The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 0 guys! Long way to Mordor.

 

Day 7! First week in a while. Some urges today, especially within the last hour, I have to be vigilant; especially at night. A lost night's sleep is a one day problem; staying as a PMO addict is a lifetime problem! I'm glad to say that as opposed to brooding like yesterday I got out of bed almost immediately today. Virus is also mostly gone besides this hacking cough.

 

Checking in for day 48!

 

Day 112 almost done. It’s been too busy to allow any bad thoughts to sneak in.

 

Because of coronavirus and that I don't have to wake up early to go to school, I can stay up late. I usually stay up until 12 am to 3:30 am. Thanks for the sleep schedule idea, but I'm not the kind of guy who likes to have a sleep schedule. (Well for school, that's different, I go to bed at a certain time.) That idea is fine, but I like the idea of discipline better (which I will talk about more as you continue to read this).


A trigger system? Can you elaborate on what you mean by that? Do you mean like identifying the things that trigger me the least and things that trigger me the most? If that's what you mean, then I have a general idea of what triggers me the least and what triggers me the most. More importantly, I need to develop discipline, but I can't make it rigorous. Maybe the next time I do my foolish acts again (masturbating and ejaculating), I'll ban myself from basketball for two days, and so forth. The more I do it, the more I get punished. I like the idea of discipline, but again, I can't make it too rigorous because then I'll get really bored, which leads to masturbation and ejaculation.


I'm deleting Instagram in one week. I have to do something on there before I delete my account.

 

Day 2

The one BIG thing that hits home today is that after many years (since 4th grade), I confessed my feelings to a girl through text (I wish I did it in person.) We go to different schools. Also note that I'm not desperate; I'm completely fine if she rejects me. Plus, I don't even expect her to respond within 7 days (which is the number of days I'll be deleting my Instagram profile). I made that clear through the 2 texts I sent her. Wish me luck.


About that: If she likes me, then more the reason to quit pmo (because then she becomes a part of my life). If she doesn't like me, then that's fine as well, I still have my reasons: 1. It's hard to socialize / things get very awkward when you're just sitting or standing there and not saying anything. 2. I get too lazy when I masturbate. It's all I ever think about when I'm doing it, and it's not right either. My mind is being hardwired to only f*** girls because of their appearance. 3. I can't think normally when speaking to people when all that is on mind is women. It's a horrible thing. 4. I don't have the guts to get a girl alone so I can admit my feelings to her. 5. I can't easily ask girls out. 6. My confidence is so low when talking to girls.

 

Day 5
Had some little urges yesterday but nothing important.

 

Day 2.
Excited to log on here with you all again.
Good luck all

 

Thanks RiseToGreatness, great to see that you are still so active and helping all of us with this fun challenge.
As you said, one day at a time.

 

Going strong. Meet you there in 4 Weeks!!

Nice one!

Welcome in middle earth. Together we will destroy this ring once and for all

Good job sir! Keep your guards up. We can fail at the blink of an eye

Just you being here is already putting sauron in a place of fear

Well done! We can do this

Wow! Not bad!

Wow! Not bad. Ive been at such a streak already. Keep your guards up, you can fail at any time!! Maybe start a new hobby

Nice one. I recommend you read the book How to be 3% man of corey wayne. you can download it for free on b-ok.cc or his website

Nice to have you! together we will destroy this ring

 

Done with 16. Today 17. Urges are strong but I’m stronger.

 

Day 8!

 

I am in

 

Count me in!

 

Can I do this? I'm at 28 days.