Restraining from entertainment is a thing but if that is your counter measure you might relapse in the long run when you suddenly get the urge to watch a movie or something ,but instead you should get engaged in a lot activities that can give you a sense of entertainment as well as that are going to be equally productive for you. Then when you have sort of a routine , watching movies or series in a small amount won't hurt.
5 days - With rain and fog I enter the old village of Bree. I hope they don't serve coffee here, I don't have much willpower in that regard. It's a bigger problem than one may think. I feel restless and nervous and the urges for bigger stimuli increases 5 days no PM 5 days no video games 5 days no hot showers 0 days no caffeine
Day 2 checking in, had my first relapse since I’ve been here I was out with work colleagues and had an overnight stay, alcohol was involved. We were in a bar and a young lady hit on me really hard, wanted to come back to my room. I didn’t consider it, told her I was married, nothing happened. I was polite but firm. But I was triggered. When I got back to the room I was supercharged, drunk, and also feeling like rewarding myself for not having brought this young lady back to my room. And it happened. Reflecting on what I’ve learned from this experience. I’d say it’s out of my normal routine to be in that situation, so it isn’t a trigger I’m likely to encounter a lot. But I need to be able to lot let myself get charged up when I get attention. I actually even thought I could have brought the girl back to my room and there would have been no PM involved, and keep my streak going, but obviously this is crazy incorrect thinking. Being faithful, respectful and bringing a broader sex addiction under control including PMO is my challenge here. we never stop
Day 37 no PMO. Woke up earlier than I would have liked. I’m going to try to go back to sleep now. Have a great day guys!
Checking in Fellowship friends! 116 Days Free of PMO. Good rest overall, slight apprehension creeping up for the week ahead. I aim to continue to remind myself that I will meet it head on with what is already available to me. I want to touch base a bit on stoic mentality here, I believe there is a misunderstanding about what it is, even what overcoming PMO addiction really is. Going through withdrawal and successfully rebooting is not about taking this happy pill. A happy pill that will make certain you never get angry, anxious or sad. It's about facing those emotions, observing them, understand them and why they arise. Addressing them as they come, whether through a perspective change, changing the actions that lead you to said outcome or accepting that things are not in your control and moving on. This will help you break addiction. This will help you become your best self and this emulates stoic mentality. Do not be reactionary with your emotions, nor bottle them up until they overflow. Have a great weekend Fellowship! Stay strong! @daddyG1981 Rise again brother, you've analyzed what lead you down the road now work on a counter measure, as best as you can.
Sorry for late brother Brother I felt those feelings When I was in below 90 days. So those days my leisure time activity was doing high intensity exercises. These exercises helped me to prevent brain fog, feeling sick, generating creative ideas. At beginning of the journey, I couldn't do even one pushup. After progressively I did one hundred pushups ( 10 sets and 10 reps). Another Important thing is having a cold shower. It changed my mood and Bad urges. It was a life saver. Brother If you achieve 50 days or 60 days , you can manage bad urges. I can't verify it. but After going through these challenges every day, your mind is stronger than previous state. So that you can manage these bad urges easily about 60 day or 50 day milestones. Good luck brother
Yeah brother, When we are going through the challenge , we can create our Army to against PMO evil. Good luck
Thank you for rushing to help brother! I'm sick but I stayed strong today. I feel a new power over p. Yesterday my feeling was that either I would suddenly just snap or at least it would become a heavy battle where it I would have the difficult decision to embrace pain instead of lust. The "snap theory" was the fear, that the addiction might have the power to take away my control and afterwards I would think it was me who failed. But I don't believe this anymore. In reality, I was determined. Most of the time urges didn't rise up. Of course at some point I had to think of the possibilities, but I didn't entertain those ideas longer. I feel a new power growing in me! But it's still a sappling and I have to cherish it. As for watching (nonsexual) stuff on the internet: I pretty much binged and it was very random. I haven't learn anything during abstinence and I see that I have to work on my mindset. I don't think rules are enough. Rules aren't everything (especially because I tend to break my own rules). Rather I need to train myself to use my time better. What do I want? When I'm clueless I will become a victim to youtube algorithms and such. Today I was sick, so I'm happy with the result - I didn't relapse. But I have no time for brainless youtube entertainment and even high quality entertainment should be a special treat or something to share with others.
Bear with me brothers ... I also realized something about recovery: what is the difference between abstinence and real recovery? This is no mystery! To recover I need to change who I am. Abstinence alone changes our brain! But in terms of personality: as long as I fantasize porn fantasies and think this is what I want to do, my mind is messed up. Of course I would like to have sex at some point and not necessarily only vanilla sex. I'm not intending to become a saint. But then it will be real sex with a real girl. My hyped up p fantasies 1. don't will come true 2. are messed up and 3. won't help me to get laid but will keep me in the porn trap. The most of my fantasies are a result of what I have watched over the years. I can't stop those thoughts arising from my subconcious. But I need to learn to stop entertain p fantasies and mainly I need to stop identifying with it. I'm NOT my hijacker. I have already a healthy sexuality, values and healthy boundaries. But it is submerged with this p trash and maybe some weird behavior that I developed over time. A cleaning-up is needed! I have to thoroughly clean up! (aiming now for 15 days)
11/3 and 11/4 2022 completed day 4- no O day 3 - No M & self stimulation day 2 - No P / Psub / addiction-induced arousal:
