The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 1

Wrapped some candy today. Been getting cravings, but can't give in. There's not much left that can stimulate me anyway... Wrapping up another online webinar right now.

 

Day 0 night report.
Just felt that I needed to check in again today, since it was a reseted day. I'm going to sleep late tonight, and I'm not proud of it. I need to get myself to sleep better.

 

Resentments decrease as gratitude for how lucky i am increases e.g. If you're lucky enough to earn over 30k a year you're in the top 1% of earners in the world, so that is an extremely lucky place to be. The thing with reboot is that the wounds and resentments are exposed and so this is the time to embrace them and heal them. To do that I need to give time to them so committing now to up my reflections (15 mins)again along with mindful breathing (10 mins) to min 5 days a week. This is growing up and its rewards are priceless.

 

Day 8
everything going good, no strong urges worth mentioning. I will complete my physics syllabus today which leaves me with 2 days for practicing questions.
@Baki Hanma thanks for your support. I will definitely post my marks on this thread and I hope to achieve my dream score or at least improve than before.

 

Day 21 no PMO. I’m not doing great mentally. Just feeling a down. I’m not thinking of PMO but just not in a great place mentally. I’m usually down for a day or two after vacation so hopefully that’s all this is.

 

Day 55
It seems I have become a warrior today , but I have not achieved anything heroic yet.But nevertheless I am proud of all those days I pushed away Pmo even though I was under tremendous stress.

 

Day 1 begining
I can notice that I've been easily angered lately. I don't know why is that happening and could use some advice, since this anger has been a strong trigger for relapsing thoutghs

@paul, Bro it's hard at the begining, but it is by opening up that you will build trust with your therapist and the space for healing will be created. Just go easy on yourself, cuz you'll problably talk about things that might make you feel even worse at the end of the session, but the thing is that you will learn how to cope with the darkest part of yourself. It takes time to aknowledge our corruption and face it clearly without fear, taking responsability over it.

 

Day 2

Urges: 2/5
Thoughts: 1/5

Stumbled again over the weekend. Lesson learned, 'Respect the chasers', they may not be as bad as the constant torrent of thoughts and urges, but they can still mess you up if you're not careful. But on the bright side, after today, it would be one whole month of no porn, so it's not all bad. Anyways, still keeping up with the cold showers and workouts despite the wintry conditions here in the heartlands.

 

Late checking
Day 217

 

Day 20 I was struggling pretty hard, but I can feel the monkey leaving...thanks for the quest Aid!

 

Day 19
Unlocked
Quest Aid – Bill, the pony

 

3 days
Low urges yesterday, was a really productive day.
Today I worked out and took a cold shower.
Keep strong my brothers.

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!


141 Days Free of PMO

Better day today, still a quick check in as things have been a bit busy.

Stay Strong!


@PeaceOnEarth108 I do exercise , meditation I can stand at increasing and I'm trying and my sleep is overall good. Sometimes its disturbed, but I do get the hours.

 

Day 0

Ended up slipping anyway... I couldn't sleep at all and nothing but compulsive fantasy/masturbation; it's as though I couldn't help it and was on autopilot. Very strange and I need to figure that out or I won't get anywhere.

Some of these fantasies I've been having lately I find a bit disturbing and I want them gone for sure... I think a lot of it is just my mind being scrambled by so much PMO. I really want to be free of that as well as so much lust.

I have too many attachments in general. The biggest one I need to work on is my need for female validation and obviously the need to PMO. What I am really looking for lies within myself! I need to learn to validate myself and not depend on outside things.

Anyway, off to an online webinar soon. March on fellowship!

 

Day 56
Successfully completed NNN for the first time.

Another day another month , same goal.

Get better ,get stronger.

 

24 days

 

Day 1 night check in
It was an okay day. Really productive, but also tiring. I managed my anger by the morning, but I'll try to put out someay, as @Paul S. suggested. Gonna read a bit and meditade before going to bed.

 

I lost my streak, Masturbating(M) regularly from past three days. I convinced myself that it would be easier after M to Focus on Studies because i spend most of the time on fantasies. Whenever i go outside i see girls as an object, i don't want to see them as an object this is the my biggest problem currently facing i am not able to focusing on my studies from few days, this leads me to in a stressful days. Plz give some advice what i do.
Starting my new streak hoping that these are the my last resetting of this year.