The Lord of the Rings Challenge

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Day 36

I've been having continuous feelings of restlessness today; it's mostly making me irritable, but also feels like the sort of angst I get before I'd normally relapse. I think this is the closest I've felt to relapsing in a long while, but I suppose I'm overdue for a rough patch!

Doing my best to occupy myself and push through this feeling, I'm moving out in a couple of days so I have lots of tasks I can get on with at home.
 
Checking in Fellowship Friend's !

Day 0 free from PMO.

I won't lie, things have been troublesome for me lately brothers. I have a crush on a coworker of mine and have had moments of lust for her as well. This paired with some other unresolved emotions, such as anger and anxiety, have lead to more urges and my relapse.

I know that lust/crush is really just a interest in a false person, a projection of an ideal woman that isn't actually the woman I am crushing on. However, what does make it difficult is that we both have shared raw emotion which each other and we connect well. As if we've known one another for a long while.

I've journaled about it the crush/lust in great detail. I will do the same with with my recent encounters of anger and anxiety.

I feel tired and worn, however I must keep rising. The temptation demon never rests, so I will work at being more vigilant once more.


Stay Strong!


0 days :emoji_star2: You decide to destroy the porn ring! You´re a Hobbit now. You must take the ring to the place where he was made, Mount Doom. You left Hobbiton heading for Bree.
 
Redemptionisrequired said:
Checking in Fellowship Friend's !

Day 0 free from PMO.

I won't lie, things have been troublesome for me lately brothers. I have a crush on a coworker of mine and have had moments of lust for her as well. This paired with some other unresolved emotions, such as anger and anxiety, have lead to more urges and my relapse.

I know that lust/crush is really just a interest in a false person, a projection of an ideal woman that isn't actually the woman I am crushing on. However, what does make it difficult is that we both have shared raw emotion which each other and we connect well. As if we've known one another for a long while.

I've journaled about it the crush/lust in great detail. I will do the same with with my recent encounters of anger and anxiety.

I feel tired and worn, however I must keep rising. The temptation demon never rests, so I will work at being more vigilant once more.


Stay Strong!


0 days :emoji_star2: You decide to destroy the porn ring! You´re a Hobbit now. You must take the ring to the place where he was made, Mount Doom. You left Hobbiton heading for Bree.
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Welcome to the Club brother.

Yes, temptation is a real demon and if not kept in check it can cause disasters for the people like us in our recovery phase. Infact our own will power is not enough to fight against it. Some planning and engagement with the community while sharing the unbalance emotional state can greatly help in surf the chaser effect or any sort of self-doubt raised during the recovery. Together we can fight and win this. It can take some time but definately, in the end, we shall taste the sweet victory.
 
3 days – PMO forces have spotted you!! With haste you use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine river.
My relapse wasn't small but since I got up right away and feel confident to do another long streak, I feel already like on day 7 or something. This is much better living than in that hole, that gollum cave, where I dwelled for quite a time, before my last streak.

I'm exercising a lot, I feel fit and sharp like an axe. A coarsly ground axe - my mind is still in need of some more sharpening .

I'm growing in quite some areas and I don't even feel the need to enumerate those. I don't need to come here all the time and write tons of stuff, but I'm still journalling a lot, mostly offline.

I made a big plan for all kind of improvements and a checklist - but ... it's only natural that my body and mind doesn't comply. All that requires quite some time and good techniques and there's no lack of drop knits (like for example planning, thinking, talking, listening to motivational stuff alone doesn't change so much).

As for recovery itself, I'm much more confident than since a long time, that a p free life is possible for me. Then there's mo and fantasy. Fantasy alone is so much less dopaminergic than HSIP. But still it happens. These rididuculous fantasies ... I need to work on that front too. Only this morning I endulged in some porny fantasies about my co-workers. Just stop that! - it's possible, only the habit is quite "sticky" :D
 
Day 5!
Redemptionisrequired said:
Checking in Fellowship Friend's !

Day 0 free from PMO.

I won't lie, things have been troublesome for me lately brothers. I have a crush on a coworker of mine and have had moments of lust for her as well. This paired with some other unresolved emotions, such as anger and anxiety, have lead to more urges and my relapse.

I know that lust/crush is really just a interest in a false person, a projection of an ideal woman that isn't actually the woman I am crushing on. However, what does make it difficult is that we both have shared raw emotion which each other and we connect well. As if we've known one another for a long while.

I've journaled about it the crush/lust in great detail. I will do the same with with my recent encounters of anger and anxiety.

I feel tired and worn, however I must keep rising. The temptation demon never rests, so I will work at being more vigilant once more.


Stay Strong!


0 days :emoji_star2: You decide to destroy the porn ring! You´re a Hobbit now. You must take the ring to the place where he was made, Mount Doom. You left Hobbiton heading for Bree.
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Rise again brother! Never Give up!
icebreaker7 said:
3 days – PMO forces have spotted you!! With haste you use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine river.
My relapse wasn't small but since I got up right away and feel confident to do another long streak, I feel already like on day 7 or something. This is much better living than in that hole, that gollum cave, where I dwelled for quite a time, before my last streak.

I'm exercising a lot, I feel fit and sharp like an axe. A coarsly ground axe - my mind is still in need of some more sharpening .

I'm growing in quite some areas and I don't even feel the need to enumerate those. I don't need to come here all the time and write tons of stuff, but I'm still journalling a lot, mostly offline.

I made a big plan for all kind of improvements and a checklist - but ... it's only natural that my body and mind doesn't comply. All that requires quite some time and good techniques and there's no lack of drop knits (like for example planning, thinking, talking, listening to motivational stuff alone doesn't change so much).

As for recovery itself, I'm much more confident than since a long time, that a p free life is possible for me. Then there's mo and fantasy. Fantasy alone is so much less dopaminergic than HSIP. But still it happens. These rididuculous fantasies ... I need to work on that front too. Only this morning I endulged in some porny fantasies about my co-workers. Just stop that! - it's possible, only the habit is quite "sticky" :D
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brother, you also add some parts to that quote.you can add your name too.:)
 
Day 37

Still struggling with restlessness, it feels as if my mind is searching for any kind of sexual stimuli. I've been worried I'm close to relapsing, but I must remind myself that I am more than capable of abstaining and rebooting!

Moving into a new house tomorrow, it will be nice to know that PMO will never set foot inside it if I fight it with all my strength!
 
36 days passed
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Kaerhal said:
Day 37
Still struggling with restlessness, it feels as if my mind is searching for any kind of sexual stimuli.
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Same thing here... last night I had my first wet dream. Today was not an easy day because my mind is pretty sensitive to anything erotic.
The last few days I was doing ok, today I was just in a terrible mood.

Anyways... it is what it is. Good luck with your moving!
 
JiuJitsuGuy said:
36 days passed
54 days remaining
40% completed
5.1 weeks passed
7.7 weeks remaining



Same thing here... last night I had my first wet dream. Today was not an easy day because my mind is pretty sensitive to anything erotic.
The last few days I was doing ok, today I was just in a terrible mood.

Anyways... it is what it is. Good luck with your moving!
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Thank you mate, I'm in a busy season! Everything should simmer down in a month after I'm married :) hope your days get better!
 
Paul S. said:
Day 100.

I am tempted to relapse. :( Just saying. Though I try to act normal around people, psychologically I am not good. Some kind of darkness in my head. It will pass.

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100 days hardmode.
No caffeine at all.
Documentary "So, where next?" 4/many
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100 days!! Congratulations @Paul S., what a fantastic achievement! You're absolutely right, it will pass, wishing you all the best in the days to come.
 
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