The Lord of the Rings Challenge

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  • No, leave like that: "The Lord of the Rings Challenge"

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  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Fellowship of Nofap"

    Votes: 15 45.5%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: Rising Fellowship of Eärendil"

    Votes: 0 0.0%

  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Journey to Mount Doom"

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  • Yes. "The Lord of the Rings Challenge: The Quest of the Ring-bearer"

    Votes: 6 18.2%
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Week 11 down :emoji_racehorse:
One more week down to a full 90 day reboot with zero fishing or even much fantasy, thank God. There have been desires but for the real rather than the fake, but overall this will be my first 90 days, clean of EPMO in years. Going to sign up for a new education to celebrate and look to incorporate a new morning routine as part of this change. Fully committed now to push on and get to 1 year clear so will also sign up for an endurance event to train for. Bigger picture however is to overcome all bad habits and become a true practitioner on the path to salvation so many more hurdles to overcome.
 
wanttoliveagain said:
Day 24

Yesterday, I Had the strongest urges hitting me from every direction. I literally had to turn off my router and lock my phone to prevent from disaster, went for the running and it was less somehow. Never stay free lol else it will engulf you.....
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The action you took shows that you're far in your Recovery. Good that you do Prevention and Protection!
Roll on!
 
icebreaker7 said:
The action you took shows that you're far in your Recovery. Good that you do Prevention and Protection!
Roll on!
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Yeah. But the urges are not like this every day. It happens once or two in a week. Might be testosterone spike in my body making me feel more horny. As I used to pmo daily before. This is a new experience to me and I am feeling the perks already in my body. This abstinence doesn't give you superpowers but yet I can confirm it will bring happiness and positivity in your life. Protection and prevention in any way possible are indeed important as they are the means to remain disciplined throughout the journey.

Bro hope you are doing good too, saw that you recently relapsed but I am for sure that you are already on the battlefield fighting for what is right for you and remember you are not alone, we are with you in this fight, we can do it!!
 
Day 5.

Finished work, wrote my friend, exercised, had some foods (meat included), chilled a bit, it's time for sleep soon.

It would be nice to not relapse on weekend. I will be tempted for sure. Especially on Sunday. What will I do? Will I stay home and watch p like last Sunday or will I think of something different?

I am so weary of this. This journey is starting to sicken me. But I have no choice. I have to do what I have to do. Sorry for being honest. No, actually, I am not sorry. What would be the point of lying to myself and others?

Let's just go to sleep.

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5 days hardmode.
No caffeine at all.
Documentary.
 
Day 4

This morning I was triggered by a screenshot on my computer, that I accidently had shot when playing a porn game. It showed NO arousing stuff at all, but nevertheless it reminded me on that game, it reminded me on playing p games, on pmo.
This was only the beginning of a messed up day.

I pretended a lot today. I pretended to work on my project as planned but I didn't REALLY work on it. No wonder I got demotivated soon and started to distract and entertain myself, since I didn't succeed with anything which would have motivated me.
I think I see now how I self-sabotage myself and how I should do it instead. But still I want to tell you about my feelings:

I feel a little empty and lonely. It seems to me, that doing my work on a (free) weekend and abstaining from media (more or less) means I'm not connected to other people. I see pretty girls, I see people having fun ...

I know that the alternative wouldn't be that I socialize or hit on girls, but staying at home, caving in with media, entertainment, porn.
I can process those feelings, I can do some meditation. And then just go the righteous path, which will lead to happiness not the opposite. If only I walk it.
Stay calm. Focus, Smile. Get on with your stuff.

Self talk helps :)


// PS: I changed my Signature and my approach a little bit. My recovery goal is to abstain from p and pmo. So that's what I will reset for in this challenge. But I also want to abstain from M as well and be accountable about it (as you can see in my Signature).
And I think "No-Arousal" is a good idea, as a continuos practice.
 
Day 6.

I think I am feeling less weary today speaking about nofap.

In the morning did street gymnastics. Strength today was not a so good. 12 pull ups in the first cycle (last week I could do 14). So... I don't know. Thinking about that ate mostly meat for lunch. I hope it helps.

Later in the day went with a friend to botanical gardens and to see the house of St. Faustina. I like spending time in natures. Makes me calmer.

I would like to relapse this evening, but I hope I won't do that. That wouldn't be smart. I have to remember that it's 6 days without p, but without orgasms it's way longer. So I should be smart to not waste a good streak.

Tomorrow I'll try something different. I'll go to study with my best mate. We'll see if that helps to not relapse. I don't know. It's difficult. When I am writing this, bitterness is coming back. Ditching this addiction is very difficult for me. Constant work.

In the middle of writing this I had to hang clothes. And among them there were a jacket-sweater that my mate gifted me. I stopped and I got emotional. It's not about jacket itself. My friends, my family are the best gifts for me from God. I have met lots of kind people in my life. I don't feel worthy. Because often I am tired, and bitter, and disappointed about life stuffs... I am not able to bring the same into relationships as they are bringing, but they are still there for me.

Let's just be thankful and keep going...

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