congratulations to your wedding. I don't know any idea about marriage but I think you can talk with your parents calm and attentively without having any arguments. I think they will attend to your wedding
Day 25. Going for extra long walk soon. I think I need to think things trough. I will go to the places, where my childhood passed. Could refresh me. I have to rush because days are short now. Maybe I am feeling low because all day feels like one long evening. I still have problems with motivation to write here. I just can't connect with "no pmo" practice now. Not much enthusiasm, but also not much tempted. Spoiler: Journey stuff Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 25. No coffee - day 25.
Day 7 everything was going good. Had a few urges to look watch porn. I also looked at some actresses, which is wrong and not allowed in brahmacharya but it was just for a minute and no bad thoughts were involved. Really productive right now but was tempted to have some low density fun by watching a documentary or a movie. But I will not do it because I have to study and get a perfect score on this week's Physics test and only after then I will allow myself to watch a documentary. All the best guys on your respective journeys.
Hello brothers! I'm on day 13 Not having urges! Thank God. But I'm trying to stay away from the phone so I'll check in once a week or a little longer. If I relapse, I will post it but, to say the truth, I don't think I will lol. I hope you all are doing great!!!
Day 25. II. Sometimes it's good (not everyday) to listen to intuition instead of schedule. Went for extra long walk to places, where my childhood passed. Snow and everything. I feel refreshed. And I think I have motivation to do something. That's rare. Next time I should go earlier. Maybe Sunday? Goals are important, but let's not forget to live and thank God for life. Spoiler: Journey stuff Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 25. No coffee - day 25.
Day 7 Okay day, most of the day at work was spent on some quite complicated stuff that I'm still struggling to understand, although I felt more focused that last week (I still need to work on my focus though). Made an important call on my lunch break that I've been procrastinating about for ages though, so that felt good. Called my Dad after work - felt like I was a bit chaotic/rambly so I need to work on that too. @PeaceOnEarth108 that sucks that your Dad might not be coming to your wedding, really sorry to hear that bro congratulations on the wedding though, I didn't realise you're getting married @crazyhorse11 yep very important to avoid burnout, I always find I relapse when burned out too @Baki Hanma well done brother, that's amazing
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 139 Days Free of PMO Still not feeling the best, my stress tolerance got lower. I can only attribute this to recurring PAWS. I'm trying my best not to avoid challenges and feel the stress/anxiety that arises, it's definitely not easy. I found that taking a jolt of cold shower at the end of my regular shower helps alleviate a bit. Bumping up my meditation as well to assist. Stay Strong! @Caged_bird It is not easy to rewire, if old triggers of your trauma are still active, perhaps that means that they have not fully been addressed. I mean the emotional aspect. Maybe revisiting that and observing, perhaps even working with someone. It takes a lot of work to unwrap trauma. As for work, if they are your subordinates and they report directly to you, I would write up learning opportunities for them and CC your leader to show the steps you are taking. Set the expectation of where they need to improve. If they do not report to you, send an email to their manager and the boss of that manager. Once that has been sent you have done all that you can. In turn focus on what your job entails and accept that you have done what you can to set them straight. @Anew2019 Perhaps calling your sister and being upfront about the missed call schedules. You can open up about how it makes you feel and take it from there. Though, it is good that you do not bare any resentment. @e r i k _ s a t i e Well done on keeping to your schedule and reaching a week. @til_im_free Nothing to apologies for brother. Try your best to manage the stressors and not run from them, I'm in a similar situation regarding the variety of stressors ahead. @PeaceOnEarth108 I'm so sorry to hear that brother, perhaps you can have someone connect your father on a table through a zoom /skype/whatsapp call. So they can see the wedding live. @crazyhorse11 Try your best to write out those resentments brother, try to practice empathy and forgiveness onto those people. Realize that this is what will release you from the grudge. It's not easy and I bare the same character for that, but it's better to practice this empathy and be released from something that harms us. @Baki Hanma Well done on conquering the urge brother. @Paul S. Apathy is part of the process, hold strong brother. @ModernTeen Brahmachari Good luck on your exam, try your best ! @Kairose Glad you found new resolve brother, great comeback! @Percy_Jackson+ Welcome back bro!
Day 3 Today was tough. I slept bad and woke up early. It was a pretty full day. At the end I went swimming and had a sauna session. Those are great, but my urges are going through the roof, and I had and anger event a couple hours ago. I think this might be the testosterone surge after training, but I have to learn how to manage it in a healthy way. I'm gonna sleep soon, but first I need to make my mind go somewhere else, so I'll read a book. @Redem, I will follow your advice. It's better to let ourselves be exposed to the danger and learn how to cope with it than to try to make a life in a total danger-free world, which is impossible and will let us down when battle knocks on our doors. Thanks man!
Day 0 Ready to get back at it. I went to a good webinar today and started "Awareness: Conversations with the Masters" by Anthony De Mello. Sounds like there's a lot of wisdom in it.
9 days @e r i k _ s a t i e @Baki Hanma @Redemptionisrequired thank you for your words. We will work it out. @Redemptionisrequired @breaking-myths and anyone with a high stress level; do you guys get enough sleep/water/nutrition/exercise/meditation/...?
Day 20 no PMO. I was a little down in the dumps yesterday. The first day back from vacation seems to always be like that for me. It’s hard getting back in the flow of my “real life”. Good news is that I didn’t have any urges related to PMO.
Day 26. Today will be chaotic day. I am going to psychologist. Preparation, long travel, visit - it will take time. But I'll try to squeeze some conference "business" before. I'll do my own stuff after coming back. Had a wet dream last night, but as far as I remember it wasn't related to erotic dreams. I just dreamt some nonsense and then it was bluh. Interesting how subconscious works. What we think as erotic on waking time is related to much weirder stuff, that we don't even understand. Spoiler: Journey stuff Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 26. No coffee - day 26.
