The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Should the Thread Title be extended?

  • No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

    Votes: 18 54.5%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

    Votes: 15 45.5%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

    Votes: 0 0.0%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

    Votes: 5 15.2%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    Votes: 6 18.2%
  • Total voters
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Stoic. said:
Day 11
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Day 12,
Today is my day 12 and its not good i am having anxiety attack, nausea and weird kind of feeling which i am not able to comprehend ,and i would like to point out one thing am not a person who was in depression or anything or any other emotional trauma then why did this happened to me today is a mystery for me so i started to feel urges i didnt succumb to them and when i denied to go for pmo/sx chat/video x/ then all of a sudden i was feeling this emotion of anxiety and i was having nausea too so after a while i went to a chatting app so i can talk to a human being ,usually this is how i relapse but today i ws dedicated to have an healthy conversation and when u detest from certain things universe will test you exactly thats what happend not even a single person wants to talk to me everyone out there is into virtual fun so i didnt talk to them just sitting here and feeling weird and anxious about whats gone happen and am ready to reset my counter if anyone of you feel that going to that chatting app was not good idea because this fraternity that we have here matters to me .
 
crazyhorse11 said:
Start of Week 3 - Strong urges out of nowhere (prob deltafosb highways waking up), but logging onto this site and reading the inspiring posts, are keeping them at bay!
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Did everything right today but started fishing almost subconsciously and ended up surfing the soft p films on my streaming service, leading to the sickeningly soul destroying anti-climax of MO. I have spent the money on the mq course and I have had 3 x 3 day fasting retreats (which I need to do again now) this year to drive the decision to quit deep into my memory, yet here I am again. I'll feel fine now for about 3 days but then hit a wall of rage on day 4, followed by 3 weeks of excruciatingly low dopamine. I was clear, I had gotten through the first 2 weeks of recovery, but fell again. Thank u for reading this, your support is the most important thing to me in this process now.
 
Day 18 in the books. Staying strong lads.
Stoic. said:
Day 12,
Today is my day 12 and its not good i am having anxiety attack, nausea and weird kind of feeling which i am not able to comprehend ,and i would like to point out one thing am not a person who was in depression or anything or any other emotional trauma then why did this happened to me today is a mystery for me so i started to feel urges i didnt succumb to them and when i denied to go for pmo/sx chat/video x/ then all of a sudden i was feeling this emotion of anxiety and i was having nausea too so after a while i went to a chatting app so i can talk to a human being ,usually this is how i relapse but today i ws dedicated to have an healthy conversation and when u detest from certain things universe will test you exactly thats what happend not even a single person wants to talk to me everyone out there is into virtual fun so i didnt talk to them just sitting here and feeling weird and anxious about whats gone happen and am ready to reset my counter if anyone of you feel that going to that chatting app was not good idea because this fraternity that we have here matters to me .
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I’m sorry to hear you’ve had a tough day. I’m my opinion, as long as you did nothing explicit or reminiscent of past behaviours on this chatting app you’re fine - no reason to reset. However I think you should be very cautious as it’s a trigger and could lead to a relapse. It’s almost a very mild form of peeking: at first you’re chatting normally but if you’re not careful you’ll end up escalating to something more explicit. Stay frosty is all I’m saying. Good luck!
crazyhorse11 said:
Did everything right today but started fishing almost subconsciously and ended up surfing the soft p films on my streaming service, leading to the sickeningly soul destroying anti-climax of MO. I have spent the money on the mq course and I have had 3 x 3 day fasting retreats (which I need to do again now) this year to drive the decision to quit deep into my memory, yet here I am again. I'll feel fine now for about 3 days but then hit a wall of rage on day 4, followed by 3 weeks of excruciatingly low dopamine. I was clear, I had gotten through the first 2 weeks of recovery, but fell again. Thank u for reading this, your support is the most important thing to me in this process now.
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Always remember progress is not linear. It seems as though you let your guard down a little if you ended up surfing subconsciously. Always be mindful of what you are doing on the internet. Pick yourself up, dust off, and keep going. No need to let this drag you down mate.
 
