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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by RiseToGreatness, Sep 22, 2019.
Day 0. The weirdest thing in my reboot is that all my resets are due to fantasies in my head. As for porn and other sexual content I haven't watched anything like that for 4 months straight. Brothers do you know some techniques to clean my brain from this stuff? I've tried meditations but unfortunately I live in a big and very noisy city. So I need something else.
Hear Some Pleasant Music and Read Some Religious Books, That Will Help You Clear Your Mind. You Can Play Some Games Like Minesweeper. You Can Learn A New Language & Stop Getting Bored. This Will Really Hep You!!!!!!
Day 1: 25 hours and 23 minutes in.
Day 11 completed
Thank you all
Day 4/500. Day 3 Completed Successfully!!
Day 16 completed.
"Enter his gates with thanksgiving ,Give thanks to him,blessed be his name."
A Hobbit now. @RiseToGreatness .
Day 19 and feeling good.
Day 6! @RiseToGreatness I've graduated to Uruk-Hai
Day 9 of the Lord of the Rings challenge complete!
I want to complete all the goals I have left behind because of the dead mood, I have such a surge of energy but I just don't feel like sitting In one place and working. I feel very restless. It's like i want to do something that has movement but my work involves sitting in one place.
Day 5 and continuing
6 Days down!
I am now Uruk-Hai, forged in the fires of Isengard.
Day 12 and getting tired of the Uruk-Hai life. Bring on that sweet Hobbit life!
I am realizing how often I start to touch myself when I have an erection, especially when I am bored. I don’t think about it too much, but since I made that promise to myself about resetting when I continue to masturbate after I realize I am doing it, I am stopping now. It does not matter if I do not go all the way, if I realize what I am doing and I do not stop after a few seconds, then I have made the conscious choice to give into my urges. On the other hand, I have not looked at porn or porn-sub these past 2.5-4 days. I briefly did a google search of Hentai on Sunday, but immediately closed out, so the last time I did full on relapse worthy porn-sub was last Friday night at around midnight. Granted I reset my counter on Sunday due to masturbation, and now I am a lot more aware on my circumstances than I was just two and a half days ago. I have relapsed hundreds of times since I started trying to get clean, and with me moving into a Christian living community on the 15th, I am determined to make Sunday my last reset/relapse as I am tired of the cycle of success, relapse, depression, binge, recovery, relapse, depression, and back to success. I am ready to start anew and lead a successful life from this day forward. It will not be easy, and I may stumble, but I have made several promises to myself to hold myself accountable, and knowing that my promises require me to reset at a much lower threshold inspires me to not engage in risky behavior like viewing images (even briefly) that could be triggering, and not touching myself like I would in the past.
Back to where I started. Day0/500
85 days done Have a great day, fellowship!
Day 3 completed successfully
All the best brothers
Your brother in this struggle
Day 5 today - one more day of being a nasty orc!
Day 1: 36 hours in.