 Try your best to really dive deep into what lead you to a relapse. Analyze and execute an action plan against it. Try your best not to binge. @Lone Skeleton Congrats on achieving a week! @metamorphosed Think of it as part of the process, you are now face to face with your emotions without numbing yourself. Just observe, emotions are never permanent. @daddyG1981 Do your best to follow the protocol that lead you thus far, if you need to step out of the house, do so. @Kairose Congratulations brother! Both on your achievement and deciding to workout once more. In my opinion it is so crucial to developing oneself.
Please be strong! Emotions come and go. No matter how dark it seems, soon it will be brighter. It always is. Life is wavy. And no matter how far we are, we care about you.
@Paul S. Brother Now you are in your better condition. I remembered that your past stories about failures in nofap. I Compare your past stories and current stories. Amazing brother. You are in a correct path.
Believe yourself, And defeat the PMO forces. This is the best place to build your self. Lot of guys in here write motivational messages everyday. So you can defeat PMO easily. Good luck
Day 8 checking in. Thank you. First time I made it a week without PMO since I joined this community but the best I've done before joining was 12 days. I'm hoping I can beat that record. You are doing great yourself, keep going!
1 day - At Buckland, Bilbo gives you Sting - an Elven short-sword made in Gondolin. It will turn blue when porn forces are around. @Redemptionisrequired Thank you. Yeah. I will do that. I think I did figure something out. I noticed it when showering to clean myself up after my last fall. I, like after every other fall, was frantically trying to figure out what to do to not fall again. I guess you could say I was trying to forcefully control future outcomes. I noticed this and then became aware of the present moment and I felt peace. I have come to realize that I try to forcefully control everything. Even my falls are a way to take control of things. I take it into my hands to fall until I can figure out what to do so I don't fall again. I think it is my need to control everything that brings on the temptations. My mind is always in fight mode. Trying so hard to control everything. If I can learn to surrender. If I can give this to God to figure out, and stop trying too damn hard all the time. All I need to do is pray and lighten up. I can't control everything. I just need to stop worrying so much and trust. I am reading a great book called "The Mindful Catholic". It is really teaching me how to let go. Live in my body and be present and aware of God, my body and things that surround me. It talks a lot about the difference between living in that fight mode vs in the present and it is teaching me how to turn off fight mode. I can't control this. It is my need to control everything that is causing it.