Stoic. said:
Day 12,
Today is my day 12 and its not good i am having anxiety attack, nausea and weird kind of feeling which i am not able to comprehend ,and i would like to point out one thing am not a person who was in depression or anything or any other emotional trauma then why did this happened to me today is a mystery for me so i started to feel urges i didnt succumb to them and when i denied to go for pmo/sx chat/video x/ then all of a sudden i was feeling this emotion of anxiety and i was having nausea too so after a while i went to a chatting app so i can talk to a human being ,usually this is how i relapse but today i ws dedicated to have an healthy conversation and when u detest from certain things universe will test you exactly thats what happend not even a single person wants to talk to me everyone out there is into virtual fun so i didnt talk to them just sitting here and feeling weird and anxious about whats gone happen and am ready to reset my counter if anyone of you feel that going to that chatting app was not good idea because this fraternity that we have here matters to me .
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First two weeks are usualyy the shittiest period after a relapse. Things start to become "normal" only once you cross that day 14-15 mark. If I was you, I wouldn't expect any better. Try not to escape the feeling with video games, internet surfing, social media, etc. Embrace it, learn from it and bring change in your life.
 
Day 54
Meditation :emoji_heavy_check_mark:
Exercise :emoji_heavy_check_mark:
Book Reading
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Day 8 done!
It was busy, but I did every little thing that I was supposed to do (study, gym, house chores and quality time), so now I can lay down and rest proudly (even though I won't have a complete 7-8 hours sleep night). Next days I'll doing the same: keeping myself busy helps a lot! I didn't have a single urge this day, except right after waking up, which is just normal and usual.
 
Healing has become necessity said:
First two weeks are usualyy the shittiest period after a relapse. Things start to become "normal" only once you cross that day 14-15 mark. If I was you, I wouldn't expect any better. Try not to escape the feeling with video games, internet surfing, social media, etc. Embrace it, learn from it and bring change in your life.
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Thanks for these words wanted them since yesterday .
 
150 days brave Fellowship!!! :emoji_fist:

Entering Mordor....

RiseToGreatness said:
150 days – After leaving the Tower you enter Mordor, the Black Land of PMO. The sky is dark and the fires of lust are everywhere. Remembering the words of the Council, you step into the blasted territory.

"There is evil there that does not sleep, and the Great Eye is ever watchful. It is a barren wasteland, riddled with fire and ash and dust, the very air you breathe is a poisonous fume."
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30 days to reach the Chambers of Fire and destroy this fucking ring!! Let´s go my brothers, one for all and all for one.

ONWARDS!!!!!!

 
Day 33.

Time to write. I won't be able to write in the evening. Meeting with friends. I miss those guys... So...

Not sure I want to write, but I don't want to get too detached again.

33 days hardmodes. Fantastic, I guess. Though, it can be complicated sometimes. Night from Sunday to Monday I was tempted to relapse very strongly. It was a bad. Had to spend time in the kitchen watching documentaries until 5 am. I think I returned to bed 5:30 or something. I don't remember.

Yesterday night was easier. I fell asleep between 1 and 2 am. Stayed in bed until that. As I see it now -- it was a dangerous gamble. Staying in bed when tempted and when not being able to sleep is a very very bad idea. Good thing nothing happened. Hopefully, next time I'll be less estupido.

Yesterday I thought that often I don't appreciate how much have I distanced myself from this addiction.
1) As my streak number shows, my addiction is still alive, but... In the past I used to masturbate 8-17 times a month. Sometimes maybe more. I made a clear progress in this direction.
2) Also, I used to masturbate whenever I am stressed -- now I just surf anxiety.
3) I used to pmo, whenever somebody hurts me -- now I just let it slide.
4) I used to pmo, whenever I go back from village to city. On recent times nothing happened.
5) I used to masturbate every Friday to "celebrate" the weekend. Now, again, it's a thing of the past.
...

I could write more. Maybe some day I'll extend the list. I am thankful to God for these improvements! But, honestly, part of me wants more. I would like my streak number to be 365+, so that I would know that pmo is a thing of the past (or at least a thing of not recent past).

Well, it is how it is. I am clearly not deserving yet. I have much to grow in honour and kindness.

Doing what I have to do.

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Battles won against pmo addiction: 119.

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33 days hardmode.
Denim jacket reward for 180 days.
No coffee.
 
12ove said:
Day 93, trod on!

having some urges, but here to continue the journey with you all! PMO forces you are no force over us!
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Day 95, trod on!

95 days – After knowing the seduction of their leader to porn, the Istari nominate you as their Chief Wizard. You receive a new staff, fashioned from an upturned sapling with a blue crystal embedded in the crown. The staff possesses magical healing abilities. It will help you regain strength and fight for the next 85 days.

Quest Magic – Wizard´s Staff :emoji_sparkler:
 
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