The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Should the Thread Title be extended?

  • No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

    Votes: 18 54.5%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

    Votes: 15 45.5%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

    Votes: 0 0.0%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

    Votes: 5 15.2%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    Votes: 6 18.2%
  • Total voters
    33
  • Poll closed .
Vicegerent said:
It has been a long time, fellowship. I have been living a good life, free of porn. But today, I broke down a little. I slipped up and watched P. I have no intentions to go back there again. And, I’ve finally decided, it’s due time I paid a visit. My life has been going well, I am much more social and that has filled the gap that I was filling with P last year, my recovery seemed to be going on a very good track.
But now, I am shunning those things again and P seems to be returning. My insecurities about myself, they are trying to take me over. And tell me I’m not good enough. But I know, I am good enough.

It’s a hard battle, this internal conflict. These conflicts in morality. I want to do a thing, but think it’s wrong. I am very religious. But surely, talking to a girl is way better than watching P. I was talking to one, but I felt myself getting too close. And I don’t want that. Its scary. I feel that at the most people can think of me is a friend, nothing closer than that. I may be wrong, that’s a high probability, I’ve never tried to make a girlfriend. I always thought I don’t look good enough. So,.. I am distancing myself, and feeling bad. And now again feeling the urge to watch P.

Pray for guidance.

Wish everybody luck.
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Don’t give in. That’s the worse thing to do. You have to stop this cascade that has started before you relapse. It’s NOT worth it. It’s NEVER worth it. You know this. Don’t let your brain trick you into thinking it will be different. It won’t. Do some meditation, be present with your feelings. Don’t act on your urges. You’re part of the Fellowship - be strong.
 
Vicegerent said:
It has been a long time, fellowship. I have been living a good life, free of porn. But today, I broke down a little. I slipped up and watched P. I have no intentions to go back there again. And, I’ve finally decided, it’s due time I paid a visit. My life has been going well, I am much more social and that has filled the gap that I was filling with P last year, my recovery seemed to be going on a very good track.
But now, I am shunning those things again and P seems to be returning. My insecurities about myself, they are trying to take me over. And tell me I’m not good enough. But I know, I am good enough.

It’s a hard battle, this internal conflict. These conflicts in morality. I want to do a thing, but think it’s wrong. I am very religious. But surely, talking to a girl is way better than watching P. I was talking to one, but I felt myself getting too close. And I don’t want that. Its scary. I feel that at the most people can think of me is a friend, nothing closer than that. I may be wrong, that’s a high probability, I’ve never tried to make a girlfriend. I always thought I don’t look good enough. So,.. I am distancing myself, and feeling bad. And now again feeling the urge to watch P.

Pray for guidance.

Wish everybody luck.
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Destroy the ring my brother. And you´ll be able to conquer any girl, and any goal!
 
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