Man, part of me is wondering if that relapse yesterday (that turned into a 4 hour binge) was kind of exactly what I needed. I felt really good yesterday. My anxiety was by no means gone but it was at it's lowest level that I can remember. As woo-woo as it sounds (ie. I dont buy into semen retention, but...), I could really feel myself becoming more assertive and full of energy. I know nine days isn't a massive streak for a lot of people but it's the furthest I've got in a while, and the contrast between yesterday and today is mind boggling. Today, I'm plagued by anxiety and worry and I feel more lethargic than a koala in a desert.