Checking in Fellowship Friend's !
Day 1 free from PMO.
Short check in. I want to start off by thanking you for the warm welcome, I have missed this community.
As for my day, well today included some minor temptation, but mostly manageable. I know the tougher fight is yet to come.
Stay Strong!
1 day - At Buckland, Bilbo gives you Sting - an Elven short-sword made in Gondolin. It will turn blue when porn forces are around.
Quest Item - Sting
Thank you brother! Good to see you as well brother! We encouraged each other, let us do so once more. Yes, let's face this darkness together. I'm glad your wife is supportive and assisting you with your video game addiction, that is the sign of a very strong bond between the two of you.
Thank you brother! I appreciate the kindness as always. Although I did not want to, I must keep fighting. We both have to keep at it. I'm sorry to hear about the recent relapse, but fight on! We can improve. And it seems your assessment of the shortfall was on point, you will rise above it.
Thank you brother! It has been a long while since we last spoke. I'm glad to see you keeping the fight and yes, as it's as you say, we shall all journey together! Let's do our best. As for the comments on other posts, I know what you mean brother. I've been in debates that would (shamefully) upset me, but it made me realize two things. I'm not on this website to argue with strangers on the net, i'm here to journey with a chosen few and work together to be free of this addiction. We don't need more stress to be added to our situation. But I would also say this, try to journal about what specifically upset you, it may help you uncover something about yourself. Try to counteract the negative thought or perhaps realize what is out of your control.
Seems we both decided to resurface at the same time brother! Let's make it count, yes?
Thank you brother! Glad to see you still in this fight as well!
Thank you for the kind words brother, I'm glad to see you as well! I'll do my best to rekindle the knowledge I once had. I know I will learn from all of you, as I once did before.
.The exam I had was quite easy but since I forgot some important details my grade may not be high though ,onto the next.
Sorry to hear this mate, but well done for getting back on the wagon so soon! Look after yourself, you’ll beat your PB in no time.A 27 day streak ruined by two intense PMO sessions with porn fetish I thought I left behind me. This was the second longest streak this year.
0 daysYou decide to destroy the porn ring! You´re a Hobbit now. You must take the ring to the place where he was made, Mount Doom. You left Hobbiton heading for Bree.
Yō we are on the same day, lets race who can reach to the mountains first haha, ofc in a positive way!!!8 days – Gildor Inglorion, an Elf, crosses your path causing a Nazgûl that was chasing you to flee. You stay the night with his company of Elves talking about your struggles with PMO. "Courage is found in unlikely places" he says. He gives you an Hithlain rope, a magical rope, light and flexible, yet extremely strong.
Quest Item – Hithlain rope
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Yesterday I did a lot of recovery work. Last night I had an disturbing nightmare, which made me think that maybe I'm overdoing it or thinking too much. But now everything's fine again. As we say in German: Träume sind Schäume (dreams are foams). So I smile to myself and go on. Looking forward to the double digits!
One important take-away from yesterday was that I should integrate affimation + visualisation + traffic signals (to display my degree/risk of escalation) on a daily basis into my recovery.
So yesterday I did a web search (from a public place) where I could "download games". The reason was that I was craving "material", basically Psubs. I stopped that before anything else could happen, I didn't even see one triggering image on the two sides that I visited shortly.
But that was definitely an orange moment. So I'll classify the whole day as yellow.
Today is green, so far.
Tasks for today:
- conceptualize and apply affirmations and a visualisation for the first time
- find a solution to the mobile data problem (with varying amount of data which will eventually lead to relapse at home, if I don't manage that properly)
- ban your devices from your bedroom and put a sticky note as reminder on your bedroom door and on the bed
Yo! Then let's go, up to the Watchtower (Friday). And Monday we may already enter the House of Elrond. Then let's celebrate
I'm okay brother! I don't care about them.
Well done my friend, you’re making great progress! Looking forward to your return
Day 16 & 17 in the books. Don’t know how to feel. I was having a conversation with a girl over Snapchat and things got a bit NSFW. She sent me a couple of pictures. I looked at them and complimented her. I didn’t jerk off, but I am facing major temptations. I need to pull through this. I can’t expect to completely avoid NSFW content on this streak. I can’t just give in the moment I come across something because it’s everywhere now. I need resilience to this shit. This is a hurdle, it will test my mettle. Avoiding PMO is one thing, but coming face to face with a temptation that has been forced upon you and prevailing is another. I must master my senses. It’s nice she’s into me though, just talking to her is a trigger at the moment. Stay strong Fellowship!
