The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Should the Thread Title be extended?

  • No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

    Votes: 18 54.5%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

    Votes: 15 45.5%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

    Votes: 0 0.0%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

    Votes: 5 15.2%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    Votes: 6 18.2%
  • Total voters
    33
  • Poll closed .
Day 8
Same Day, but I wanted to do a secong check in for motivation and to clear my mind, since I had a little urge today. Until yesterday I had none, but I'm starting to feel that they are coming.

RiseToGreatness said:
150 days brave Fellowship!!! :emoji_fist:

Entering Mordor....



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30 days to reach the Chambers of Fire and destroy this fucking ring!! Let´s go my brothers, one for all and all for one.

ONWARDS!!!!!!

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Congrats man! I'm happy to see you thriving in the fight :D

Paul S. said:
Day 33.

Time to write. I won't be able to write in the evening. Meeting with friends. I miss those guys... So...

Not sure I want to write, but I don't want to get too detached again.

33 days hardmodes. Fantastic, I guess. Though, it can be complicated sometimes. Night from Sunday to Monday I was tempted to relapse very strongly. It was a bad. Had to spend time in the kitchen watching documentaries until 5 am. I think I returned to bed 5:30 or something. I don't remember.

Yesterday night was easier. I fell asleep between 1 and 2 am. Stayed in bed until that. As I see it now -- it was a dangerous gamble. Staying in bed when tempted and when not being able to sleep is a very very bad idea. Good thing nothing happened. Hopefully, next time I'll be less estupido.

Yesterday I thought that often I don't appreciate how much have I distanced myself from this addiction.
1) As my streak number shows, my addiction is still alive, but... In the past I used to masturbate 8-17 times a month. Sometimes maybe more. I made a clear progress in this direction.
2) Also, I used to masturbate whenever I am stressed -- now I just surf anxiety.
3) I used to pmo, whenever somebody hurts me -- now I just let it slide.
4) I used to pmo, whenever I go back from village to city. On recent times nothing happened.
5) I used to masturbate every Friday to "celebrate" the weekend. Now, again, it's a thing of the past.
...

I could write more. Maybe some day I'll extend the list. I am thankful to God for these improvements! But, honestly, part of me wants more. I would like my streak number to be 365+, so that I would know that pmo is a thing of the past (or at least a thing of not recent past).

Well, it is how it is. I am clearly not deserving yet. I have much to grow in honour and kindness.

Doing what I have to do.

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Battles won against pmo addiction: 119.

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33 days hardmode.
Denim jacket reward for 180 days.
No coffee.
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Keep strong, brother! I remember you from a long time, and I see that you've grown a lot while I was off. Sometimes we may not see our own development, since its slow and not linear. This might makes us feel hopeless, so I want to point this out for you so you keep moving on.
 
Average_Joe0285 said:
Day 18 in the books. Staying strong lads.

I’m sorry to hear you’ve had a tough day. I’m my opinion, as long as you did nothing explicit or reminiscent of past behaviours on this chatting app you’re fine - no reason to reset. However I think you should be very cautious as it’s a trigger and could lead to a relapse. It’s almost a very mild form of peeking: at first you’re chatting normally but if you’re not careful you’ll end up escalating to something more explicit. Stay frosty is all I’m saying. Good luck!

Always remember progress is not linear. It seems as though you let your guard down a little if you ended up surfing subconsciously. Always be mindful of what you are doing on the internet. Pick yourself up, dust off, and keep going. No need to let this drag you down mate.
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Thanks @Average_Joe0285 , appreciate the note of support, it means a lot :emoji_pray:
 
12ove said:
Day 95, trod on!

95 days – After knowing the seduction of their leader to porn, the Istari nominate you as their Chief Wizard. You receive a new staff, fashioned from an upturned sapling with a blue crystal embedded in the crown. The staff possesses magical healing abilities. It will help you regain strength and fight for the next 85 days.

Quest Magic – Wizard´s Staff :emoji_sparkler:
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Great achievement, well done!!!
 
Remembered the Panic button on this site - and regretted not using it yesterday. Anyway I was curious so clicked into it and wooahhh, check this post of gold out!!! (this is not my post, but a post from a fellow recovering addict (and yes we are all addicts)) :
ARE YOU QUESTIONING "IS THIS WORTH IT?" HERES MY TWO CENTS ON THIS TAKE (more like two hundred dollars content wise)

SO.. aftering PMOing for the last time, you feel the waves of shame and guilt rushing against your minimized ego. You are downcast, your self-esteem is once again in ruins, you feel as if you are falling deeper into this inescapable whirlpool. You search on google "quit porn" and bam, this forum comes up. You surf the forum, read multiple testimonials about the benefits of nofap, their past and now, realize you are not much different from their miserable pre-PMO days. You gain confidence, you make a resolution, you decide.

