The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.

Should the Thread Title be extended?

Poll closed Jun 21, 2020.
  1. No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

    18 vote(s)
  2. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

    15 vote(s)
  3. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

    0 vote(s)
  4. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

    5 vote(s)
  5. Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    6 vote(s)
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  1. Lone Skeleton

    Lone Skeleton Fapstronaut

  2. Day 5

    Urge: 2/5
    Thoughts: 2/5

    Just 2 more days and I'll be passed the first hurdle.
  3. icebreaker p

    icebreaker p Fapstronaut

    Thank you for rushing to help brother! I'm sick but I stayed strong today.

    I feel a new power over p. Yesterday my feeling was that either I would suddenly just snap or at least it would become a heavy battle where it I would have the difficult decision to embrace pain instead of lust. The "snap theory" was the fear, that the addiction might have the power to take away my control and afterwards I would think it was me who failed.
    But I don't believe this anymore.

    In reality, I was determined. Most of the time urges didn't rise up. Of course at some point I had to think of the possibilities, but I didn't entertain those ideas longer.

    I feel a new power growing in me! But it's still a sappling and I have to cherish it.

    As for watching (nonsexual) stuff on the internet: I pretty much binged and it was very random. I haven't learn anything during abstinence and I see that I have to work on my mindset.
    I don't think rules are enough. Rules aren't everything (especially because I tend to break my own rules). Rather I need to train myself to use my time better. What do I want? When I'm clueless I will become a victim to youtube algorithms and such.
    Today I was sick, so I'm happy with the result - I didn't relapse.
    But I have no time for brainless youtube entertainment and even high quality entertainment should be a special treat or something to share with others.
  4. icebreaker p

    icebreaker p Fapstronaut

    Bear with me brothers ...

    I also realized something about recovery: what is the difference between abstinence and real recovery? This is no mystery! To recover I need to change who I am. Abstinence alone changes our brain! But in terms of personality: as long as I fantasize porn fantasies and think this is what I want to do, my mind is messed up.
    Of course I would like to have sex at some point and not necessarily only vanilla sex. I'm not intending to become a saint. But then it will be real sex with a real girl.
    My hyped up p fantasies 1. don't will come true 2. are messed up and 3. won't help me to get laid but will keep me in the porn trap.

    The most of my fantasies are a result of what I have watched over the years. I can't stop those thoughts arising from my subconcious. But I need to learn to stop entertain p fantasies and mainly I need to stop identifying with it. I'm NOT my hijacker.
    I have already a healthy sexuality, values and healthy boundaries. But it is submerged with this p trash and maybe some weird behavior that I developed over time.

    A cleaning-up is needed!
    I have to thoroughly clean up!

    (aiming now for 15 days)
  5. i89rt5

    i89rt5 Fapstronaut

    11/3 and 11/4 2022 completed

    day 4- no O
    day 3 - No M & self stimulation
    day 2 - No P / Psub / addiction-induced arousal:
  6. Kairose

    Kairose Fapstronaut

    Day 457 hard times.

    I have no urges but I'm depressed. It's like all I want to do is to be alone, eat, and sleep. I don't have energy to do exercise, my feelings get weaker every day. Had two wet dreams in two days, probably I'll keep having em.
    My wet dreams, were me watching and searching p, but being conscious that I had to quit watching, to not relapse and be addicted again. Then after I quit searching or watching, the O.

    My mind and body are at war right now... Or maybe my spirit. Pray for me please
  7. Kairose

    Kairose Fapstronaut

    I'm getting better, I talked to a friend who basically made me realize all my problem was that I was getting away from God. Searching were I shouldn't search, running where I shouldn't run.
  8. Anas778

    Anas778 Fapstronaut

  9. Talz

    Talz Fapstronaut

    Day 10

    I fell ill with an unknown illness that has incapacitated me for over a week now. I was completely bedridden, but have slowly been able to do basic things, but still feel fairly sick. I managed to hang onto my streak, but everything else went to hell... I'm going to take as much time off life as I need to recover though, maybe this is a blessing in disguise giving me the opportunity to pace.

    I can spend the whole day out of bed now, so it seems like a good time to get a sleeping pattern going again as a next step. I was trying to sleep as much as humanly possible as I couldn't do much and thought more sleep would equal faster recovery.

    As for nofap, been having the urges starting to come on strong... I just need to remind myself I'm not someone who does pmo anymore. Once I fully get over this sickness I will try to land a date.
  10. metamorphosed

    metamorphosed Fapstronaut

  11. Gtweet

    Gtweet Fapstronaut
    NoFap Defender

    And the days go by very fast... temptations increase but the journey continues.
  12. crazyhorse11

    crazyhorse11 Fapstronaut

    Week 2 Check-In
    Heading into sensitive pathways Week 3 now again, been down this road before, the warm and fuzzies of the urges are lies. They are the call of the sirens that murder the sleepy sailor. I need to see the urges not as comfort but as neon warning signs of danger and to flee from them.

    Lowest this week was Thursday when I hit exhaustion very quickly as logged above, from 2 late nights
    Sometimes I wonder if rather than relapsing when I am in the pits of exhasution, there is a greater danger when exiting out of that state, or an illness or whatever, when you start to feel a little good again - body and mind taste what it's like to feel a little better and wants more and knows there is a fast track to that is P

    What is the main double bind this week - feeling tired, feeling self-pity, but at the same time needing to kick myself - the answer to this is to rest, schedule this rest and stick to this rest and when not resting do what I have to do, instead of loitering around in my head waiting for some dark rationale to tell me that what I need is a relapse.
    PMO is so unbelievably insidious, a vicious starving anaconda, yearning to devour you whole, dressed in gentle soothing comfort blankets for the mind - throw off the comfort blanket, reveal the serpent within, and flee!

    Commitment for this week -
    Either I stop procrastinating the work I know I need to get done and press into the pain of fear of failure on this assignment OR I continue to procrastinate by surfing Football, Social Media, News etc... and feel good but then later face the consequence of being behind and become even more stressed.
    Last edited: Nov 6, 2022
  13. NeverDefeated

    NeverDefeated Fapstronaut

    I love LOTR. I'm in! Starting on day 4 as a hobbit. Looks like I've already met Tom Bombadil. Just grabbed the Fellowship of the Ring off my bookshelf so I can read along at the same time. I haven't read this in a decade!
  14. Redemptionisrequired

    Redemptionisrequired Fapstronaut

    Checking in Fellowship friends!

    117 Days Free of PMO.

    Today begins the first of the 3 days of my own battle. My aim is to grow from this experience, face it as I should. Interestingly enough a fantasy crept into my mind early this morning, clearly an attempt to distract me from my perceived discomfort. I did not engage with it however and put a sharp end to that thought. I have a few things on the list today and I intend to tackle them as best as I can.

    Stay strong!

    @NeverDefeated Welcome to the fellowship brother!
  15. Baki Hanma

    Baki Hanma Fapstronaut

    Day 193
    Time is going very fast . But I think I have enough time to do my work. Busy week
    Good night brothers
  16. Paul S.

    Paul S. Fapstronaut

    I think you missed one palindrome two days ago. :emoji_thinking:
  17. Day 6

    Urges 3/5
    Thoughts 2/5

    The urges are starting back up again, just about right on schedule, but I'm holding strong.
  18. Anew2019

    Anew2019 Fapstronaut

    Have not checked in in a few days. I am at 2 days. Going well. I am doing so good. I am feeling loved.
  19. Lone Skeleton

    Lone Skeleton Fapstronaut

  20. The_mando

    The_mando Fapstronaut

    Day 3. Have been at work most of the last days. Not any / very little urges so far.