Clearing out a friend's garage - came across a stash of mags/ comics - the old type that just show naked women - flicked through them quickly - did a scan to see if there was anything more explicit - there wasn't. Put them all away in a box. So I did not dwell on any photos or pics and have since left. I said I would reset counter if I actively fished, but although I did a scan it lead to nothing... So now not sure whether to reset, as I am afraid doing so will remove and reason to just plunge straight back into the shit online later? Help! Anyone?
Checking in Fellowship Friend's! 10 day Free of PMO. Haven't slept well in two nights, need to go to bed a bit earlier today. Urges are limited though. Stay Strong! 10 days – You spend the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl. PMO forces are lurking in the area. @kaerhal Sounds like you found yourself a good woman brother, glad that you have this openness with her and that she is supportive. @LZR Rise again brother! @Paul S. Is there any way to reconnect with this friend? Sounds like a very organized individual, glad he introduced you to LOTR and by extension you became part of this fellowship. You have a very noble goal ahead and I wish you all the success in achieving it, I know you can brother.
@crazyhorse11 similar thing happened to me. But it is for you to decide. I reset once, didn't reset the other. But regardless, know that accidental viewing will put your progress back by a few days, so be wary of ur urges in the coming days.
Thanks, brother! You are right. I have doubts about some stuff, but, I guess, deep down I still believe that nofap is an important quest in my life. I wish you success on your road too!
Day 73 - Warrior Here if you want to comment Fellowship about this. Keeping this brief. Missed jury duty + urges (medium - high urges) because of this I was considering a relapse. Yeah, it would have been due to frustration because if I don't follow up on my missed jury duty then I have to pay fine of $1500 or possibly jail time if I don't pay. Urges came from fantasizing about some woman and fasting as well. That's it. Amazing, how I would resort to that if I wasn't strong enough. Fighting and holding on. What a strange way to end a streak due to frustration if it did happen. That's it.
Day 8 Feeling very happy to have made it past the one-week milestone again, I have lots of time off and annual leave coming up so knowing that I have space to rest is doing wonders for me mentally!
sadly a relapse on sunday... So today is Day 2 again.. I felt very numb after the relapse and wasted way too much time and energy on that. BUT I wrote down every single thing that (I think lead to the weakness of relapsing and becoming ill) I will change a lot now... I want to delete all unnecessary data from my computer maybe the browser as well (If I delete browser that means I wont show up here constantly, I will only using laptop while Im at library then). I wanna save settings for later but NOW there are the reasons that should be eliminated: 1) feeling ill (reasons for being ill are: too much work, too less relaxing times, too much meat (Im meat hungry after workouts but too much means not 4-5 days a week only 1-2 ) 2) too much time on the computer, not enough focus due to old patterns -> Youtube ads old desktop links I dont need anymore-->DELETE I want to built a very cut out user interface... my computer should be only important for two reasons now: Writing and making/editing (recording) music. So everything else should be done when Im NOT in my room (because I only relapse in my room lol)^^ BUT writing on Computer ALSO only if absolutely necessary (wanna extract all important files on paper/have already done more than a half of this) its work in progress 3) Iwas woking quite a lot and have multiple challenges going on. After work I go to university or library to write and stay focused, after that I went to workout after that cooking then eating sleeping...Barely had time to breathe ... I forget to socialize (or ddnt take the time for that) -> so I wanna at least meet friends once a week and call family /visit more. 4) I have two jobs + study + very time hungry hobbies, if I dont do my hobbies I feel numb, if I work too much I feel tired - if Im tired I have no energy left for other important things. Maybe I need to cut out sth. I cant reach evrything I want like this.
Thanks bro, its because of u guys i wont feel like i m alone, I m happy that u r keep going and keeping ur support with me too. Thanks for being with me man lets do it...together.
I think brother, It's unintentional situation. So it doesn't feel like a relaspe. you don't want to reset your streak. Don't overthink about that brother. Be careful brother!