At least that's how my nofap journey started. I was so damn sick and tired of jizzing on the bed and feeling the massive guilt and shame that wasn't washed away, along with rest of its deleterious side effects: social isolation, anxiety, lost ego, dysfunctional thought process, dysmorphic self body image, etc, etc. Yes, my addiction was severe, and most likely more severe than yours.

When I joined this community and went serious with the nofap thing, i suffered serious withdrawals.. withdrawals that seemed to be much worse than I could handle.. at the time. I am talking about full-blown social anxiety on top of my already existent social anxiety + isolation, depression, loneliness, HOCD, ruminations, suicidal ideation, decreased concentration, extreme EXTREME agitation and irritability.. the list of the symptoms goes on and on. It was literally hell. Then, after the first three weeks, the symptoms subsided slowly but surely. Then i hit 30 days, 40 days, and eventually 90 days before my stupid relapse.

The thought hit me. "Why live this life empty without the very pleasure that gave me the rush?" Well shit, that night I binged on PMO for 8+ hours, ejaculated x3, and felt the crazy dopamine rush with tremors, shivers, chills, sweating, eyeballs dilating, etc etc... Then after few days, all the hellish withdrawal symptoms came back with the same severity. It was absolute hell. Only difference was, the withdrawals subsided quicker, but regardless, hell was still hell.

It took two blows for me to really understand its effects but now I have definitely learned my lesson.

Porn is a destructive drug. It is not much different than the other drugs out on the streets. As a med student, I know the sympathetic (fight or flight) response drugs usually create. For example, cocaine increases dopamine and adrenelin levels in your body to cause tremor, sweating, pupil dilation, nausea, vomiting, aggression, euphoria, and all the rest of crap. Then, overtime, the over-stimulated dopamine receptors become essentially desensitized in your emotion centers, which leads to the psychiatric manifestations including depression, anxiety, decrease self-esteem, dysphoria.. etc. That's why when you are withdrawing, the dopamine receptors becomes irregularly sensitized, which leads to unexpected episodes of jitteriness, anxiety, anger, mood swings, OCD, etc etc. Serotonin pretty much work the same as well. Its a freaking drug. Every-time you dope on PMO, you are destroying your brain (specifically the meso-limbic or emotion centers which are modulated with dopamine). There's also a major destruction of your inhibition centers along with this doping effect, esp your frontal cortex, which leads to greater addiction and less impulse control and self-discipline (thats why you see alot of PMO addicts with other addiction problems as well such as obsession with gaming, drinking, etc) There's also release of this evil protein called alphafosdelta, which enhance your addiction circuit so that you don't get the high unless you trigger your dopamine rush. Anyways, all in all, PMO LITERALLY MESSES UP YOUR BRAIN BIG TIME.

If you haven't experienced the symptoms of serious porn addiction yet, read the forums. Most heavy addicts like me (i am talking +10 years with prob >7 PMO a week with morphed sexual fantasies which are rather quite disgusting) will suffer hellish withdrawals. If you feel safe because you haven't experienced these porn-induced symptoms, and are willing experiment further with this path of destruction, feel free to do so. But ONLY UNDERSTAND THIS: YOUR ADDICTION WILL ONLY GET WORSE. ACCORDING TO THE FACTS, YOUR BRAIN WILL SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES AND YOU WILL SUFFER ITS DEBILITATING EFFECTS.

So, answer to the question is, if you are willing to continue to live in the life under the influences of PMO, which is slowly depriving your self-esteem, ego, your future, your relationships, your ability to even truly love and connect, then yes, please continue to do so. However, if you refuse to let this lying scheme rob your basic rights of self-esteem, self-worth, self-control, your future path to finding true love and true meanings, then no.. its just not worth it :)

*EDIT

Thank you guys for all the response. I am incredibly encouraged by all the kind words and all the feedbacks. I realize this demonic illness has plagued us all, regardless of our backgrounds, our upbringing, current occupation, etc. its a widespread epidemic destroying our generation. However, i also realize theres incredible amount of hope coming from the increased awareness of this disease. I realize our generation is starting to wake up. I realize, despite the nonsense spilling from the mainstream media justifying its use, we are acknowledging the truth behind this demonic ritual. Its truly a drug. It's more addictive than cocaine, heroine, and opoids combined. However, we were meant to be real men seeking after real women, not after mere pixel images (I quote this from the precious comment made by Trowell121 - super insightful, thanks). So I ask all of us to refuse this bullshit, reclaim control, regain all the social, psychological, physical, and emotional elements we once lost to the ominous habit, and ultimately forge our own destiny toward finding true love. Never look back. Thanks again, I appreciate the multitude, and I appreciate the camaraderie.
 
