It aint worth it - go for a walk and get fresh air asapDay 57. II.
Oh no.I am close to relapse. I would like to turn on p so much that my body is physically trembling a bit.
57 days hardmode.
Helpers:
- No coffee.
- Going to sleep on time.
- No news sites.
You are probably right. :/It aint worth it - go for a walk and get fresh air asapthat helps me at least. All urges comes to an end usually within 15-60minutes. Regroup when you are outside on how to tackle the rest of the day
Was very bad today again. Almost relapsed... But again... Wrote my accountability buddy and went for a very long walk. Walk made me very tired, but my mind is still restless. No sexual fantasies, just restless... At the moment I am tempted to stress-eat. I don't know what is happening to me. Maybe the brains are trying to get some dopamines at any cost...
My mind is trying to send me on guilt trips. Because sometimes trying to avoid relapse, I avoid my responsibilities or sleep. I just can't stay near computer or in bed when I am tempted to relapse. But I am trying to not pay attention. I deserve to be free. 6.5 years trying. Even if I don't deserve to be free yet, I should try my max.
I am not sure my eyes are on the road anymore. I am sinking to my mind. Yes, I am feeling tense and I want to satisfy something. I write "something", because I don't know what it is. Is it a craving? Hm.... Not sure... If yes, at the moment it's very subtle and dispersed through all my body.
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I don't know to much about your personal life but I do understand the feeling of have your mind invaded by thoughts and images especially when all you want to do is sleep and not let it bother you. Part of what helps is thinking more of those who support you, thinking of friends and family. Thinking of their joy and happiness in knowing you are a strong person for dealing with this burden, even if they might never know of it. Keep strong man, you're almost 2 months in and you'll reach the mountain in no time!Day 57. III.
Reread this from couple of years ago. I like determination and stuff. I am not sure I have this determination to "try my max" anymore. Life is a real complicated right now, hey.
A bit has changed I see. I am tempted every night before going to sleep but not that strongly. Maybe because I am often tired. I just drift to sleep even if I am tempted.
57 days hardmode.
Helpers:
- No coffee.
- Going to sleep on time.
- No news sites.
Thanks, bro! It will take a long time to destroy this ring, but we'll do it.I don't know to much about your personal life but I do understand the feeling of have your mind invaded by thoughts and images especially when all you want to do is sleep and not let it bother you. Part of what helps is thinking more of those who support you, thinking of friends and family. Thinking of their joy and happiness in knowing you are a strong person for dealing with this burden, even if they might never know of it. Keep strong man, you're almost 2 months in and you'll reach the mountain in no time!
First time on the site/forum/challenge, but not first time trying to drop the ring. Glad to be here in hopes to give someone some extra booster of motivation. We all need it! We're all on this journey.Thanks, bro! It will take a long time to destroy this ring, but we'll do it.
Good luck, man! I like your motivation. Are you first time in this challenge?