The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 32.

I am feeling low 4th day in a row. Some kind of depressive, anxious state. No matter what I do - it's the same. I am starting to think that it's not virus related and it's withdrawals. Of course I am wondering, that maybe masturbation would help me out of these feelings...

But February won't last forever. Spring is coming. Days will be longer, it will be sunnier, warmer,... I will enjoy calisthenics outside - sunshine on my skin. It will be fantastic. And I will meet those days without masturbation. Hopefully...

Spoiler: Journey stuff

Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 32.
No caffeine (no coffee, tea, chocolate, etc.).
Calisthenics workout every Saturday. I can do one additional workout on any chosen day. 10 done.

 

Congratulations Brother!

 

welcome to fellowship....brother

 

Thanks for the message and trying to help, but, honestly, I don't understand. I am not that smart.

 

day 292!
Today I implement tommy shelby's techniques to stay calm in every situation. It's amazing

 

I feel low these days too. But I think you answered your question yourself. There is not much we can do. Just suffer through. As you realised, masturbation won't help. In my case food, walks, mindless browsing, meeting people, etc., don't help too. The one thing that works is to finish such days early, go to sleep and expect that other day will be better. And it often is. At least a little bit.

 

2 days
Middle urges yesterday I was on socials, but logged out inmediatly after having some urges.
Today I worked out and took a cold shower
keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 6, trod on!

 

Checking in Fellowship Friend's!

23 Day Free of PMO.

I had some difficulty sleep and staying asleep last night, just a lot on the mind. A couple of urges this morning, but nothing insanely intense. Work went well overall, got a nice exposure session and made some good progress in personal development.

Stay Strong!

@LLOYYD Welcome back to the Fellowship brother and congratulations on making Elf! Yes I remember you advising me of that dream, although my fall happened at 184 days. Perhaps delayed, hah. It's okay, I got up within a few days. As for what happened, work stress+flirting with girl over text and ending things with another girl I was talking to. I did not manage my emotions the best, but it's okay. Lesson learned and we climb again. I definitely aim to break my best record this time around. Like you said we will climb together!

@PeaceOnEarth108 Brother! Don't despair, you had a wonderful streak. Don't binge and be cautious over the next few days. What lead you to relapse?

@Paul S. Spring weather will give you more motivation too brother, don't despair. The emotions you are feeling are not you, they are temporary. Do your best and observe them, don't resist them and delve into your mind to see what is triggering them. These emotions are your bodies way of communicating with you, your mind will push cravings your way as to not feel what you are feeling. Also, don't beat yourself up. You are strong and smart.

 

1 day - At Buckland, Bilbo gives you Sting - an Elven short-sword made in Gondolin. It will turn blue when porn forces are around.
Quest Item - Sting

@Redemptionisrequired it were many triggers/chasers that built up after time. I always believed that fantasizing and looking at girls in public can't be that bad. But I must avoid that from now on.

 

Day 61!

 

Day 31 – Elf


@Redemptionisrequired I was surprised it came to pass but it was delayed as you said. It didn't describe how you were going to relapse but it told me you did. And you needed comfort. That was about it. You said at the time "Never" to a relapse. Well I guess it explains that. Yup, you did say you were talking to woman at your work place and ended it. Then I thought it was only stress. You know, you have to careful the flirting. That's how other people was led to a relapse as well. Because despite of the numbers of check ins of you were saying you are stressed, I thought you were going to get through it regardless. PAWS symptoms I believe? Watch out. I don't have any. Maybe little bit later on for me? Withdrawal symptoms. Any ways, again I came back because I knew I made it to my milestones along with following along with the buddy Ūruz. So I became impatient and joined back here again lol. Even though I should have done it later I suppose. Yes sir, we will be climbing up the ladder together again! Let's go!

@PeaceOnEarth108 From your recent fall, that was a good streak Pippin brother! I was surprised you made it that far too. And I thought you would make it but I guess it is what it is. I too need patience as well. As I said in my past posts here, you have to manage and strategize being alone. This applies to everyone not just you. About fantasizing, avoid that. Best believe that it will lead to a relapse. Let's on going.

@Baki Hanma Good to see you over here and other challenge little bro! I wanted to share a body building video but I will do it later.

Reflection, not sure why I came back earlier. Aside from being a Lord of the Rings fan, I guess as I said I want to follow along with the buddy Ūruz. I guess it is kind of motivating a bit. But I believe I can do this even better now. I don't know maybe it could be a bad decision on my part too. Oh well, I will do this however long as I can. I will complete this challenge as I said. So I said to Redemptionisrequired that I will be here for long term including the Special Challenge so long as I don't slip. That's all. Let's go fellowship.

 

Thanks!

 

3 days
Low urges yesterday, worked almost all the day. Was a productive one.
Today I worked out and took a cold shower
Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 7, trod on!