Day 55
Meditation :emoji_heavy_check_mark:
Exercise :emoji_heavy_check_mark:
Book Reading
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  • Last relapse time place trigger 11:59pm Monday. Relaxing after a really good day of many menial tasks done. During the day wfh urges did arise as the menial monotonous tasks with risk of criticism began, typed in a fishing search term but thankfully image blockers were in - regardless this act lit up the deltafosb highways which do not disappear quickly and the memory of which stayed with me. Later, watching one episode of a triggerless series, about to watch another and decided to look for a movie instead which started the fishing on semi comatosed autopilot for real. Also still had chase from nocturnal e on fri before.
  • Emotion at time - good strong but nervous as I was on cusp of doing shit and facing reality
  • What accelerated the fall? chatting to a colleague who is married and I felt parhetic
  • I am going to keep my promise to do a 3 day fast and prayer as a consequence of this before Christmas
  • Rationalisation used - complete shutdown of prefeontal cortex just on autopilot to heal pain of exercise doms
  • What boundaries were ignored?Boundary of allowing sexual fantasy and looking at sexual content; Boundary to never fish again; Boundary to stop fishing ( convinced myself that once you pop u can't stop - untrue, another lie, just unwilling to bear thediscomfort of desire); Boundary to go onto P sites; Boundary to never look at clips; Boundary to never binge - all of these boundaries were violated
  • What triggers? Monotonous task with exposure to criticism while working from home alone with serious doms after endurance exercise at weekend. Memory of fishing. Feeling I am on top of things.
  • Adding to this crash analysis I also had doms from endurance exercise the day before and my body has learned to crave the painkilling effects of O. Also physical exhaustion reminds me of emotional pain and so again the desire for pain killers - os
 
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til_im_free said:
Day 8
Same Day, but I wanted to do a secong check in for motivation and to clear my mind, since I had a little urge today. Until yesterday I had none, but I'm starting to feel that they are coming.



Congrats man! I'm happy to see you thriving in the fight :D



Keep strong, brother! I remember you from a long time, and I see that you've grown a lot while I was off. Sometimes we may not see our own development, since its slow and not linear. This might makes us feel hopeless, so I want to point this out for you so you keep moving on.
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Thanks, man! I remember...

 
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Day 34.

Sometimes no matter what I do day is just sad. This is life. Stuff happens. Moods change like weather. It would be pointless to pmo. What would that accomplish? What would that change?

Let's just keep going.... Let's just keep fighting!


Battles won against pmo addiction: 120.

:emoji_palm_tree:

34 days hardmode.
Denim jacket reward for 180 days.
No coffee.
 
crazyhorse11 said:
Remembered the Panic button on this site - and regretted not using it yesterday. Anyway I was curious so clicked into it and wooahhh, check this post of gold out!!! (this is not my post, but a post from a fellow recovering addict (and yes we are all addicts)) :
ARE YOU QUESTIONING "IS THIS WORTH IT?" HERES MY TWO CENTS ON THIS TAKE (more like two hundred dollars content wise)

SO.. aftering PMOing for the last time, you feel the waves of shame and guilt rushing against your minimized ego. You are downcast, your self-esteem is once again in ruins, you feel as if you are falling deeper into this inescapable whirlpool. You search on google "quit porn" and bam, this forum comes up. You surf the forum, read multiple testimonials about the benefits of nofap, their past and now, realize you are not much different from their miserable pre-PMO days. You gain confidence, you make a resolution, you decide.

At least that's how my nofap journey started. I was so damn sick and tired of jizzing on the bed and feeling the massive guilt and shame that wasn't washed away, along with rest of its deleterious side effects: social isolation, anxiety, lost ego, dysfunctional thought process, dysmorphic self body image, etc, etc. Yes, my addiction was severe, and most likely more severe than yours.

