One more day heading South brave Fellowship. Have a great Sunday all, stay focus, stay in the path!!!!! Here´s Soaring Eagle with words of wisdom "Relapses happen daily after a relapse one is often very disheartened, this is not hard to see. In the start one is full of ambition with a tremendous amount of determination, after a while this determination starts to sway, after numerous relapses, we start to lose confidence in ourselves. Body symptoms tell you to stop indulging, by indulging further the body is finished, but the addiction tells you to keep masturbating. The vast majority of brothers are firmly controlled the addiction, like a stringed doll and becoming a slave to desires, losing one’s free will; aware of the error but unable to stop, struggling bitterly in the vicious cycle. It is not scary to relapse, still scarier it is to not study, without it the level of awareness and determination will not increase. Brute force rebooting without studying will surely result in failure! Some brothers would ask, is anyone able to completely reboot on the first try? To tell the truth, out of the thousands of brothers that I came across, I have yet to see anyone succeeding on their first try. Everybody has repeatedly relapsed, constantly learning from their past mistakes, constantly studying rebooting articles to increase the awareness and determination, and slowly succeeding in this fashion."
Day 9! “9 rings were gifted to the race of men, who, above all else, desire power.” Remember that it’s the power of the will which we’re after. The liberty to make our own decisions and to not be controlled by our addictions. Keep fighting the good fight.
Brothers, sisters and members of fellowship, I am going to take a 7 day tech hiatus. As part of this I will not be online as far as I can help it, so won't be checking in for the next week. I think it is a good next step for where I am in my reboot. So I wish to say good luck for the upcoming week, I believe it will be another week full of recovery for all of us here! Stay strong, and have no remorse for the PMO fiends you will face, for they will show no mercy to you!
Day 3 down. I was tested real hard a few minutes ago, faced with a crossroads where I could easily go back to P. Every time this has happened recently I've caved, but not this time! I'm still sober.
it happens, don't beat yourself for it, you will lose motivation. Whenever you are in such a situation, eat, watch youtube, listen to music or just sleep. The grip is strong, it is not your fault. We are all going to make it.
Day 6 completed of the Lord of the Rings challenge, but I am suffering with urinary incontinence recently. It is like dribbing. Can anyone help me out? My mood also feels dead.
Day 7 completed Because of network problems I could not login last 3 days but controlled very well Thank you all
It is with great sadness that after 96 days I messed up. It wasn’t as difficult as I thought it would be. Am I happy I made it this far? Yes. I’m proud of myself for that achievement. Today I start back at 0 ready to come back and do better. Let’s do this!!!
I got lazy this weekend and fell back on old habits. I’m happy I beat my longest streak by a day, but I’m disappointed I gave in to the addiction again. Cannot wallow in self pity though. Need to pick myself back up and start over. Back to Day 0.
I think I'm going to have to cut out social media mostly or even entirely. I've noticed that a lot of the time when I go onto social media I'm subconsciously fishing for some sort of P-Sub to get a rush. A lot of the time I don't even realise this until I see something triggering. From now on, I'll have to only use YouTube when I have something I expressly want to look up / watch, and all other social media should be thrown out entirely.
