Day 0 yesterday I relapsed again, this sucks !!, I feel that I am worse than when I started, undoubtedly I am in a self-destructive cycle where nothing matters to me. : (
Day 17. I sense some urges in my body, but I´m doing exercise to erradicate them. It works! I think that I have them because I don´t use the same amount of energy as non-holiday periods and I´m unconscienly looking for a form to deal with that. Luckly, temptations and P related images haven´t got a great presence in these days, but it´s a sign to remind me that I don´t have to let go weak my watch. St. Joseph, pray for us.
Welcome to this Fellowship. We are in the same path to destroy the ring, but it´s a long and hard path. We can do this alone, so everyone here helps the others. Here starts your travel from vice to virtue. Fight day a day, every hour, every minute matters in that. Little by little, you will learn a lot on how to win this battle. And don´t forget to pray!
Day 6 @RiseToGreatness I have made it to Urah-Kai for the hopefully final time. With my new game plan, I have limited temptations, and I am doing really well. I sometimes absentmindedly started to touch myself, but when I realize it, I stop. I had come on yesterday to write my daily update, but my iPad ran out of power and so I had to charge it overnight, hence why I did not post last night. In three days, I will have made it the longest I have in about a month, and I am excited. Best, Mathman1994
Checking in for day 5. I have had my worst urges yesterday when I didn't write in my journal. I had a cold shower when I got back from camp and I will make sure I write in my journal tonight. I can't wait to get into a longer streak.
Relapsed again... Hard this time. Had a different reaction this time. I realise that as soon as my structure falls apart, I tend to give in far easier. Usually my structure was given by outside means, because of lockdown I must maintain it myself.