When I joined this community and went serious with the nofap thing, i suffered serious withdrawals.. withdrawals that seemed to be much worse than I could handle.. at the time. I am talking about full-blown social anxiety on top of my already existent social anxiety + isolation, depression, loneliness, HOCD, ruminations, suicidal ideation, decreased concentration, extreme EXTREME agitation and irritability.. the list of the symptoms goes on and on. It was literally hell. Then, after the first three weeks, the symptoms subsided slowly but surely. Then i hit 30 days, 40 days, and eventually 90 days before my stupid relapse.

The thought hit me. "Why live this life empty without the very pleasure that gave me the rush?" Well shit, that night I binged on PMO for 8+ hours, ejaculated x3, and felt the crazy dopamine rush with tremors, shivers, chills, sweating, eyeballs dilating, etc etc... Then after few days, all the hellish withdrawal symptoms came back with the same severity. It was absolute hell. Only difference was, the withdrawals subsided quicker, but regardless, hell was still hell.

It took two blows for me to really understand its effects but now I have definitely learned my lesson.

Porn is a destructive drug. It is not much different than the other drugs out on the streets. As a med student, I know the sympathetic (fight or flight) response drugs usually create. For example, cocaine increases dopamine and adrenelin levels in your body to cause tremor, sweating, pupil dilation, nausea, vomiting, aggression, euphoria, and all the rest of crap. Then, overtime, the over-stimulated dopamine receptors become essentially desensitized in your emotion centers, which leads to the psychiatric manifestations including depression, anxiety, decrease self-esteem, dysphoria.. etc. That's why when you are withdrawing, the dopamine receptors becomes irregularly sensitized, which leads to unexpected episodes of jitteriness, anxiety, anger, mood swings, OCD, etc etc. Serotonin pretty much work the same as well. Its a freaking drug. Every-time you dope on PMO, you are destroying your brain (specifically the meso-limbic or emotion centers which are modulated with dopamine). There's also a major destruction of your inhibition centers along with this doping effect, esp your frontal cortex, which leads to greater addiction and less impulse control and self-discipline (thats why you see alot of PMO addicts with other addiction problems as well such as obsession with gaming, drinking, etc) There's also release of this evil protein called alphafosdelta, which enhance your addiction circuit so that you don't get the high unless you trigger your dopamine rush. Anyways, all in all, PMO LITERALLY MESSES UP YOUR BRAIN BIG TIME.

If you haven't experienced the symptoms of serious porn addiction yet, read the forums. Most heavy addicts like me (i am talking +10 years with prob >7 PMO a week with morphed sexual fantasies which are rather quite disgusting) will suffer hellish withdrawals. If you feel safe because you haven't experienced these porn-induced symptoms, and are willing experiment further with this path of destruction, feel free to do so. But ONLY UNDERSTAND THIS: YOUR ADDICTION WILL ONLY GET WORSE. ACCORDING TO THE FACTS, YOUR BRAIN WILL SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES AND YOU WILL SUFFER ITS DEBILITATING EFFECTS.

So, answer to the question is, if you are willing to continue to live in the life under the influences of PMO, which is slowly depriving your self-esteem, ego, your future, your relationships, your ability to even truly love and connect, then yes, please continue to do so. However, if you refuse to let this lying scheme rob your basic rights of self-esteem, self-worth, self-control, your future path to finding true love and true meanings, then no.. its just not worth it :)

*EDIT

Thank you guys for all the response. I am incredibly encouraged by all the kind words and all the feedbacks. I realize this demonic illness has plagued us all, regardless of our backgrounds, our upbringing, current occupation, etc. its a widespread epidemic destroying our generation. However, i also realize theres incredible amount of hope coming from the increased awareness of this disease. I realize our generation is starting to wake up. I realize, despite the nonsense spilling from the mainstream media justifying its use, we are acknowledging the truth behind this demonic ritual. Its truly a drug. It's more addictive than cocaine, heroine, and opoids combined. However, we were meant to be real men seeking after real women, not after mere pixel images (I quote this from the precious comment made by Trowell121 - super insightful, thanks). So I ask all of us to refuse this bullshit, reclaim control, regain all the social, psychological, physical, and emotional elements we once lost to the ominous habit, and ultimately forge our own destiny toward finding true love. Never look back. Thanks again, I appreciate the multitude, and I appreciate the camaraderie.
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Thanks @crazyhorse11 for the awesome post.
 
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