 

Day 2 is almost over...

Thanks for all your replies!!
Im glad that Im back here where I can reflect and am not alone with this damn addiction. It helps to read your comments and I want you to know that WE all count. Every single word here is important for evryone of us. Because there is ONE thing that is much much stronger than this damn addiction: CONNECTION.
THIS leads me to my main reason I wanna quit PMO. I feel much more connected (with my environment) after (only) a couple of days w/o Pmo - and after only a week I start to feel more connected with myself. Its insane how strong this addiction separates me from evryone else. THATS WHY Im back here. THATS WHY it needs to stop. AND THATS what I wanna focus on NOW. Because I had enough disconnection already. Anxiety, depression, PMO, it all comes from a state of disconnection. Problem is that the roots also lead into more disconnection. We need to interrupt that negative circle with all we can.

I ve designed a small routine especially for these days we feel low, we feel ill, we feel so disconnected, alone, sad, angry frustated...
till then you consider this day ALREADY LOST (like I did at my last relapse)
and then you decide to give in to the addiction again...

INSTEAD I do this NOW:
2min practising self-love
2min self sympathy (why do I feel like I feel?)
2min focus on Connection I have and could have
8min meditation
2min self love (mindful trough thoughts)
1min gratitude
1min positive future focus
2min where was I successful/could be in future

rly wise words...indeed I have some very heavy traumas - sadly ... but I still have that hope and faith within me that one day I can release them or at least they arent drowning that strong anymore. I think focus also is key here.

Great descripion brother--> I think that "use porn to feel succesful" thing really hits damn appropriately. Gives me to think about it from a nother perspective, thx for your words!
Im already practising self love evry single day, but ye your right this could be much more important on bad days.
So we wanna practice it much more on such days.
And remind ourselves that there is a reason for our existance _ bad days wont hit that hard If I can feel connected, have strong reasons and feel loved (all I can give myself with the right mindset)
Your input was great so thx again.
And I wish you much strenght brother!

Great how you're focusing on the good side of life...
Gratitude for what we have right now paired with your method (of thinkin what could go damn right instead of wrong in the future) already can make the difference between a bad and a good day sometimes.
These things are damn strong!! All can be much better and can change so fast only in a few days - stay strong brother you are not alone !
Btw Im doing calisthenics as well - maybe we can build some connection here

 

Day 8

Almost relapsed today, but i didn’t.

The reason for it getting so close was that i let myself think about which created even bigger urges which made it even harder to say no.
So i will keep stopping the relapse in its birth; stop the thoughts.
It is also easier to not think about it if i do what i am supposed to and am productive, as that will engage my mind and create stimuli and feelings of accomplishment, which will lower the urge.
Of course i will practise my responsive techniques to manage the urge and the pain my emotion self gives me when i dont let it get its fix. This includes energy rechanneling, self talk, self love and brain bridging. It is inspired from techniques by Mark Queppet.

@IveWastedMyTime
Damn i haven’t thought much about the disconnect pmo’ing and this addiction brings, but it is very much true; disconnect from family, friend, strangers on the street, yourself. Even your own highest goals and aspirations. Yet another reason to quit.
Thanks for the perspective brother.

 

Checking in Fellowship Friend's

24 Day Free of PMO

Early morning workout today, felt great.Wonderful weather today, always helps with an overall better mood. Work was busy but things went by quickly and I was quite productive. I had a nice exposure session too. A few urges earlier in the morning but nothing to regard.

Stay Strong!

@PeaceOnEarth108 If anything, just acknowledging the beauty of the women you see and then move on from there. Don't allow your mind to tie it in to Porn scenario. Anyhow, you had an awesome streak brother. You certainly have not lost its benefits, keep going!

@LLOYYD Yes brother, I mentioned I had no intention of relapsing. I had omitted the one thing that I have been advocating, not being complacent in the positive habits I was practicing. At least certain ones at least. The flirting itself is not the issue, it was me retreating from my emotions in said flirting. I've learned though, always aim to address the underlying emotion as soon as possible. I only relapsed about 5 times in the span of a week, then I got back up. The time prior to that, which was my longest streak, I had disappeared for about 4-5 months and went into autopilot mode. Definitively a big improvement there. As for PAWs, yes it can arise for some and it typically is later on. I think I am mostly through it though, I've been addressing a lot of unattended emotions throughout my journey. I will continue to do so. Let's get this.

 

2 days

 

Hi guys, I created an account with NoFap a few years ago and barely used it since. I've had the experience of abstaining from touching myself for months and relapsing. I know and believe I can go far and knock this addiction out of my life. Anyhow, I'm new to NoFap and having a difficult time navigating this forum. I'd like to join this challenge (or any challenge, group) and engage with this online community. Thanks.